#some ranting

Was it really to make Kinn regret? Or just to be able to get his reassurance? His motives, I believe wasn’t about being a good bodyguard. Because he still isn’t that good!

I see some of you saying, who put Porsche on bar duty, I say why wouldn’t they? He’s supposed to be top notch bodyguard now, like Ken says in the punishment scene. Right?

But no, Porsche had to drink that offered glass, he didn’t questioned it, not really. And don’t say he looked over Kinn for permission. I don’t think that was what it was. Porsche simply did what he wanna do again, and guys, that’s not okay! Not from a employee view.

Porsche’s basically not caring for his job, and he’s proving it. It just proves that he still doesn’t care about being a real protector for Kinn. It’s one of the reasons why I’m looking for when he’s actually gonna look out for Kinn in a very serious way. Don’t get me wrong, Porsche’s gonna get so good, he’ll be scaring people even for looking at Kinn’s way. But he’s got so much more to do before that happens. He’ll get there though, you’ll see.

Now, let’s talk about that faithful night a little. It was dub con at best, nothing more in my opinion. Why though? Let’s start with a different approach, let’s say Porsche wasn’t drugged and he was practically molesting Kinn. Would you all think the same about Porsche’s behavior if his judgment wasn’t clouded (it wasn’t too clouded btw I’ll get to that in a sec).

I know some of you might say Kinn could’ve pushed him he was the sober one(!) (was Kinn really so sober? He was already drinking scotch at the event, and we don’t know if he was also drinking before coming there..) or that he could let one his bodyguards to take care of Porsche. How could he though? You all see it, guy can’t sleep without a gun in his hand in his own home. How can he trust one of his people to take care of Porsche. He can’t, because even if there’s a tiny bit of doubt that one of them is the mole then the minute Kinn leaves Porsche, they might call the predator back and let them have their way with Porsche. Kinn won’t have that risk.

Kinn doesn’t trust anyone. ANYONE! He also couldn’t trust them with Porsche. Because he feels for Porsche, he can’t pinpoint what’s the feeling yet. But Kinn will get there too. It’s not easy for him, living the life he lives.

Let’s get back to the dr*gged topic. I’m gonna treat it more seriously, why? Because some of you act like this is real life and you’re making Kinn to be your arc predator (While you’ve Vegas to blame for pretty much everything). So I’ll also act like it’s more serious than it is.

Let’s talk about consent in that scene, first of all Porsche headbutted Vegas. He was conscious enough to realize something was wrong and needed to stop. Then he threw up. That’s also something that’s gonna help him feel more grounded. Then Kinn takes him to the bathroom he’s once again conscious enough to push Kinn, to tell him not get touchy.

I’m not making up these scenes they happened! And do you really think Kinn didn’t wash Porsche a little or at least wiped him with wet towel? Because they were covered in puke. Except they weren’t when we see them in the bathroom. So everyone can breathe, maybe Porsche even brushed his teeth. (And also how do you know Kinn didn’t use lube or condoms? It’s not like they can show every little detail, it’s not p*rn guys!)

Anyways, then we see Porsche looking for something in Kinn. Something he begin to look for, starting ep3. Porsche looks for his attention. He doesn’t know why he wants it, not in the way of reality, Porsche just knows that he has that need for particularly Kinn’s attention.

He needs to have it. His eyes are also on Kinn when he’s looking for an approval or something, it’s subtle but it’s there. And the way Porsche chooses his words. It’s a very open way of showing how much Porsche needs it from Kinn, and Kinn only!

Back to the faithful night, I say it’s dub con at best because, Porsche’s touching all over Kinn, he’s aware, I completely agree that dr*gs have affects on him because he’s being very courageous. But he isn’t off of his mind guys! And he remembers, he remembers something very particular, like Kinn kissing him and he’s also in his mind enough to use that against Kinn. (Didn’t any of you guys get drunk or experiment with some of the p*lls to know, how hard it is to keep your mind in one place or remember anything in particular? just saying)

Porsche knows guys, he knows that Kinn thinks he doesn’t remember the kiss. So he hits Kinn up with it. He says admit you like me. Porsche’s begging for that attention from Kinn again.

But since we’re having a real life approach (it’s not that easy to call people r*pist like that!), I would definitely be defending Kinn by saying, Porsche practically molested Kinn while all Kinn ever wanted to do was take care of Porsche. And I would say Porsche was conscious enough to remember and keep up with a conversation as well. I would argue that what happened was consensual (I’m defending Kinn it’s my defense strategy here because you all are coming for my man Kinn! Calling him names and all) and that they could ask all about it to the supposed victim! (Porsche remembers the night..)

Porsche himself says he isn’t that weak! He isn’t! Porsche’s feelings are all over the place, but why? Is it because he had sex with Kinn? Didn’t he wanted it? No guys he initiated it! And he’s upset because he feels it meant something for him. He begs Kinn to accept that it meant something for Kinn as well. That he means something for Kinn.

But Kinn can’t do that. He can’t! He’s already known by his favoritism, giving Porsche what he needs will only mean it’s gonna put them both in the dangers way more.

Porsche gets devastated once he learns Kinn wanted the punishment (Kinn didn’t Korn did, but Porsche doesn’t know that) that’s what pushes Porsche off finally Porsche’s deciding that he didn’t want it to happen. That’s why he’s in pain.

They keep coming his way though, later he sees Kinn’s ‘friend’ and he also sees how he’s touching Kinn, so Porsche looks, he probably can’t do anything but look. It’s only hurts so bad when Kinn says he’s replacing Porsche with Ken. Why Ken though, right? I think it’s because Ken works more for papa Korn. He’s the one that keeps carrying intel on Kinn to Korn. And Kinn choosing his dad’s path. Because at the end of the day he still needs protection, and now he also needs to protect Porsche.

Porsche can’t understand that. He’s far too deep to think he means nothing to Kinn. Kinn asking Porsche, can’t you see what I’ve done, was so good! Kinn, maybe for the first time begging Porsche to see what he’s trying to do for them. But Porsche’s got too broken on the way he can’t trust Kinn’s words now.

And now let’s talk about why Porsche isn’t good what he’s doing, again. It’s because of his behavior and Vegas. Porsche doesn’t realize it yet but him hanging out with Vegas is gonna become a problem not only because of Kinn.

Main family and minor family are pretty much fighting. Trying to literally kill each other. Don’t tell me Porsche doesn’t hear that. I think ep5 proved that bodyguards talk. There’s no way Porsche doesn’t know this. Then why does he keep doing it? Why does he let Vegas get close to him? He’s pretty much taking Vegas’ side everytime he talks with Kinn.

I haven’t read the books but my bestie told me all about it. And if I didn’t know about it I might actually consider Porsche as the mole! Yeah that’s right! I’m completely on board with Kim looking at Porsche and trying to figure him out. Porsche’s shady. I know there’s a Porsche thirst going on. (I mean look at Apo, I understand that, but it isn’t supposed to mean we’ve to throw Kinn under the bus!)

And Porsche’s pretty much trying to get Kinn killed from an objective view of things. He definitely doesn’t care enough what happens to Kinn. We all see Kinn trying to take care of Porsche but guys, we haven’t see Porsche doing the same to him!

And now he’s hanging out with Vegas in a very open way. It’s shady af. If I were to be Korn I wouldn’t have let Porsche to protect any of my children.

And Porsche being very verbally warned by Kinn twice now. He shows no regret for it. Like I said if I didn’t know better I might seriously consider Porsche as the mole.

At last once more I say that punishment was much needed. Porsche is an employee. And he keeps making mistakes. The mistakes he shouldn’t be getting away with. Just try and see things from an objective view once more. I bet none you wouldn’t have let any of your employees go that far. But it’s easy to talk, isn’t it?

The view only shows Porsche doesn’t care about his job, he hangs out with Vegas (with minor family) he keeps screwing things up. He’s untrustworthy. I know some of you are gonna get mad at me for saying all this, but this is what’s happening.

And I’m rooting for the day Porsche’s gonna prove everyone wrong and he’s gonna prove to Kinn as well that he’s Kinn’s head bodyguard indeed and he’s on his side, and he loves him.

i don’t 100% understand the arguments of why ddlg communities are bad. yes, there are people that use it to abuse a person with age regression and there’s the shitty people that think of it as just a kink but??? i’ve met people who are in ddlg type relationships and they’re so happy?? these people find someone that love them and accept them even when they’ve regressed! and that someone is willing to help ride it out with them and make sure they’re not overwhelmed by it (trust me, it can be overwhelming if you don’t have what you need to feel safe. ie: blankets, stuffed animals, coloring books,). 

i can understand the anger and disgust around people that use ddlg just as a kink. but the people who genuinely age regress and find comfort in these relationships don’t deserve hate like??? what the fuck?? a ddlg relationship can be super calming and helpful to people and people seem to completely ignore that??? 

also the term ddlg is inherently sexual for most people but it’s NOT defined by sex at all!! sure there can be sexual elements because that happens when two people are in a loving, consenting relationships but ddlg is not just a kink or sexual fetish. 

ddlg, cgl- yes, they’re considered bdsm-type relationships but they don’t always involve sex and just?? first of all: if it’s a proper relationship, these are two consenting parties that understand and have researched what they’re doing and what it means to do what they do. second: age regression and other forms of mental regression are legitimate things- they’re often coping mechanisms for ptsd, depression, anxiety, a lot of different things!!

i’ve really seen people in these relationships where it’s healthy and consensual and i just don’t get why it’s all misconstrued as something bad or taboo. sure, people might not want to see stuff related to it. but if that’s the case, the same should be applied to bdsm in general. as far as i know, there’s a lot less discourse on bdsm being gross and terrible compared to ddlg which is fuckin ridiculous.