Sep 14, 2018
Everything i was afraid of happening, happened.
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Everything i was afraid of happening, happened.
Whatever
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Pictures worth a thousand words. Top left-the beginning of the trip down the spiral that nearly killed me. Bottom left- a year in to the hustle. Seriously can see so much bad in that picture. Right- today. Nearly 5 months clean and sober. There's 3 years progression between the top left and the right, and honestly... I can't help but be proud of where I am now. There's your truth for this Tuesday.
"I'm staying clean for myself this time.. I like who I'm becoming without dope. I actually do this time.. and it's really nice. I thought it was something I wanted to do forever.. but the loss of my wife really struck home and I've been thinking about shit. Yeah, I want her back and I'd pretty much do anything.. this time it's for me too. I'm not going to lie and tell you the whole time it was for me, cause it wasn't.. I started out doing it for her.. to get her back. Then some people told me that I needed to love myself and that got me thinking.. and what I came up with was this.. I can't sit around all day smoking meth or snorting it and love myself too. It just doesn't work that way. So I stayed sober more days.. always thinking btw.. and I saw how much more beauty I was seeing in the world around me and how people were gravitating towards me. It's wonderful! And when I started seeing that, not all shut off from everything like I was, I realized that this is something I love.. I love myself like this. From that day.. this clean mission has been for me too.. and my battle with myself has been a lot easier. The pain of her leaving is still fresh and it hurts on the daily but I make it through the days thanks to the wonderful support of some of you Tumblr people. Y'all are angels and just.. well, I can't thank you enough for everything you do. I appreciate you all. Anyways, as lame as it is.. that's part of my story right now. Take it or leave it. "
Eue - I'm making it and I really don't know how but I'm glad I am because it's such a beautiful thing..
Not because I wrote that I relapsed with drugs it means I want to do drugs again. No. No. No. I want to be sober.
I haven't smoked or drank in over a month but God damn it I'm clinging to sobriety with my teeth today. People think this shit is so fucking easy but iswtg......just uggghhhh
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