#snippy romac

My name is, according to The Sniper (Snipper? Snippy?), Doctor Alexander Gromov, although Pilot and Captain say my name is Angie (Engie? It seems to change moment to moment). I cannot say which one of these is true. Something bad happened, now everything is missing. It's missing outside, and now it's missing inside me. How can that be true?

Annie, list of human organs? Annie, cross-reference and confirm presence of vital human organs? Annie, can you hear me? Are you okay, dear?

I don't remember why my first impulse is to poise questions to this "Annie" entity. I think that is the name of God. I understand she used to answer my questions. I know that she does not anymore. I ask them anyway, just in case.

I remember hospitals being where doctors worked. Did I work in such a place? Captain says zee knows this is a Children's Hospital by the trails of red stuff everywhere. I don't think this is right, but I can't remember enough about pediatrics to disprove it. In any case, this hospital seems to have fallen into disrepair. Everything is dirty. No medicine can be practiced here.

There is a sign pointing in one direction. It's comprised of various other symbols, though I cannot recall how to read them. I spend a long time studying the symbols before I hear The Sniper clear his throat behind me.

"I know how to read," I tell him. I do not know how to read.

However, I must keep up the appearances of Doctor Gromov, as I'm sure my companions will abandon me to the wastes if they discover I am no longer of use—this is another thing I understand to be true, despite the apparent loss of all my memories.

"Okay…?" Snippy responds before wandering off to look for medical supplies. I feel I've succeeded in duping him. I feel like he is beneath me for some reason. People who are beneath me are very easy to dupe, as I understand.

After a few more minutes of trying to read the sign on the wall, I decide to go catch up with The Sniper. He is in an area of the Hospital with a lot of posters of human infants being held by their mothers. I wonder if I had a mother. Was Annie my mother? No, I think she was my girlfriend. Did these figures fill similar roles? ... If that was true, it would mean I was some kind of useless baby man. That doesn't seem right. Doctors are supposed to be smart and capable.

When I find Snippy, he's kneeling down to inspect something. I watch him hold a small, disgusting creature that appears to be growing out of a human skull.

"MAMA?" it says to him.

I feel scared. Ew. Ew. Ew. Why is he holding it? Ew. He is holding it and looking at it as though it is a beautiful thing. It is not. It is disgusting. Please put it down. Ew. Ew. Ew. It is covered in disease. Yuck. Yucky. Ew.

Suddenly, his chest wound opens and pulls the creature into his rib cage. This is horrifying and disgusting as well, but I feel better now that the creature has been destroyed.

The Sniper does not seem relieved. He seems panicked.

"No, no, no, no! Why!?" The Sniper grips his head and stares down at his chest in horror. Then he whimpers to himself, "I don't want you to buy me another…"

I do not know who he is talking to. Is he talking to Annie? Does she answer him but not me? Is Annie living in his chest? That doesn't seem right. The thing in him seems bad and gross. Annie is not gross.

I miss her. I recognize this feeling as similar to the feeling The Sniper is experiencing over the disgusting creature being eaten by his chest.

Anyway, how do you people like new Alexius books? I get mixed feelings. I didn't like the romac rewrite, nor do I like how Vitaly keeps rewriting everything he has ever written AND calling all iterations canon AND makes every book related to each other, but I can't stop. Sometime it hurts to read, but I just can't not read

I hope someone sees this post cuz I'm genuinely curious. Everyone on Royal Road is just kissing his ass and praising

Btw, happy international women's day

Plus my lil drawing

(og post)