kinmems are
annoying
kinning as a whole is just an inconvenience that flares up at times
Obviously the dysphoria is a constant, no real way to cure that, especially since I'm missing a body as inhuman as the one I used to have
but memories are a different kind of hell
all I can think about is how she looked before she sent me to the cellar to DIE
I never even knew what I did until the kiddo talked to me about what they saw in the storybook, which was CENTURIES after I had died
It was so sudden, too. I had been mailing to her, excited about coming back home to her from the academy for months, and when I finally did, she indirectly killed me. She didn't even have the gall to say anything to me.
I walked into the manor with my flowers and was immediately taken. To be honest, she had always been a red flag, even if her dress was bright green. The way she treated me was questionable at best, and her possessiveness was overwhelming. I mean. Banning bacon??? because I liked it too much?? (on another note, these new human tastebuds suck. Bacon isn't good anymore. Maybe my memories taint it.)
She was a horrible partner, and I can't believe I was so naïve. Too late for that now, I suppose. At least I got away from her in this life, even if there aren't very many other highlights
I miss my powers, too. Shapeshifting was as easy as breathing (which I.. couldn't do as a ghost), and the energy rush I would get after eating each soul was so refreshing in that dark and gloomy forest. Maybe that's why I like sprite so much.. the tear jerking tanginess is familiar in more ways than childhood nostalgia.
oh well. there are many things I can't really change. I hope my subconscious is able to adapt to that. I can't achieve anything if I spend my entire life thinking about what'll happen if I do
- a past-dwelling snatcher kin who hopes there's not a word limit
there is no word limit release this anxiety to the abyss op
