#smolsiamese

I am aware of the flames

that engulf my body

Aware of how to stop them

But I don't

Self-destruction

is a talent of mine

It's as though

I am watching myself burn

fully aware of the water

beside me

and continuing

to ignore it

anyway

And I burn

So much brighter than the stars

and the moon

and the sun

I burn

Leaving those around me

starstruck

and in awe

I burn

because you tried to stifle my fire

but the darkness made my light

shine even more

I burn

and now I share my flames with another

and we are incandescent

and oh,

how I am grateful

that I did not settle

for your weak

and unfaithful

flickering

I walk

into the black oblivion

Mind at peace

and free

at last

How can you crave touch when you've never felt it?

Whispers in the dark,

hot breath on my ear

A longing that can never be satisfied

Finding comfort in bodies,

but not in faces

because the one person I crave

will never be mine

So I hide in the darkness

and imagine that

the hands

touching me

are his

I am the girl

who writes poetry

late at night,

the girl who dances at 3am

for no

apparent reason

I am the girl who sings

in the shower

and cries

in the silence

I am the girl who

cares too much,

compares too much

And I am the girl who is learning

to live with it

I am not yet the person

who I wish to be

But slowly and surely

I am becoming the person

who I need to be

I am the girl who is becoming herself,

Growing into myself

as one would

oversized clothes

I am the girl who is finally

- finally-

learning self-love

I am the girl who writes my story,

and I promise myself

that I will make it

worthy of a legend

As the stars come out,

I have never been

more grateful

to be

alive