#skia-visuals

From this ask!

Not My Type | Alright | Cute | Adorable | Pretty | Gorgeous | LORD HAVE MERCY

Again, this fluctuates a bit depending on, but this is how it stands RIGHT NOW.

I am really into his curly hair 

Palette sheet

(For this ask meme!)(Answered: 3, 8, 15, 16)

Thank you for asking!  And get ready for a lot of discussion of old shame fanfic.  XD

21. What was the first fanfic you ever wrote?

Oh geez, you’re going to make me dig through my old shame memories aren’t you?  I don’t think I ever posted it on ff.net, or if I did, it was very briefly and then I took it down because of the terrible quality, but I think one of the first ones I remember writing was this crack fic for-no-other-reason-because-I-wanted-to-and-all-my-friends-were-doing-it where it could roughly be summarized as a bunch of 90s anime series get thrown in together, fight each other, and everything ends with a singing contest and voice actor shenanigans (because there were several series that had characters sharing the same voice actor, lol.)  It was . . . probably not the best written (I’m 90% sure that word document has been lost to the sands of time), probably had a good hefty dose of fangirl Japanese thrown in (ugh, why 16-year-old me, why?), but I will admit it was probably the first of many, many, many fight scenes I’ve written, so at least it was good for practice?

22. Is there anything you regret writing?

Actually, yeah.  Especially since I’ve been writing fanfic since 15, publishing online since 18 (first on ff.net and now mainly on AO3), so I’ve been writing and publishing fanfic online off and on for roughly 14 years.  I’m pretty sure some of my earliest fics featured some pretty bad characterization, maybe a splash of yaoi stereotypes before I figured out that I don’t need to follow fandom stereotypes or whatever is the ff.net preferred characterization of the moment, and I know I’ve written a single instance of rape-as-drama (it was all properly trigger warning’ed in the author’s notes and everything since ff.net doesn’t let you do tags, with multiple warnings in the start of the relevant chapter) and looking back now, I’m not particularly proud of that work even though it had a decent readership for one of my fics for that ship and is one of my few completed multi-chaptered works.  It’s become one of those tropes I just avoid now and use other things for drama.  Like threat of death or something similar seems to work just as well, if not better.

Should I take them down from ff.net and delete them forever?  Maybe.  But to me, though, they’re all part of that writing experience that turned me into the writer that I am today, for better or for worse, and so I keep them there as a reminder to myself of the things I’ve written and pitfalls to avoid, regardless of whether or not I’m personally proud of them anymore.  And it’s also part of the reason I don’t give people shit over what they write, because we all have our Old Shame Problematic Fic(s), and as long as it’s properly tagged and trigger warnings placed, and the author has done their due diligence in making sure readers are aware that controversial content is coming, the rest is up to the reader to avoid the work itself.

WIP of Skia, an (extremely) late birthday gift for @skia-visuals! I couldn’t get it done by the end of the week, so I thought I’d post what I’d done anyway. Happy belated birthday!

Ahhh this is so cute, he looks so soft!! Thank you...