As seamless as the transition from day to night. That was the analogy he wanted to use, but he didnāt currently have the words for it. Or rather, felt he should speak them. Not now. Not when Pax was doing this.
His glasses had broken again, and Pax had taken him home. Had come and gotten him, actually, from the hallways of the Academy where he was stranded, and instead of guiding him back to his littleĀ corner room in the dormitories, he had taken him out the front doors and all the way to his flat.
Pax said it was just so he could make sure Shockwave made it safely to the optometrist in the morning, to get a new pair, but his hands said differently once they were inside, safely out of view of camerabots and whatever other prying eyes may have noticed them on the street again.
He always was so gentle. Shockwave didnāt need to see to know that his Enduraās expression matched the touch of his hands along Shockwaveās back; gentle and loving, almost hesitant for fear of going too far, of crossing some line that Shockwave didnāt know about. He didnāt think there were lines to cross, and heād told Pax as such, many times, but still his gentle giant, his Peace, moved slowly and carefully.
Honestly, Shockwave only loved him more for it. Unseeing, not needing to, he had spread his wings for Pax to play with, feeling large, but easy fingers splay over the thin membranes, rubbing gently over his wing arms until they got to his shoulders, pressing in those sensitive spots that made Shockwave simultanteously want to melt and kiss Pax and forget about breathing all at once.
His own hands found their way to Paxās neck, rubbing at tension in brawny shoulders that should have never felt that tense to begin with. Pax didnāt need that stress, shouldnāt feel that stress. Shockwave didnāt need to see to know it was there, though. He could feel it even without his hands giving him their sporadic input. Pax didnāt need that, and so he worked at it, resisting only a little against the touch of his wings, so he would have the presence of mind to do something about it, and eventually, he was rewarded with a soft grumble and a relaxing, Pax tilting with him on the couch just a bit more.
He felt his Enduraās hands stutter in their movement against his wings, sending a little electric thrill up his spine, and he smiled. The move from care to love really was a seamless transition.
And Shockwave woke up. The tingle up his spine was real, as was the hand against his back. It was dark, they were in bed, and it was some six million years later. They were both much older. Much wiser. Much more scarred. Much...sadder, in some ways. Life had been entirely too cruel to the both of them, and was only now trying to repay some of that cruelty with kindness.
But Paxās fingers against his wings were still gentle, even in sleep, and Shockwave moved just a little closer to his Endura, his own hands reaching for the little hollows at Opās collarbones without needing to see where they were, heād done it so many times. He felt Op relax against him, grumbling softly in his sleep; wordless murmurs that spoke of love and a life meant to live together. Shockwave knew it without words, knew it as surely as the large hand against his back was gentle and kind, knew it as surely as he knew his own fingertips had found the sweet spots against Opās collar when he felt his Endura start clicking softly, little love-sounds that never failed to thrill Shockwave. There was love there, in every little movement and every little sound; there was no need for conscious acknowledgement. Shockwave just knew, even as he drifted back to sleep, lulled by Opās breath and quiet rumbles, held close in a loving embrace that hadnāt needed wakefulness to happen. It never had.