#siiiiigghhhhh

i want to write more content that’s just focused on ness and doesnt involve the evil intimidating horse lurking in the background but that’s so difficult to do when ness canonically attaches himself to that man’s side

come to think of it... I probs should try finishing Insurgent one more time...

man....I hate when friendships feel iffy and when I feel clingy I hate it everyone should be allowed to live how they want to and like who they want to like but when people seem to start ignoring me or disliking me I feel horrible I feel awful and worthless....I wish I had an attitude where I didn't care about shit like this but I DO I treat these Internet friendships with just as much seriousness as I treat my irl friendships which I hope is obvious from the way I fucking meet up with everyone I can from tumblr when I travel places...obviously if you stop liking me you can stop being my friend but just know that I'm weak and I'll always welcome you back if you decide to be my friend again and everything...but I love you all I love everyone you all are so great & cool and sorry if I do bum any of you out it's never my intention.....I know there's also a lot of shit on me out there and people who hate me and I really hope you always give me a chance to explain my side of things before cutting me out of your life entirely.....anyways this was long and stupid but I didn't want to put it in a read more bc I want everyone to see this and I never want to guilt anyone into being friends with me in any way and I'm sorry if it ever comes off that way just...yeah. yeah. anyways