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it’s rumored that your recent arrest is directly linked to shawn mendes. according to our sources, you absolved shawn of any wrongdoing and took the blame for the entire incident. in light of shawn’s actions, including the subtweets, and refusal to acknowledge you, do you regret it? do you wish you would’ve been honest about shawn’s involvement knowing that he would so easily turn his back on you?

whew, y’all are clearly startin’ off on some shit with these fuckin’ questions. but, uh, i promised that i’d be honest n’ willing to cooperate so …. do i regret takin’ the blame for shawn ? uh, for sure, just like any person in my situation probably would. i went from feelin’ like a caged animal cause of the paps, the fans, the meet n’ greets, camera’s all in my face, you know ? n’ this was before this shit got stuck to my ankle, mind you. to being an actual animal locked up in my crib all day. but for the sole purpose of him turning his back on me ? no, that would be an entirely new level of fucked up. keep in mind that this is comin’ from me. i’m not mad, or upset with shawn ─── alright, i am, but i would never drag ‘em back into this shit. it’s been complete hell for me inside n’ he’s struggling out there on the outside, so, who’s really winnin’ here ? i just want shawn to realize two things. one, being that i’ve always been there for him when it mattered the most. two, i need him. that’s what it comes down to. i want my brother back.

sofia carson confirmed in her interview that you two were seeing each other. given all that we know (and what is rumored to be true) about sofia, are you sure that you want to be in another relationship with an emotionally damaged woman? do you honestly see yourself with her in a longterm setting, or are you just living in the moment? and what is your opinion on her relationship with shawn? do you think cutting sofia off would heal your friendship with shawn?

ay, i’m already gettin’ claimed ? is she gonna see this ? hey baby, what’s up ? alright, let me stop. but, uh, am i sure ? dude, i have never been more sure about anythin’ in my entire life. i’m fucked up, she’s …. well, ‘ emotionally damaged ’ ─── i like that, can i use that ? but we just work well together, i think. she doesn’t call me out on my shit, or throw my past in my face, what we have is new n’ everyday brings us somethin’ new. as for whether longterm or not, did you ask her this question ? can i know her answer ? either way, i’m takin’ the day by day thing very seriously, so, yeah. i know it’s been a fuckin’ rollercoaster ride between ‘em two, comin’ from someone who has seen shit with his own eyes. you know ? n’ of course ya’ll are going to think that i hate ‘em if i say something bad, or want ‘em to be together if i can somethin’ good. but, quite honestly, i don’t care. just as long as sofia n’ i are okay, it’s whatever. oh, n’ for sure. cuttin’ off sofia would for sure land me back into shawn’s arms. is it right though for me to cut her off just to get my friend back ? nah.

your career has been on a standstill for a long time now. have you lost your passion for music? are you working on anything new? do you fear that your time is over with? and what about your recent release of your fashion line? is that something you can see taking over music in your life?

damn, i didn’t know this was turnin’ into a draggin’ session. thanks for knockin’ me off whatever pedestal i thought i was on, shit. i’ll have you know that i’ve been in the studio, whenever i have permission to, n’ ya’ll will be hearin’ something from me pretty soon. can’t say when, but your boy is never really over. yeah, ‘ drew house ’ has been somethin’ that i’ve been interested in for the longest fuckin’ time, but the time was never really right until now. you know ? it’s just somethin’ to do in the meantime while this whole music shit works itself out, honestly. plus, a superstar does a million things at once. that’s me.

you’ve been renown for your good looks. however, recently, it seems like you’ve stopped taking care of yourself. your fans have been worried about you. every time you’re seen out in public, you appear very solemn. how is your mental health doing? do you blame the chaotic people in your life (shawn, sofia, ariana just to name a few) for bringing you down? do you ever wish you had a different life? a different group of friends?

again, way to make a guy feel really fuckin’ good at himself here. thanks. but i’m fine, as fine as a guy could possibly be. i’m taking everything easy, doin’ things that make me happy, surroundin’ myself with a shorty who makes me happy, n’ everything under the sun. i also can’t point fingers at anyone since the only one who allows ‘em to take control of my emotions is me, so, yeah. different life ? nah, i know the impact my existence n’ my music has had on people, so takin’ that away would just be a slap in the face. what i’m about to say may be a slap in the face, too, but different friends would definitely improve my life. i mean, people think havin’ a hard exterior means there’s an equally hard interior, but that’s rarely the case. i stay in my feelings, and people just give up on me when i would go above ‘n beyond for ‘em. it’s the truth, and all of those people that you named know that shit. so … yeah, do i want a new group of friends ? doesn’t everyone ?

critics of your relationship with sofia would state she is using you to move on from shawn mendes. however, people neglect to remember your whirlwind romance with madelaine petsch that ended shortly before you began to see sofia. are you guilty of the same tactics? using someone else to get over another? and how has this affected your friendship with madelaine’s boyfriend, joe keery? are you two on better terms, or do you still resent him for intervening on your relationship with madelaine?

thought about that myself, n’ i just don’t get that vibe from sofia. call me crazy, stupid, whatever fuckin’ name in the book, but i genuinely don’t feel like she would do that to me ? nor would i do that shit to her ? that situation with madelaine happened months  ago, which led to months of me actin’ up. i had my fun, did whatever i wanted to do n’ then sofia came along, let’s not. listen, i wouldn’t say that joe n’ i will be lickin’ whip cream from each other’s assholes anytime soon, but i’m over it. from what i’ve heard, they’re more than happy together, shorty even has a bun in the oven. like, tell me, should i still be dwellin’ over this situation ? no. she made her decision n’ whether or not i agreed, the only option would be to move the fuck on. so i did. simple. do i resent ‘em ? as a human, i’m sure that shit will always be in the back of my mind, but at this point, i just want that keery dude … hell, everyone too, to just be happy n’ leave my name outta their fuckin’ mouths. simple.

first of all, we’d like to express our deepest condolences for the loss of your co-star. let’s talk about riverdale, and more specifically, your acting career. do you have your sights set on bigger things ? movies ? where do you see yourself in the next five years in terms of your role as an actress ?

thank you. he.. was an amazing person, i’m blessed to have known him. oh, of course. i put everything on this career and i remember.. getting rejected so much and then my riverdale family came. you know, this is my first reoccurring acting experience and i couldn’t be more blessed. but i am SO excited to move up and i love cheryl, but i’d love to see myself playing other roles. i just recently did a horror movie, so.. i’d love to see myself doing more of that. well, due to the unfortunate loss of a dear friend, riverdale will be on pause so.. i will be taking a bit of a break. but i do think i’d be doing some amazing movies in the future.

you and stranger things actor, joe keery, began first dating before with of you landed your leading roles on your respective shows. how has fame changed the dynamic of your relationship this time around ? are you happy ? do you see yourself still with joe in the future ?

yes, um… we were definitely some pretty unknown actors during the first round and i think the sudden attention shift really killed our world. but once we both experienced other relationships with people of a higher status, we realized.. this is fame. or at least i did. i don’t want to speak for him but.. i think there’s a HUGE sense of trust now and we have such an unbreakable bond. oh, hell yes. can i curse ? shit.. well, i’m very much happy with him. how far into the future ? because.. i can say we will be expecting our first child in a few months.

taking a look at your past dating history, it seems there was a gap between your last ex boyfriend, travis, and your current relationship with joe. what happened there ? any specific reason you took a break from the dating scene ?

um… i just had a tough time getting over travis. it was a different kind of love, one i don’t ever want to replicate. so i was just taking time, you know. what girl doesn’t have a break up like this ? it’s normal. who said i wasn’t dating ? i’m kidding, kidding.. but yeah.. next.

you have a lot of famous friends in your life. ariana grande, justin bieber, barbara palvin — all big names in hollywood. being relatively new to the industry, some of your critics have wondered if you’re using your friends as a stepping ladder to increase your relevancy. what do you have to say to those people who think so lowly of your loyalty ?

i think that’s a bit messed up, don’t you ? i love my friends, especially two very important ones that you didn’t name. dacre montgomery and halston sage, a lot of my sanity goes to them. but as for ariana, justin, and barbara.. they are absolute gems who have done nothing but support and care for me and i’ve done the same. i don’t /need/ them to keep relevant because i don’t want their relevance. i’ve spoken to specifically justin about this, and joe and i can drive without our windows super tinted, and go to sleep without padlocks on the door. and i’ve watched my friends go through some insane shit due to how famous they are, so in no way will i ever use them for anything.

imagine you have a time machine that’ll let you go back in time and change one specific event in your life. keep in mind, any changes in the past will effect your present. would you still make the changes, knowing it could cost you everything you have now ?

your recent trip to the hospital must have you re-thinking some aspects of your life. do you really believe it’s smart to jump back into the same situations that made you so depressed in the first place ?

same situations.. regarding my tour and ariana ? well, i guess i can start by saying that, that experience wasn’t something new for me and something i needed to get help for. i wouldn’t be going on tour if i felt like it would set me back. i hope my fans also see that depression and anxiety are serious things you should speak up about. but my therapist felt like it was a good idea.. and uh, i think.. i think i’m on the right track, i’m keeping everything positive in my life. it’s just me and the music, man. as for ariana, we deal with everything privately. she knows my heart is still with her, always. we just can’t be together right now and that has NOTHING to do with another man.

we’re not sure if you’ve heard, but your ex girlfriend sofia carson has been seen in paris with justin bieber. our sources say they looked very cozy. does a part of you think you deserve this ? the same treatment you gave sofia by getting into a relationship with one of her close friends ?

yes, i am aware of that. deserves this ? i don’t know if that’s the correct word. sofia and i dated a few years ago, we don’t have that kind of relationship anymore, i don’t.. have any expectations of her. she doesn’t HAVE to be loyal to me. she is an amazing woman and i will always respect what makes her happy. some people just don’t work. and they look cute together, don’t they ? well, from my understanding sofia and ariana were NEVER close friends. at least that’s what i was told when i asked. so, when all that went down i just saw it as.. me with another woman not.. me with her friend until it was a bit too late.

it’s clear that music is your passion in life. if you suddenly weren’t able to perform anymore, what do you think you would do ?

i don’t know, honestly. i think.. it would hurt me a lot, i don’t think it’s something i would be able to recover from. it’s why i need to take care of myself so i can continue to perform because my fans are amazing and they keep me grounded. you know, there’s nothing better than stopping and the crowd can finish a verse for you. there’s no greater love than i feel on that stage, so… i would be pretty sad about it.

is your alleged best friend, charlie puth, aware that you offered to take his ex fiancee to a romantic trip in paris ? where is the line drawn for you ? do you hold yourself to looser standards than you do your friends ?

ha, there’s no threat there, man. halston would never see me like that in her LIFE. i’m sure of it. charlie has nothing to worry about, that’s my bro for life i wouldn’t touch his exs with a ten foot pole… now. no, i’m playing uh… but seriously, charlie is about to move in with me there’s NO issue there. i’m taken anyways. there’s always a line for me. and i feel like i hold my friends to the same standard. i have a few exs i wouldn’t mind but… when you take someone i shared personal moments with and did some really stupid things over, you would expect a man who you were LIVING with to take that into consideration. but i guess everyone just wants to get their dick wet nowadays, yeah ? anyways, next question.

let’s discuss your addiction. it’s clear you’ve struggling with alcohol and cocaine for several years. we’d like to bring to light what happened on new year’s eve. you are aware justin bieber is facing jail time for what happened that night ? do you feel guilty that he’s taking the blame for something you were a willing participant in ?

dear camila﹔

            fully aware that i’m the last person u expected /anything/ from, but i figured this is the only way that i’m going to be able to lay it all out on the table ... peacefully. no one’s running off, no one’s throwing anything & no one’s making a complete fool of themselves. just me. venting. first off, i think the best way to start this is to finally take the noble road for once, & apologize for my actions on ... well, probably the first time that i’ve ever seen u in person. but in order for u to fully understand my reasoning behind acting out, there’s some things that i need to get off of my chest. just don’t think that i hate you ( cause i don’t even though i actually convinced myself that i should ), in fact, u have taught me more things than i’m willing to acknowledge which only makes me wanna hate u more. now let me paint this picture for u ─── my little ass is casually minding my business on the beach to see this fine, tall glass of water kissin up on this lil thing. how the hell do u think i’m supposed to react to that ? and even though he swears on his life that it was on the cheek, i honestly don’t think that it matters. it still happened. regardless of the fact that he and i were separated ... are separated / working on that & mutually agreed to that, it stung knowing that u had him off to better start than i ever did. this letter is all about truths, so, allow me to drop the first one ! i’d be a fucking liar if i said that i wasn’t jealous of u. there. it took gregg six years to come back to me, yet took you six seconds to have him rethinking every decision. again, how do u think i’m supposed to feel ? u just waltzed in & destroyed everything.

            we talk about u. sometimes, at least. and we’re not, the craziest thing is that i don’t know if he’s thinking about u ... but i am. wondering what the hell u have that i don’t. marriage is about sacrifices & i’m sure u know that, which means i was changing my life around to make my marriage work. except, that’s quite hard to do when /someone/ doesn’t really get the hint to buzz right the hell off when it’s done ! but no, every time his phone buzzes & he’s all smiles from ear to ear, u know who has to be stuck with those insecurities ? me. u know who’s gonna be left at the alter cause he suddenly has cold feet due to his newfound sidechick ? me. and u would think that after everything that i have been thru in the past year, u couldn’t allow me to selfishly have the one thing that makes me happier than anything else. it feels like a wrecking ball swooped in & destroyed my world, but every single time i try to pick up the pieces, something happens. almost like my world is permanently demolished. so, u know who i hope has to live with that ? u.as if that wasn’t enough, nothing screams ‘ fuck you ariana ’ more than ur announcement earlier. congratulations, sis, u have successfully ripped my heart right out of my chest & stomped allllll over of it. it’s sickening, honestly, just /thinking/ about u laying down with him. knowing that he probably even came to me after & probably kissed me after kissing u .. & yet, u continued being the sidechick, hell, u probably still are. but reality check, all of this effort to constantly undermine our relationship .. & that’s definitely all ur ever going to be. 

            but u know what ? the bright side is that u might actually prove me wrong, & be promoted to baby momma. and that’s totally not a shot at ur kid, but about u ... since, u know, u thought it was okay to lay down with MY husband ( regardless of the fucking separation or not ) & decided ‘ hm, u know what ? don’t even use a condom cause i’m a miserable, home-wrecking lowlife who has no consideration but anyone for myself. ’ which, in my opinion, covers ur little pity party to the tee. i mean, it’s honestly sad that no one sees right thru ur little game. u know /exactly/ what ur doing every step of the way, but throw tantrums when lil baby doesn’t get what she wants ! it’s disgusting. i know u think i should be blaming gregg & i am, but it’s clear that ur manipulative enough to take advantage of him. he was fucking looking out for u ... went thru shit with me just to cover for ur sorry ass, & that’s what u do ? take advantage of all the shit that’s been going thru ? his parents, the overdose, his own marriage is practically a shambles, & now u just created a life long relationship with him for the sake of ur child. i really thought this would be the moment when i would be able to say the truth, how i really feel bad for u cause it’s constantly disaster after disaster ... but when i think about it, camila, it makes sense. u have officially destroyed my life. hell, in a couple months, i’m gonna have to play stepmother w/ my own husband’s kid out of wedlock. and fuck the tabloids cause they’re most likely going to run the story, & everyone’s going to get their statements in, except for the one person who this affects the most. me. words can’t even describe the emotions that i’m feeling right now, even attempting to just demoralizes me even more. the fact that u would stoop so low just to get one over me is mind-blowing, & at the end of the day, i hope karma bites u right in the ass. really fucking hard. since this is the beginning of a long-lasting relationship between u & i, figured i’d end this the same way that i did once we first met ( u know, without the margarita dripping down ur face ) ...