Just in case anyone in the know is wondering, no, I haven’t forgotten about the video I said I was going to do about my experience meeting Manannan Mac Lir for the first time. I’m still going to do it, and it is still going to be done. When it’s going to be done is a good question however.

I’m still waiting to hear back from one of my close friends who does most of my artwork for headers, banners, avatars, etc, for accounts I have on different websites. Deviantart especially. I’m currently waiting to hear back if she’ll update a piece of artwork I’m planning on using for a header banner across all of my accounts across the web. I plan on using that piece of artwork to create an intro for my Youtube videos.

Also, while I am still going to make Youtube videos moving forward and that will never change, so long as I have a say in it, my focus is gradually moving towards podcasting over vlogging in general. I mean, it makes obvious sense for me to focus more on an audio only format as my primary form of media than any other kind of media that might be slightly more tricky for me to handle and keep up with on a daily basis.

*Please note: This isn’t an actual term*

Why is it that symptoms of DID/OSDD can be so obvious to yourself and those close to you, while remaining completely non-suspicious to others around you?

Think of it this way: You are a witch. But no one is going around looking for witches, no one is going around suspecting people of being witches. Sure, you have a herb garden and a black cat, you wear black dresses, and you love going for strolls in the forest under the full moon’s light. But very very few people would actually truly believe you are a witch. Other people’s responses would likely be “that’s just the way she is”, “oh that spooky goth bitch is at it again”, or even “lol. What are you, a witch or something? Hahaha!”. An actual witch might see you and conclude that you are a witch, but that same witch might see a non-witch who just happens to enjoy moonlit strolls with her cat, and conclude that she also must be a witch. Likewise, in everyday life the majority of people aren’t out there looking for people with DID/OSDD, or carefully observing every single person to check for signs of DID/OSDD. You can be out there with obvious symptoms, and successfully just wave them away as “memory problems”, “mood swings”, “poor time management”, “inconsistent beliefs” etc. Even people who see you every day, and notice these symptoms are likely to write them off as “That’s just the way they are”, “Maybe they have (insert common mental health issue here)”, or joke about you having “multiple personalities”. (Of course some people will dismiss these symptoms as “laziness”, “rudeness”, “being inconsiderate”, “wishy-washy”, or other cruel and dismissive explanations.) Even when you think that your system seems extremely overt, and even if you feel as though at any moment someone is going to realise that you have DID/OSDD... the more likely outcome is that everyone around you has just accepted that those obvious symptoms are “just the way you are”. (There are exceptions of course.) Humans want to identify with each other. The social rules of our species mean that we rationalise phenomena that we ourselves don’t experience. The result is that “covert DID/OSDD” doesn’t need to be all that subtle in order to protect you. A lot of people worry themselves over whether their DID/OSDD is overt or covert, not really understanding just how obvious your DID/OSDD can be before it’s no longer covert.

The important thing is to make sure that you are safe.

Other than keeping you safe, overt vs covert doesn’t actually matter all that much.

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