#covert did

document everything you can. take photos of everything, write notes about everything. keep track of who you trust to tell you the truth, and who you don't. don't trust any single person's account of something if you don't have to.

I feel disgusted physically thinking of the way I have to act. I’m almost about to refuse to stoop to that level. If I wanted to be a dog-like personality haver, I would do it all the time.

There’s a reason I’m so closed off and I’d rather it stay that way.

Im so tired of no matter how hard I seem to look all I find is stuff about the stuble, small signs of DID and everything refrencing something somewhat overt is seen as completely fake.

Like, it justs that what happnes if I do have overt symptoms, if I do deal with the stuff everyone seems to call fake. like for example: When I watched my own body break into a monologue saying words I don't agree with to no one in particular while home alone and I a passanger in all this desperately clasped my hand to my own mouth in terror.

Who in hell was there to tell me, im not crazy, im not poessessed, im not dangerous, im just a traumatised human?? No one!! (apart from the guys in my head ofc, love em) and if someone was there, if there was someplace where I could actually talk about these ScArY parts of me no one else seems to want to discuss, without being shamed, or fake claimed. God that would of saved me from so much damage in the past

But also! I think presentation is more fluid than it's spoken about. The breakdown is always spoken of as:

80% of people with DID have a covert/nonpossession form presentation

15% of people with DID have an overt/possession form presentation but mask in most conditions

5% of people with DID have an overt/possession form presentation and do not or are unable to mask

I think, while the numbers are an accurate representation of people with DID when they are first diagnosed, as therapy continues and integration occurs, either with the goal of final fusion or functional multiplicity, the presentation would shift in some ways. In people with overt DID, they may experience more of the nonpossession switches and shifts that people with covert DID experience. Similarly in those with covert DID, the gradual understanding and connection with other alters would allow them to recognize more quickly when a switch occurs or when someone is co-con.

But even prior to diagnosis and therapy, when a person with DID is still undergoing traumatic events, someone with a covert presentation may appear to themselves and others to be overt, with or without masking, because they are under extreme stress and triggered more severely on a daily basis, thus the sense of "being taken over by someone else" occurs more frequently compared to if they were finally separated from the ongoing trauma and stress.

I've seen people question their diagnosis because, yes, while they do fit the general criteria, they do not have a static covert or overt presentation. They may be predominantly covert but certain alters may be overt for various reasons (alter is nonverbal, familiarity and sense of safety with external environment, etc). They may be predominantly overt but certain alters are covert for various reasons (alter is fragmented or not distinct enough compared to other alters, like holding or representing an emotion, etc).

People remember that singletsonas exist, but don't always exist in a literal sense in-system challenge level impossible /nbh