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October Breeze

Written 10-04-10

Happiness appears outside of my reach.

No order to anything that I think.

Searching for the strength to make me complete.

Unconsciously and continuously stuck on repeat.

Smiles serve as a momentary treat.

Just before I surrender and retreat.

Pleasure is impossible to keep.

They say I am alone, no one to compete.

So what is with the order and the normal you keep?

Everything so nice and neat.

I can only hang my head in defeat.

Eyes filled with tears as I recognize maybe my life was not one to keep.

I am ugly, stupid, pathetic, and weak.

An unappealing thin slab of meat.

Trying my best not to overthink,

But at best life seems to remain bleak.

So I’ll sit in patience through these long weeks.

And pray that the universe show me what I need to seek.

I’m just hoping what I sew is not all that I shall reap.

Trekked paths in my bare skin through Zions dusk skies.

I have sucked cock through the desert night in Joshua tree.

I have banished again,

Into the depths of a desert.

That place we call home

Is now gone because you’re alone

And I still haven’t found a cure.

There’s a cloud raining over us,

It’s darker than most

And you and I don’t seem

To be able to hold on anymore.

Well I won’t ever let that happen.

Depression is black like these clouds,

And this sand is cold and brown,

I am barefooted, you are my home