#shared thoughts

the intimacy of shared words over distance,

the trust to open yourself up to someone you may have never even seen a picture of before,

the friendship and love that blossoms between those who once were strangers.

If someone comes off as rude or mean, I like to think that there's something going on with them that causes them to act in such a way. I get a better sense of reason for them. Same with those who hide behind a smile to fool others into thinking everything is going perfectly for them. That there's nothing wrong. I hate to see others in pain, even worse when they don't speak up. I can't help but feel for them.

It's too scary, it's too painful, and you can't help but feel... alone...

If you are hurting, speak up! It does no good to avoid talking to someone about these situations. Keeping it to yourself not only hurts you but others around you. Don't let yourself suffer.

I'm here to help, I'm here to listen and I'm here to bring a smile to that gorgeous face. Know that I care for all and wish for all to be well physically and emotionally and I can guarantee you that I am not the only one that does. So If you're not comfortable enough talking to me, I am certain that there is someone who you are comfortable with. You are not alone, don't make it as if you are. Let others help take care of you and don't forget to do the same for them."

Let me just acknowledge my very presence in this blog again. It was nice to land on this page after a year of hiatus. And I’ve finally mustered enough time for me to give this blog a simple rebirth.

It’s been quiet a long time since I’ve had a decent blog post, and by that I mean it almost took me one year to update this. And a lot of things have changed in my life though. And so I’d like to start by sharing how my life have been after a massive catastrophe.

And may I just warn you that this could be a lengthy post because I need to compensate with my shortcomings.

Anyway, I know I left this blog consuming all my heartaches from last year. 2016 was a tough year for me. I went through a very massive depression and it was horrific. I was consumed by so many problems that I just breakdown and cry most nights. Crying had become a part of my daily routine that there were times that I find myself crying over things I am not certain of. I’ve endured so much pain that it made me think that the world have conspired to ruin my life. I was helpless. It was so terrible. It seems as if I lost myself for a span of one (1) year. And tbh, it took me a long time to find myself.

But yes, although it took me so many months to put my life together, I can say that it’s all worth it. It’s all easy to say how painful everything was, and words cannot really construct a very precise description as to how horrendous things were a year ago. 

But God is good. He was so good that despite the misfortunes I’ve had, I still end up thanking him for all the lessons. I don’t call it suffering, I call it a test. He taught me how to hold on to Him. And I admit that I was once on the verge of losing my grip, and good thing I realized that I shouldn’t do that.

Also, before 2017 comes, I sincerely convinced myself that everything must change and that includes my mindset. And y’know what, it worked. So far, I just love everything. I can confidently say that everything’s on the mind, you are in control of it. What you think is what you are and who you are.

I patiently convinced myself and worked on with some adjustments, and things finally went well. I’ve come to surpass my problems one-by-one. It took me some time but it’s the best way to clear them out off of my system.

It ain’t easy but being patient is really something. I am complacent enough to admit how proud I am of myself. What I’ve been through is not a joke (well it somehow felt like my life’s a joke) and in spite of all the struggles that bombarded me, hell I’m strong enough not to collapse. Or should I say that I am faithful enough not to give up. 

I still believed that things will change, and all things are bound to go through that. And I am pleased with that change it brought my life. I can definitely say that I am a better person now. I am the better version of myself. And that I am thankful for the bad things that happened to me for it made me a strong person. It turned me to be someone I never thought I can be, and everyday I am grateful for all the lessons I’ve learned that I’ll always look up to and carry wherever I go.

There’s nothing I regret, even the mistakes I made, I look at them as an opportunity to grow. I’ve come to learn so much from that experience and that catastrophic moment in my life taught me how to look forward to the brighter days. It was refreshing. It tested my faith. And I am happy I trusted in Him.

Bad days will be bad day, good days will be good days. Both aren’t permanent and we come to believe that the latter is the lasting one. Nope. Sometimes you need a little rain. And I love rainy days. I say, you should embrace it too.

Bright days are our comfort zones. We don’t see how good balance is in our lives and that’s why we never get to accept change. Embrace problems and overcome them. Soon you’ll be surprised how much it helped you be that strong person you never thought you’d be. Always take the Lord’s side whenever you are feeling lost and you won’t ever feel like you’re lost alone. All things must be addressed through prayers, and I haven’t tried anything more effective than that. 

I didn’t share this for nothing, I shared this because I want to share my own lessons to others. That no matter how tough things are, you should keep your faith and believe for better things to happen. Never lose hope and never give up. Make room for positive thoughts and never let your problems overwhelm you. The Lord is powerful than our problems, lean on Him and you’ll be safe.

So glad I got my perky self back. It’s also funny that it took me quiet a long while to reflect on this matter and share it to my readers. Nevertheless, the lesson I’ve learned from this is opportune that can be shared anytime.

And so a year after, I am proud to say that I am stronger and wiser. I’ve developed so much about myself that I got super addicted to self-discovery. Thank you, Lord for helping me change. It was a challenging practical life exam, but all the bruises, blisters, scratches and wounds are all worth it and I will always be thankful for that. For me, that’s a mark of growing up as a person.

To you my reader, whatever you are facing right now, always remember that that didn’t come to stay permanently. Learn how to dance in the rain and try to imagine rainbows during the storm. It’s your mindset that controls the situation so never ever jump into the negative suppositions. Trust in the Lord and long before you know it, the stormy days are over. 

Just also want to say that you’ll get through that!

xoxo