summer wine.

i have no idea what's going on in my life im just in charge of the music

The OBSESSION with identity is so crazy like the view that when you do something it immediately becomes part of your identity and all the parts of you have to click together to become “person who wakes up early” or “person who reads” no you can literally just do something without restructuring your whole performance of personhood around it. I don’t know what to tell you except that you will never be able to have an entirely unfractured view of yourself or that you will be able to rationalize all the complex parts of yourself into the phrase “person who x” like you should just be doing things without performing them. Or aestheticizing them. Just try different things on and keep what works for you. Otherwise you will never learn and grow!

i think when u clean your house it should stay clean forever. what do u mean i have to do it again

I don't trust anyone with my vulnerability except 10,000 strangers on Tumblr

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man fuck nonchalance and mysterious vibes. ofc I don’t tell every other rando out there my business, but I won‘t dim my excitement just to seem more mysterious. I like telling people my plans and my dreams; I love speaking of my hopes and what lights up my heart. It‘s so fun to plan and scheme and to ask people for their opinion or advice. people close to me are important to me, and I care about what they think and I care to tell them news and updates and progress in my life. we as human beings are not meant to live a secluded life! WE NEED PEOPLE. PEOPLE NEED PEOPLE. so stop it already with the nonchalant bullshit. nonchalance is the death of all passion, connection and excitement. I‘d rather jump around cause something got me that happy instead of swallowing all my feelings down until I shrivel into misery.

perhaps. i do want to be loved. unfortunate.