#sgh

Undergoing complicated groundbreaking surgery to remove the washboard abs from a character and replace them with stomach rolls

Bingzu being the Binghe from the first draft that Xiang Fei had to change creating PIDW Bingge. Bingzu who killed himself to create the system, who’s so much stronger than his creator dooming him the same way he was doomed. Giving him a nearly impossible mission with no indication of what he had to do at all. Xiang Fei who never had any choice. Who couldn’t write what he wanted to because he needed to stay alive but dying because of what he was forced to write. Who’s half-god half-prophet yet still the most powerless in all universes. Who was blamed for everything yet couldn’t interfere with anything because of his own survival. Who was called a coward and hack by those who were much more privileged and powerful than him. Who was forced to live twice and was overworked and under appreciated in both lives. Who is finally finding rest for the first time, being happy for the first time, and is so close to being appreciated properly. Who has to live with the knowledge that lots of his struggles, suffering where his own doing and inevitable at the same time. He shouldn’t blame himself but he can’t blame anybody else. In the end he doomed himself because he was doomed by the world. Never seen always blamed.

I’m supposed to be doing school rn, but every time I stand up I get dizzy

'why am i so tired' *checks time* ah