#sengloste

flag id: two flags with 7 stripes. the left flag's stripes are dull orangish-red, pale cyan, teal, dark dull red, teal, pale cyan, and dull sky blue. the right flag's stripes are dark dull red, teal, pale cyan, a horizontal gradient from dull orangish-red to dull sky blue, pale cyan, teal, and dark dull red. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

sepsengloste | samsengloste

sepsengloste: a sengloste experience in which one's self and one's unconscious brain are separate things

samsengloste: a sengloste experience in which one's self and one's unconscious brain are the same. one's brain is themself, an extension of themself, etc.

[pt: sepsengloste: a sengloste experience in which one's self and one's unconscious brain are separate things

samsengloste: a sengloste experience in which one's self and one's unconscious brain are the same. one's brain is themself, an extension of themself, etc. end pt]

subsets of sengloste for anon!

both flags use colors from the sengloste flag, plus dull red for the brain and blue for the self. the sepsengloste flag separates the brain and self colors across the flag, while the samsengloste flag blends the two.

'sep' is from 'separate' and 'sam' is from 'same'!

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks, @mad-pride

tags cont: @maggore, @dragonpride17

syzer/syszer (zerosys or zerogenic, from syszero/syzero): a system or singlet origin tied to the zerogender experience or a gender, like systemfluid or queerplex, that changes depending on who’s fronting or coping in a system or plurality, or otherwise facing psychically in a median system or sengloste.

explanation: within the sengloste perspective, the self would feel buried inside a parallel dimension, like an alter ego that makes you uncomfortable when thinking about it. the eugender personhood fronting or facing (headmate or facet) wouldn't necessarily feel complete (ie. empty systems or polyfragmented subsystems).

for median systems or within IFS model, we can think of demigenders and their blurry counterpart. for example, what's the counterpart of my demiagender? I feel like the other side could be either supranull or transfinitive. supranull could omnivalent or not.

while for singlets, it's simply a descriptor of having something like an antigender alter persona/ego (e.g. lady gaga versus jo calderone). but not everyone has one (just as achiralgender), especially within artistic context, they function as a shadow mirrored character or inverted mimetism/mimicking of the other opposite side

so, putting it in simple terms, i am me, i inhabit and "pilot" my body, and my brain - both the literal organ and the unconscious side of it - is my co-pilot.

i'm not my brain, though it is a part of me. i know / believe this because of anxiety, impulsive and intrusive thoughts, all that jazz. those are not me; those are all aspect of my psyche i don't control nor actively, voluntarily have an input on. i often try to do the opposite, and find myself thinking about a certain thing while the rest of my brain is forcefully thinking about the contrary or similar. this might be a way of "humanizing" these psychological processes, but it makes it way easier to explain to others and i've got too used to it to the point i simply can't see it in any other way.

my brain is like, my coworker inside The brain, if that makes sense.... it, well, controls the body as well. it just so happens that sometimes we disagree, or it tries to harm me, or us, or the meatsuit we're in. it's antagonistic at times, and i know it's involuntary, but when times get tough i've found myself sitting in silence while in my head we're metaphorically fist-fighting for control or for who's thoughts "win". my volatile, ADHD-adjacent symptoms also make it so that i'm always thinking about 3-5 things at the same time; there's always some kind of noise up there, even if in the background.

once again, this may just be conceptualizing processes that a bunch of neurons just Do on their own, but i am well aware i'm me, the soul and self inside this "system" called A Human Body and Human Being. it just so happens that, in my case, there are parts of my thinking that i have no control over.

flag id: a flag with 7 stripes, which are dark dull red, pale cyan, teal, dark silver, teal, pale cyan, and dark dull red. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

sengloste: a singlet/non-plural with a dissociative disorder who feels that they and their body are two separate things, like being the 'host' of a body without being a system. they feel as though they 'inhabit' or 'pilot' their body rather than it being a part of themselves. they may experience periods of blurriness in which they 'leave the front' of their body, essentially leaving their body as a shell.

[pt: sengloste: a singlet/non-plural with a dissociative disorder who feels that they and their body are two separate things, like being the 'host' of a body without being a system. they feel as though they 'inhabit' or 'pilot' their body rather than it being a part of themselves. they may experience periods of blurriness in which they 'leave the front' of their body, essentially leaving their body as a shell. end pt]

for anon! the outer stripes represent the body and the inner stripes are taken from this dissociative disorder flag. the term is 'sengl' from old french 'sengle', meaning 'single', + 'oste', old french for 'host'!

anon has dpdr and cited this as the specific reason for their sengloste experience, but noted that anyone with similar dissociative disorders who are not plural can identify as this term. anon also acknowledged that some plural folks, such as median systems and those with p-did, may relate to this term, but it is solely intended for singlets/non-plurals!

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks, @sugar-and-vice-mogai

tags cont: @p-rtyboy, @pawsibell, @dragonpride17, @mad-pride