#selfship ramble

I need to be baking sweets and treats for rudo and everyone while dear steals them out of the kitchen. I love him so much😭 but just because he's my child doesn't mean I won't whack his hand with the spoon for stealing treats. Bro just standing there exasperated and laughing at the scene. Happy that dear has a mom figure for once in his life and a sense of normalcy in all the craziness that is being a cleaner. That man deserves so much love and appreciation too. Taking on team child, mentoring and caring for them all as if they were his own 😭. And honestly they'd be mine too. Id learn how to sew just to fix guitas costume. I'd give bro so much love. Sit pretty in his lap while he drinks coffee and eats the pastries I made

The way he absolutely melts at the slightest bit of praise in episodes like “Cedric’s Apprentice” or “The Enchanted Feast” <3

Someone just mistook my f/o for a black hole :(

I’m still kinda irritated rn bcs of how they said it, but I’m not too upset.

Idk who’s reading this or if anyone even cares, but I’ve been thinking about rewriting ‘die for you’ for a while now…not the biggest fan of my writing style back then…I cooked a little here and there but it’s just not good..or as good as I know it can be with the skill I have now.

Im still very proud of me for even getting to the point of publishing it because I have a lot of works that I never ever even bothered to finish let alone publish, so congrats to me, and finding an audience— small, but still an audience. That story means a lot to me, really it does, all my creations do, and because they do i need them to actually be to my liking 😭💀.

Most of the plot will be the same, them meeting will be a bit different for the sake of my old shitty writing.

Now to the real meat and bones and something that may actually hurt me to do but i know this will be very freeing for me. I still want this story, their story to be a dark romance, because let’s bffr…why wouldn’t it be? Now, I have a small issue with Rina as a character and a reflection of myself and issues i struggle with, most of her is fine. She’s a severely timid, organized, morally grey neat freak that doesn’t want to take up space or time from people she thinks are above her. Thats what Rina is, that’s some things she reflects out of me. But also one of her sort of main attributes is that she has a tendency to be obsessive, clingy and too reliant on others. The last two im fine with keeping because frankly that’s not the issue, she can be clingy, she can be reliant on Hades because well..she’s literally a whole ass human being in the underworld (full of monsters mind you) he chose to take responsibility over essentially. He didn’t have to give her a second chance, he just saw an opportunity and figured he could use her for something later down the line or just keep her because pain and panic aste not very good at their job tbh. My issue, with her as her creator is that she’s obsessive and I feel like it’s not needed or relevant to her character anymore or in the beginning.

Im not scrapping that flaw out because that’s a flaw I actually have that can be applied to literally everything. And I don’t really want Rina to be perfect. She’s really not and was never meant to be and i accept her and her flaws 100%. Her obsessiveness for Hades isn’t really needed in the beginning of their story. I don’t need her falling head over heels for Hades in the beginning. So for right now, she technically has a small crush on him at most or just finds him oddly attractive with no real base behind it.

I want their relationship to build up to something meaningful and even more special to me than it already is, not just an obsessive girl getting the man of her dreams after like 2 years or some of working for him or something because he’s emotionally constipated.

Also…the way i wrote her obsessive tendencies in was just weird and it makes her sound like shes abt to kill people or something 😭😭💀 like Rina chill out broski, no one finna take that man from you relax 💀.

i am fully aware that, since it's a stage and there are people watching, their movements must be more exaggerated as so everyone understands the message they're trying to convey, but it's truly impressive how he modified sei to adapt to his own self.

watching the stage play again just made me fall in love once more. at this point, when it comes to me, who even is shocked anymore? i love sei so much, it's a feeling i can't keep inside my chest. yojiro did a wonderful job and i will never thank him enough for bringing sei back to life.

So basically Red Leader demands that she comes with him and makes them his second in command. He finds out that they are very skilled in combat and incredibly strong, even doing a background check on them and finding out their “past”, but then develops feelings for him despite being in an arranged marriage (it is obviously not a healthy marriage as neither him nor his wife love each other). So the closer that Red Leader gets to them, the more in love he falls and soon enough Lyrica falls too.

Lyrica becomes a very successful soldier in the army who started helping making political decisions, and gets very close with Tord. Tords ‘wife’ noticed, but didn’t say anything as she was having an affair herself.

One day, when Lyrica and Tord were coming back from training, they caught his wife having her affair, but couldn’t give less of a shit because they weren’t in love anyway. That was how they decided to get divorced (secretly to keep it from the public), and Lyrica and Tord get married and Tord’s ex wife gets married to the one she had an affair with.

Tord and Lyrica live a happy married life as Tord is finally in a happy relationship, and they are actually very good friends with his ex wife who also has an even happier life with her new husband!!!!!