#safeshipping

With my mind being how it is, selfshipping /yumeshipping is awful and fucking scary because like. With those things I don’t know when my mind will believe itself or believe I am worthy and I am fine and I don’t have to get rid of anything of said f/o,

I mean I’ve thought abt this before but just. I’m not going to get rid of my things, of course it’s just that it’s such a fucking popularity contest everywhere, even I think Pinterest. I’m not going to get rid of anything of course but, I’ve considered it. And this is the second time, I don’t know when I’ll feel worthy of my f/o or anybody else on my list, because of how I feel and am. It’s so much easier for everyone else. Believing they’re deserving of love, because they are deserving of it. and I know I’m not why should I and why would I?

Good thing my Selfship art is personal private stuff anyway but still so lame 😒

I am a person of color, and so is my f/o. For some reason the fandom they’re from ignores that fact. Anytime somebody white washes my f/o I get the urge to punch the wall. like, NO NO STOPP STOOOP. I get told it’s not a big deal, but it is to me. I used to be made fun of a lot for my race, that I was referred to as the “inferior race” multiple times before moving to a more diverse community, so seeing them be whitewashed just pisses me off, like I’m overreacting or making a big deal out of nothing. It just sucks :(

I really hate how lots of people are leaving the fandom of a media with one of my yumes because of the creator being toxic/problematic. Especially 🐚🦴 is basically the second face of this media, and im always really afraid people are gonna bash me for not only still liking the fandom but actively selfshipping with one of the characters. I hate the creator but I can't bring myself to hate the media or 🐚🦴.

-🔌🟥 yet again lol