#selfflove

Do it

I beg you

Let me down

Again and again

Until it finally sinks in

That you're no good for me.

So I can walk away completely.

It may break me.

And even though it kills me

I'm gonna step back

Away from the want of wanting you

Which eats away at me everyday

I'm gonna step back

And see if that day comes

That day when you want to speak to me.

When you want to be close to me.

That day when you want to want me.

And even though it kills me

I will step back.

I must step back.

Because for a moment...

How do you do it?

How do you dare?

How can you receive a message from me

And pretend I'm not even there?

How can you swipe by me?

How do you not have the time?

When yesterday you said I was your everything

And you called me 'mine'.

How do you walk around acting like I don't exist?

The audacity is really loud my love

But knowing what you are not is just as powerful.

Being comfortable with this fact is a duty you owe yourself so that you are not breaking yourself everyday by thinking you lack something.

But it is actually because you lack something, that is what makes you special.

We are all unfinished stories of our souls trying to find pieces of ourselves in this world.

We exercise kindness to others to help us feel whole not thinking that we deserve to show that same kindess to ourselves first.

Be in tune with your journey

You are giving the reader the paintbrush to create the vision.

The reader gives power to the writer.

Letting every insecurity be the justification to your emptiness that you try to hide.

I'm breaking the shackles

I can't believe I let myself believe that I never had a choice.

Today

She is told she is needed

She however doesn't understand why

For she has never needed herself.

Every morning

She looks at herself in the mirror

Squints

Tilts her head to the right

And tries so hard to understand

But she still doesn't get it.

Need.

A funny four letter word

Even the mouth stresses when saying it

As if it needs to stop saying it before it becomes too uncomfortable.

She is forgettable she says

So she gives

And gives

Because giving is all she knows

When people ask her what she needs

She replies

I need to give

I Need too.