Words

You’re gone and I’m here

And…

I’m ok.

I thought I wouldn’t be but I am.

That’s the power of a goodbye.

That’s

Closure.

Because I finally have the courage to say out loud that

Even though I am loved I don’t like the way some people love me.

They may think they are doing a good job but I don’t feel that’s what I deserve.

I deserve to be loved better.

And if you can’t do that and commit to it… there’s the door

The person to blame, who I should seek vengeance against.

But today...

Today I have realised that I.

I

and you've been wasting all this time trying to find that feeling again

when now you are starting to learn that nothing will compare to it.

And instead of walking away...

You seek

and you seek

and you seek

to the point of insanity.

Walk away.

-where are you my love?-

and I dream of passion and fire like Hades.

to a point where

I become a stranger to myself.

For the first time in our relationship

I didn't say sorry for something that I didn't do just to keep the peace.

I pissed you off with my silence and stood my ground

I could see that my reaction made your blood boil

And do you know what?

Is like being on a lost boat

In the middle of the night

Tracking the moonlight

Hoping that I will find you.

On days that I miss you the most

I find that I cannot even do the most basic of things.

Hold conversations

Or eye contact

My mind loses track of the day to day mundane

because you are the one my soul is completely devoted to...

What shall I do my love?

What shall I do?

It is comfortable to walk on