#selfevaluation

Lovin & Livin

I have decided to care less about what might people think and talk about me.

Whatever you do, people will always have something to say.

When you are sorrounded with narrow headed critcs and fault finders ? How am i supposed to act ?

when one wrong move and you will all be judged. So should there must be a need for me to take precautions on that ?

Some people will believe what they wanted to believe. Their inputs about me refers from what they only see.

I don't have to explain anything and seek their approval. It isn't necessary to please everyone just to feel being accepted or just to make yourself you belong.

I am feeling good with myself this way.

I was born this way. I am in my own natural way.

I wouldn't like to loose myself just to fit in.

We have our own individualities and I think everyone should respect that.

If they don't like me? So be it. But I won't change myself, nor just to please you no matter how bicth you think i might be.

I will do what I want and their opinions doesn't matter.

It's my life. I should be the most to define it.. Not them.

I WON'T LOSE MYSELF to be favored by everyone.

What others think about me is entirely none of my business.

Cause small minds talk about people.

Considering their big head with a pea brain ?

You’ve got little time on earth, make each day count.

Self care is so important! We will not have strength to lift others if our internal sustainance becomes depleted. Self Evaluate and find balance again ♡

Ishikawa sensei, mentioned his brief experiences as a boy when he saw one of the last 10.dans practice Kendo. He walked in with a cane, like an old man, but once he grabbed the shinai, he corrected his kamae and became untouchable.  Now I walk with a cane due to folding my ankle for the second time in two years. Due to an illness my joints on a clock, eventually I will blow out my ankle with all my weight behind it. It won’t be pretty and could be life changing injury. 

 I caught my right front big toe on my hakama in the middle of a men strike.....ankle turned, and my weight came down.....BOOM! Folded.

Not broken....but a severe sprain. 

Where does my Kendo develop from here? 

What is my path to GoDan in a year...now maybe 3 years depending on the ankle recovery.

 How do I continue to love what I do in Kendo, but I love the ability to walk even greater.....how do I insure I can do both in another decade..or three decades.

------------- Like a magic kendo shinai was waved over my head-- A highly respected 7.dan sends me a development instructions appears in my email --- while I was flying back home. Im under the firm belief I just got Yoda’ed. He was reading my thoughts from 1000 miles away. -- 

NOW THAT IS SEME. the  mental seme - executed when you didn’t even see it coming and BOOM. Ippon. 

Weather has changed and fall 🍂🍁 is here with some rain 🌧 and amazingly cool breeze 🌬. I am a person who wait for this season because who doesn’t like blankets, cup of coffee ☕️ and snuggles 😻

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This time along with this changing weather I am trying to change some bad habits of mine as I was upset when I realised and it’s never too late to be a better person. .

Iwanted to change those habits of mine in a blink of an eye or maybe overnight but after stressing over it I realised that it is something against nature as well because everything takes time, same is that case with the seasons too.

I have started taking baby steps to change some habits of mine and I am going good ♥️

So guys if you want to change something in yourself then don’t be harsh, give sometime to yourself and start taking some baby steps to achieve your desired goals and don’t forget to appreciate yourself. .

It’s not a rule to change a habit of yours only rather you can apply this everywhere and anywhere in your life even if you want to change something in someone, don’t expect an overnight miracle rather appreciate the baby steps they are taking to achieve the results.

“Because One Life, One Opportunity and One chance”