#self touch

Austin Butler self-soothing mid interview

There are two foundations to mindful masturbation. (1) learn to relax through deep breathing; (2) let feelings, sensations and thoughts come and go without holding onto them or rejecting them. Just feel them and let them go. So you do this when masturbating.

Play with yourself, but without an objective, i.e. not trying to reach an orgasm. Just focus on the feelings that come in your penis, around your penis, in your body.

If fantasy images come, just let them go, and go back to the feelings in your penis and body. When you feel something, just let your mind feel it, but don’t force yourself, and also let the feelings come and go.

A few weeks ago I was on a work trip which led to some discussions on potential new initiatives and collaborations. The idea arose in me to establish a foundation or NGO. As I was reflecting on this possibility while we drove through the mountains of a remote region, I touched my crotch and fell into bliss. As I entered into a deep connection with my cock, I asked myself about my motivation for having such a plan, since setting up an NGO, although it's something that in appearance may be for the benefit of others, can actually involve a lot of ego and materialistic motives.

And then I felt, coming from my penis, a strong impulse to make sure that such an initiative would be completely selfless as far as I am concerned: if I do it, I should not have a single trace of desire for personal benefit.

And then I fell into a deep state of forgetfulness of self, a sense of total merging with the universe, and love for all beings. As a Baha'i the notion of selfless service to humanity is a key teaching and a core motivation for me in my life and career, so at one level the message I received was nothing new, and something I am deeply aware of at both spiritual and intellectual levels. But now I felt the same message coming to me from my cock (and also my anus -- all of my genital zones), and leading me to an embodied and blissful experience of oneness.

At that point I discovered that my lowly cock and anus are aligned with the highest and most noble purpose of my life, that they are aligned with God's will. My cock is not only a toy for innocent playing with and pleasuring, as I had experienced a few days earlier -- it is a partner and guide on my path of God.