#sectioning cw

diversity win, All Might is disabled!!! i guess chronologically, we have

• adhd

• ptsd

• i can't remember if i was schizo-spec or had psychosis but my medication was Not Optional 😂

• migraines

• c-ptsd (different event)

• i was hospitalized for being gay so my universe was clearly doing well /sarc

• catastrophic disabling injury that left me with one lung and no stomach

• ptsd the remix ✨

• can't describe enough how not being able to eat properly is a disability in itself but related to that was the chronic fatigue, fainting spells, low blood pressure,

• i kept using my quirk which would always rip any stitches i had and usually made a rib or two slip and stab me in the lung 😂

• disassociative identity disorder

• whatever it's called when for months your every thought is about Keeping Deku Safe™ (gonna say, "anxiety")

• depression

feels like im forgetting something but shout out to kin mems of medication bottles covering every horizontal surface, mvp type beat

#✴️💙🦸‍♂️

I've been seeing a counselor again at my college and uhh. I don't know how it's going. This is the first time I've talked about my delusions and anger management issues and. I'm terrified I'm gonna be institutionalized or something.

The counselor is a sweetheart and she hasn't given me any reason to think that and I did read you can't be institutionalized against your will unless you're a threat to yourself and others, but I'm gonna be speaking to a psychologist here at the college next week and.

I've been managing just fine on my own but I'm afraid my issues might get worse someday, but I'm also afraid I've opened up a Pandora's box here and I want to close it back up but I can't.

I just. I feel stupid for talking about this, too, like I have no right to be scared or something.

I talk about having friends but. Sometimes I think I don't have any, because friends can be vulnerable with each other right? But I don't feel like I can be with the people in my life right now.

Idk. I feel really stupid. I'm sorry.

I'll get through this, but this session's only reminded me of how much I miss you guys and wish you were here. :(

I have been lonely without my Jasper for years now, you used to be the only one who could calm my visions and bring me back down to reality. I miss that and you, as I still have prophetic dreams and visions and I've sadly been locked away and put through electric shock therapy again over doctors thinking I'm crazy (thankfully I was eventually given the opportunity to prove my abilities and it's the only reason I'm free, but that's a story for another day lol)

I know that we'll find each other someday. Even if you're not my Jasper and I'm not your Alice, I just want you to know that we're soulbound for a reason and I /know/ we will find each other. Someday soon I think too.

(the only thing that has stopped me from looking is the fact I'm a guy in this life now and I'm worried that puts off anyone who would want to find me again, but I'm wishing you all the best on your journey)