if this is too on the verge of something i would need to pay to get answered, no worries, but i had a shc secondary question. would you consider your true secondary to be the one that you most like to use, or the one that you use when you're out of options? which one is the model? to be more specific, i've been debating whether i'm a bird or snake secondary. i WANT to be a bird secondary, and i love collecting skills and knowledge, but when im stressed/panicked etc i get overwhelmed by the idea of prepping in that bird way, and i seem to always fall back on snake secondary methods, even though they make me feel slimy. am i a burnt snake with a bird model i enjoy, or a burnt bird with a snake model i built to use when my bird methods feel too difficult?
Generally I would say your secondary is whatever makes you feel powerful. Another way of looking at it is - whatever method seems easiest. Like if you feel like you're almost *cheating,* you're probably using your secondary.
There are people who have a model that is just really fun to live in, but when things get *serious* they bring out what they consider to be the Big Guns. I don't see that in fiction as much as I would like, but Spike from Buffy prefers to live in his Lion secondary (for fun) - but when he has to actually problem solve for real... he clicks into his Bird.
(he might additionally have a Snake underneath the Bird, or he may just flip back over into Lion if a plan is going well, I'd need to revist the show to be sure.)
From your description, it seems like it might be good to unpick why you feel the way you do about Snake secondary. It's totally possible you feel slimy about using it because it sadly doesn't have the best cultural reputation (and Bird has a way better one.) Or it's possible that it feels false because it is false, but it's something you feel like you're *supposed* to do. Like if you have a parent who's a loud Snake secondary or something.
And this is definitely just a normal ask. The deal with the commissions is that in order to even *start* to sort someone, I need a lot of detail - including like family, specific examples, what they were like as a kid, etc. They take a while to do, and... are only going to be interesting/useful to a handful of people.
