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A wip that I WILL FINISH

On my soul

To preface, 3 years ago, this one was the main concept I arrived at!

Me, a toucan! Whose colors could be changed on a whim, blue one being the default. I had put together this pink & green one also:

The toucan concept never ended up being properly actualized though because, while very cool, it felt somewhat disingenuous at the time and, frankly, even more so now! That said, I still admire it for being a very RubyRedux fursona; an emphasis on wild colors, optimism, and the drive to accomplish goals! Would be cool to do some art with this birdsona some day maybe? Not 100% sure.

At the time, I tried some other concepts in pursuit of something that felt more true-to-myself, such as different birds, or sheep, but nothing really felt right. Here's one of the fish from the time though:

Truthfully I can't remember if that was intended as a fishsona or a mascot, but either way, it was a concept and I wanted to share it because it isssssss cute. And relevant!

That being the cryptid furry trout, it's something I was again thinking about. And sheep, and silkies. And being sad, and in pain, and struggling to feel seen or represented, decided to see if I could make a 'sona that communicates any of that.

Anyway, here's what I've been sketching about all week:

A Sheep/Silkie/Crypid Trout type being. Kinda fretting over it being too much like a capricorn sea goat (i'm a cancer, not a capricorn, it feel weird if it's a capricorn-sona?) but eeeeehhhhhh. Figuring out how to feel and interpret the matter. Oh, I was also torn if she would have Plushie as one of her typings. If yes, she jingles a bit. Might say that's true regardless.

was torn about whether to have a huge fish tail (and vertical fin or horizontal fin?) or a small fluff tail. something about having a giant tail sounds heavy and cumbersome and exhausting. switching between both is possible, I'd be sad to lose the furry trout aspects altogether. And then, to have surgery scars or not! To have gotten it or never needed it in the first place! Undecided about how I'd want that feeling represented.

Not sure what else to say about it. Was hoping to put into art what I can't in words, but it's difficult!

she has no nails and she's slow and shaky.

Possibility that she might be able to shift into form of fish (see fish sketches at the top of the thread).

I’m taking a drawing class in my final semester of college and i HAVE to fill a sketchbook and I found out that I really enjoy drawing places?? Inside of cafes and just... Places??