#schcomtalk

when normies talk about not having any social interaction for a whoooole daaaay like it's some unusual thing to do. babes those are rookie numbers

in all ways except physical i am dead

anyone else fantasises about being put into some sort of semi-conscious state where you can just kinda exist but not have to actively experience anything

sometimes I get absorbed in some half-fictional universe and I start to think that oh man normal full life with people and stuff happening sounds so nice I wish I could have it... and then I remember that I DID have it and was so miserable the whole time. for me it's like active misery of having an active life vs numb emptiness of having nothing and of course neither is good but at least the emptiness is not actively bad

in my experience dpdr has been such an overlooked part of my dysfunction whenever I brought it up with psych-adjacent "professionals". I was repeatedly told that "oh it's just a symptom of depression, when depression gets better dpdr will go away :)" when it never fucking did? I used to track my dpdr with mood and they did not correlate. and it was almost my chief complaint for such a long time.

I usually feel like I'm transparent in social situations. I'm not an actual person, I am someone to reflect off of. People can just say whatever they want at me and I will just, be there to be whatever they want to see, not as a real individual.

do you ever take a substance and it just. causes the same exact symptoms as your (past) mental health issue

i really dislike people. like all of them. if I could I would never have any relationships ever again