#sayeman

I’m about a week shy of my two year mark.  To be perfectly honest, I have no idea of the exact date. I just know it is near the end [week 3-ish] of November. A lot of things have changed over the course of year 2. A lot of things have come back around after having been previously discarded. And a lot of things are planned for year 3. There is a book in the works. Like, I have actually begun to…

In attempt to be more active here (among other reasons) I have decided to do one of the 30/31 days of (devotional) polytheism/paganism/belief/witchcraft/etc. memes. There’s a few floating around but the one I have chosen actually comes from a tumblr blog which now seems to be closed. (faerylizzie who I think is now gardenofthequeen, but I could be wrong on that) found here. I may later choose to…

Contemplation after a year of service

I have been trying to write up a post about the Destroyer since September, but it’s been hard between obligations and life stuff and losing my notes. It’ll be done sometime in the future. By the end of the year, I hope! But really, probably by the end of the month. It will make a pleasant break from the nanowrimo work I’ve been consumed with.

I was thinking tonight, or rather I had a single…

Every week has been a battle for me. I struggle between keeping my practice closed, withholding all information besides devotionals and the shrine, or leaving it as it is and maybe casting the doors open wider.

I can see the merit in closing it off and keeping it to myself. No one can then come and change how I see my gods. No one can take and ‘skew’ or ‘corrupt’ my gods or my fragile beginnings…

Prayer http://wp.me/s4qvh6-prayer

I have written many prayers over the course of my religious life. Many with the intent of using them as daily prayers. But something, the same thing, happens every time. After a few days or a few weeks worth of use, the prayers, and the beads associated with them, begin to feel off. Like the warmth and purpose of them is no longer there. And I think I am beginning to understand why.

Despite my…

An introduction and an apology:

I’ve been worshiping/working with the Nameless knowingly since November/December of 2013. For about a year before that, I had been working with her under a different name. She had said countless times that her name did not matter, but in my normal way, I pushed… and pushed and we finally settled on a name. I am… rather ashamed of this. I tried to force her into a box that she just does not and…