#thunderouslysilent

In attempt to be more active here (among other reasons) I have decided to do one of the 30/31 days of (devotional) polytheism/paganism/belief/witchcraft/etc. memes. There’s a few floating around but the one I have chosen actually comes from a tumblr blog which now seems to be closed. (faerylizzie who I think is now gardenofthequeen, but I could be wrong on that) found here. I may later choose to…

The name of the Nameless haunts me. It is in every breath I take. It is in every cell that makes up my body. It is in my thoughts and it is in my dreams. It is in the food I eat and it is in the water I drink. It nourishes me and it sustains me. And it will be my destruction. Her name has been with me always. It was the first word I spoke. And it will be my last. In her name there is peace. And…

Just thought I would post a bit of an update.

This week has been awful for me. Depression is kicking my butt. But through the turmoil, things about the Sayeman have come to light…associations and such. If I can get into a better state of mind (and if the new book I started writing a couple of weeks ago doesn’t interfere), there may be a post coming sometime next week or the week after about said…

What you have given to me is not my strength,

But an ability to accept that I am strong.

My achievements are mine and mine alone.

What you have given to me is not my achievements,

But an ability to accept that I can achieve.

And though this life you have given me,

What I choose do it with it is for me to decide.

My path is mine and mine alone to walk.

And I choose to remain bound to you,

I can put up my feet

And rest my weary heart.

In her silence I find myself.

I can drop my veils

And be whole with what I am.

No matter what she asks of me,

No matter how difficult,