#rpf thoughts

i think misa had the sort of pressure that comes from having his parents unwavering trust in him and in his future. like they've never really thought of him failing so he can't because it was never really an option or a thought that's ever crossed their minds.

like his parents are confirmed the most easy-going hockey parents ever so all the pressure put onto him comes from himself and comparing himself to his brother.

i kind of think this is sort of worse than parents that do pressure you because the person you let down the most is yourself

and then you have sam who's parents have been involved since the beginning of time. like in that one article where sam said he never really liked playing hockey until he did later and it was mostly his dad (correct me if im wrong pls im going off pure memory).

then you have that dynamic of someone who really only cares about what his teammates/coaches think of him vs someone who cares more about what everyone else has to say or think

I don’t think that the base concept of shipping 2 people is the moral failure that some think it is, and quite frankly I doubt I ever will, I just don’t think that alone is anything crazy. That’s also my basis for rpf - I see 2 people with good chemistry and I wanna see more.

Now I know that it’s more expansive than that, with fics, headcannons, and all that, but I don’t have particularly in depth thoughts about those bc I’ve never actually read the fanfic before, I’m not yucking nobodies yum I’ve just really never been able to read them. Same thing for headcannons and spec, I’ve had fleeting thoughts of “that seem like some shit they’d do” and left it that, I haven’t put genuine thought into their innerworkings - and I’m sooooooo nosey and curious lol, so I love just attaching random attributes to strangers and giving full life stories to strangers at the airport or at a restaurant, but I’ve never done it w celebs, I guess it has something to do with the fact I’ll probably never see the stranger again or know anything about them vs knowing random shit about a celebrity bc I remember them saying it in an interview idk but something of that nature probably.

Anyway I guess I’m like a hands-off rpfer lol, I don’t tend to actively participate in lore building and I guess I don’t actually interact with the fiction part of it beyond edits, however I do be counting myself with yall bc yall are FREE! Like I would’ve never sought out hudcon’s new years whereabouts, it probably wouldn’t have crossed my mind, but I’m glad somebody did bc I ate them damn pictures up. Like I said my basis really is just “damn they like each other a lot, I need to see more” (and more y’all have given me bc Lord knows I would not have tried to find anything by myself).

For hudcon in particular, I’ve said before I don’t actually believe they’re dating, (I was also gonna say in love, but I’ve heard Hudson say he fell in love with Connor with a straight face one too many times so I’m gonna believe him idgaf) BUT it’s very clear they love each other and I just love love, like I am a hopeless romantic at heart and any kinda love, romantic, platonic, familial, undefined IDC! I will be there, it really does just put such a smile on my face to see people be loved and cherished, regardless of if I know them or not and I feel like I remember Connor saying he didn’t have many friends or something (I might be making that up y’all idk) so seeing him integrated into Hudson’s friend group like yeah that shit kinda mean something to me.

I also know the rougher side of rpf, I was there for larry and I was there for Henrick and Tarjei, I never shipped larry (bc I wanted Harry for MYSELF) or H/T (but I lovedddddddddd skam and I loved me them lil europeans like nobodies business) but I absolutely remember their friendships ending and fans causing such a strain and that really did make me sad to see a good relationship being ruined and I PRAY that doesn’t happen here, which truthfully I don’t think it will. Me, Connor, and Hudson are in the same age group and have strikingly similar interests based off what they’ve talked about in their interviews and they were clearly online lol so any big internet moment, even beyond shipping, I’ve seen, I’d almost bet they’d seen, so yeah I feel like they’ll navigate this sudden fame and the waves of the internet in a way that the other 4 just didn’t have the chance to, they also seem very intentional about how much they share publicly and making sure that their relationship is in tact bc the shit that’s been thrown at them for the 2 months they’ve been famous would make the average person go crazy. Not to say they deserve any of it, but truly I do think (and hope) that they’ll be alright - they seem like they’d move in together and we wouldn’t find out until Hudson says “our bed” or some shit lol.

In terms of the bad side of fandoms and intentionality and stuff I really really really hope that no one starts shit with Hudson’s gf bc it is clear that Hudson really wants to protect her, which is admirable and undeniably the right thing to do. I haven’t seen anyone do anything of the sort, which like, yay us! But still, for me personally she ain’t do shit to me, I ain’t gon do shit to her (I can’t say polygamy is my ministry but if her, Hudson, and Connor wanna try it, I will be their 4th) bc at the end of the day she seems content out of the spotlight (which good for her, that just seems like the safest thing to do) and Hudson and Connor have told us they have no intentions of stopping being affectionate with each other, so truly this changes nothing for me or my thoughts about hudcon, I will still be scrolling their tag starting promptly at 6am with a hashbrown and a wide ass grin on my face bc I am in lalaland and can do anything I want on the tumblr mobile app.

It’s also why I’m a big fan of there being a degree of separation between fandoms and celebrities, so that everyone can feel like they’re not being watched by a hawk and can actually free their thoughts and whatnot. Harassing people and showing them your unabated rpf thoughts is the biggest no no in my book, but simply having the thoughts and publishing them ain’t too crazy, and it would be unfortunate if the celeb came across it but truly for everyone’s sanity I’d hope it would be ignored so everyone can go about their day. The moral crusaders who will find a post with 6 likes from an account with 32 followers and blast it to the world are the true enemies here and it needs to be said! Wtf is this niche ass community doing to you? I’ve come across some posts here of conversations that *I* wouldn’t have bc I don’t speculate on sexuality, I believe everybody like everybody until said otherwise, but why tf would I make a big deal outta something that got 2 fucking notes??? Like what kinda damn sense does that make.

And to be a teeny bit petty for the one time, if someone said that me and my best friend were doing fan service or there’s just no way we’d date, I’d deadass be so offended. Like bitch this my whole soulmate (word used by both Connor and Hudson THANGYA) and you telling me you think we gay4pay??? I’d kiss my homegirls just to see them smile bitch wtf??? If people thought we were in love I truly would not bat an eye, but questioning the validity of our relationship?!? Bc you want them to be with someone else??? Of all fucking things! Oh I’d be sick to my fucking stomach.

Anyway there’s no moral or message to this, it really is just a stream of consciousness that I hope the 5 of y’all that see this will enjoy 🙏🏽

I hope hudcon stay in each others lives forever in whatever way they choose - if they get married, wonderful, I’ll make the invitations. If they don’t, perfectly fine, I will still be on @hudconcore scrolling like there’s no tomorrow. If they merge into one being, beautiful, I will comb their hair. I can’t wait to see what my 2 number 1 clients do in the future, I know it is BRIGHT!

So I remember seeing something a year or so ago- and obviously, take this with a MOUNTAIN of salt. Someone was saying that after a show they saw Jack and greeted him, and he seemed (I don’t remember the exact words) grumpy/suspicious, like he was not convinced that they were actually a fan.

And maybe he was tired or having bad night, or the person was being rude, or they just made it all up.

But taking it at face value, it reminded me of how Jack has said he gets nightmares of no one showing up to their concerts, that he sees the crowd as ready to hate on them, that he feels pressure to go above and beyond to not disappoint anyone. And all the bullying and hate they’ve dealt with. Him being youngest, getting rocks thrown at them while busking, seeing adults shake their heads at him.

And it just makes me think of a Jack who is paranoid that people are faking it when they claim to be fans. Unconvinced that people actually like him. They’re probably making fun of him and he can’t tell, or they’re going to go online and mock him later, etc. All that anxiety and trauma and desire for attention just coming out as resentment and distrust. Maybe it’s fun to interact with kid fans, because he knows they’re completely genuine. But an older “fan,” in a setting where they catch him off guard (instead of like a meet and greet), could so easily be just another bully.

This picture makes me think so much about a subtle characterization/perspective that I baked into "Boys of Summer."

When they're with each other, it tends to be the entirety of their awareness. Whatever else is going on around them is whatever.

This manifests in a few ways, like Lando's memory of the sleepover at Oscar's house basically only including Oscar and forgetting nearly everything else and how in group settings one or both of them forget there are other people there.

One thing I hadn't considered until right now, though, was how this actually benefits them as people who are constantly being filmed, photographed, and haunted by the DTS boom mic. Being "on stage" constantly like that has got to do your head in a bit, so their ability to kind of softly lose themselves in each other gives them a kind of psychic protection that no one else in the paddock has.