being demiromantic is such a weird experience
allow me to explain, I just need to rant about my aromantic spectrum experiences
I REQUIRE slow burn romance, we must be friends before I can appreciate their nuances enough to crush on you, so there is already a 1% chance of me getting in a relationship with my 4 close friends I am very platonic towards. Don’t bother crushing on me either, I’m very unlikely to reciprocate but I won’t destroy your emotions
No I don’t understand love at first sight in movies, it seems unnecessary and forced without the burning of chemistry and slowness
yes I am a 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴 because I can’t be anything else with ease. I can understand the feelings of wanting to get dirty and down, though I never have in real life.
Fuck if I can tell romantic feeling apart from queer platonism, I just wanna be held, loved, and kissed like something someone holds precious. But I also want to be their best friend too, something like a ride or die bestie but with that affection and love. What even is that? Is it romance? Is it queer platonism? I only currently feel romantic towards a select fictional characters whereas I can gain a more “woah this character is hot” feeling based on fanart and crave more of that. Appreciating nuance AND sexiness of characters is where romance feelings come, where I want to romance and cuddle them in a romantic way.
I must be crazy, I crave romance and hardly feel it. Am I actually demi romantic? Or does my dating pool suck? Am I capable of being romanced easily or do I require long courting? Or just slow burn friends to lovers classic?
I wish I wasn’t like this
thanks for listening, I’m proud of my sexuality and all but it sure will probably cause a long route of pain and problems ahead.
