#being used

!!!!!MDNI!!!!

Grabbing my hips hard enough to leave bruises, he forcefully pulls me into the middle of his lap. “Where do you think you’re going?” His rough voice sends a rush of fear through my spine, and all the way down to my pulsating cunt. It's too much. 

 I let out a pathetic whine as I try to wiggle out of his grip, but his hold on me only tightens. “I thought this is what you wanted, princess,” he says in a hushed tone as he lifts my legs and folds them up towards my chest. My mind goes completely blank as he effortlessly moves and positions my body exactly where he wants it. All I am in this moment is a toy for him to play with. 

 Wrapping his arm around my legs, he brings his other hand up to cup my face before delicately leaning my head back as far as it can go. I look up at him with glossy eyes, as he taps my bottom lip with his fingers: “Open.” I sheepishly open my mouth and let his fingers explore, feeling the grooves of my teeth and massaging my lower back gums. He lets out a rugged breath, “Suck.” 

Quickly, I close my mouth, and my tongue greedily wraps around each digit like I’ve been waiting for this moment my entire life. He groans deeply as I coat him in my saliva, doing my best to keep him satisfied. After a moment, he abruptly pulls his fingers out with a POP and leaves a painfully empty feeling in my mouth. 

My eyes follow his hand as he slowly moves down towards my aching cunt. Pushing my pink lacy thong to the side, he spreads my folds apart with his fingers and laughs lightly at my sobbing heat, “Look at the mess you’ve made, princess.” My cheeks heat up in embarrassment as I turn my head away in a terrible attempt to hide. But my embarrassment is cut short when he smacks my pussy, and draws a high-pitched moan from my chest. The only word I can manage is a pitiful “Please…” 

Humming low, he slowly rubs circles onto my clit, before dipping down in between my folds. He glides his fingers up and down, gradually speeding up his pace. His biceps tense as he applies more pressure, and my mouth slacks open as my body is consumed in pleasure. 

Before I can fully register it, he sweeps his fingers down to tease my entrance. And suddenly, he shoves his middle finger inside of me. I feel myself stretching around his thick digit, his hand making my pussy look ten times smaller. 

He curls his finger inside me before pulling his finger halfway out of my hole. I whine in protest, and he slams back into me. Smacking my pussy with his palm, he sends a shock of pleasure throughout my entire body. He pumps his finger in and out of me at a relentless pace, causing the fat on my body to jiggle at the impact. The sounds of my incoherent babbling and our skin slapping together fill the room. 

With a breathy moan, I feel myself come completely undone at the palm of his hand, getting closer and closer to my release. As I feel the tight knot in my core start to bundle up, he pulls his finger out of me. 

…… 

I know what its like to be used. And I'm not using you.

I've been through three relationships and all those partner ever did was use me.

Have you ever known what it's like to be so excited that someone actually came up to you and admitted they like you, only to tell you not even two weeks later that they were just using you to see if they were attracted to the same gender or not?

Have you ever been the experimental friend? Have you ever cried yourself to sleep wondering why people use you over and over again just to test their sexuality, as if you're some practice dummy for people to test themselves on before deciding to leave you?

HAVE YOU EVER? BECAUSE LAST I REMEMBER, YOU DIDN'T KNOW YOU OWN FUCKING DAUGHTER WAS BAWLING HER EYES OUT BECAUSE SHE GOT HER HEART BROKEN THREE DIFFERENT TIMES.

Yes. I'm using you. Because apparently you see me as that cruel and manipulative.