#friend problems

...and uhhh

Learned some new drama with my Ex 🥰

Running around on the playground

Yelling at you for not wearing a jacket

In the cold snowing weather

I still remember

When you ate that sandwich

Claiming it was your sanity

When you felt like you belonged

I still remember

When you’d ask for a granola bar

Because you were always hungry

And id never eat my own

I still remember

The laughter together

When we we best friends forever

And everything was perfect and fine

But now I remember

Your ignorance at the table

As you ignore what matters

Because nothing is easy anymore

But now I’ll remember

When you dropped us forever

Not telling us why or where you would go

And I shed my tears and tried to move on

Now I’ll remember

The good times and bad

As you attempt reconnection

But to no avail because

It’s gone

-> really need positive human interaction and genuine connection and bonds

-> tries to talk to people who are supposed to be closest friends who used to talk to/hang out with a lot

-> gets little to no response from them and doesn't get needs met

-> feels bad but can't wait for them to have time/energy so need to give up on them for now and try elsewhere

-> tries to make new friends by interacting with strangers and perform socializing to best of ability

-> struggles and doesn't form bond or feel connection with any new people at all

-> most new people don't put in any effort, it's one sided effort, and usually have bad interaction with at least one of them

-> uses up energy almost immediately and burns out and feel bad from trying so hard but failing

-> takes socializing break and doesn't talk to anyone for a while

-> feels lonely and isolated the whole time and wants someone to talk to or do an activity with to distract from bad feeling

-> reaches out to people already know but haven't talked to in a while to see how they are then ask to chat or hang out

-> no one responds or barely responds or rejects, so social needs don't get met

-> feels bad and even more alone and isolated

-> go back to top of this list and repeat over and over and over and over and over and try not to let it effect you