#rle

This reading was more about the emotional side of things and honestly, it took me twice as long to get done with Connor's because of the "mental fog" energy that kept coming up for me.

Anywho, I think there's something for everyone in this reading. Hope you like it as it’s my first time posting something like this 😭♥️

🧿 Hudson:

So from the start of the spread, he is feeling accomplished, like he earned all that he has right now. While he is very respected and supported by the industry during this time, there's this hint of feeling unsupported from "home". Him being protected by the industry also came up.

He is trying to stay stable and sadly, has a false sense of safety during this time. He is avoiding the sinking feeling that this will not last and has a misunderstanding of a situation, but only from his side. He is mistaking being comfortable with comfort while his intuition knows and is telling him. He is at the edge of a transition and beleiving that if nothing has happened till now, nothing will and he can stay in this little space between now and what's coming, for forever.

As we go on further in the week, the theme of him being burdened but not letting go continues with negative thoughts circling in his head. He is still choosing to keep going regardless, "hero of the day" energy but for others (as always.) There's rebellion brewing with clarity on the horizon. During this time, he may be trying to find ways to heal from his home, and going through past memories at the same time. He may also be finding acceptance, self forgiveness and peace during this time.

Towards the tail end of it, he is still resisting the transition due to his fear of change which might be making him bitter and turn to self criticism like dominoes. He is however still externally showing that everything is fine. Head over heart, when it is not a fun place to be either right now and "Justice" on his mind.

Now with all the bittersweet things out...

There's talks of getting a house going on in his life. I first thought it’s Hudson x Hudmama but then I also had 2 men so maybe Hudson x Hudmama in Canada and Hudcon in America? OR I am wrong and it’s just they’ll live together during filming.

I didn't clarify yet but here's some healings as a band aid for the bullet hole ♡

🌦️ Connor:

This spread starts with kind of a heavy energy.

There’s tension, there's sadness and there is also an aspect of some of this being public maybe in some way? Maybe online? There's manipulations and gossip surrounding him, a snake in his grass. He is overwhelmed by the choices he has to make and is feeling a general lack of direction during all of this, as expected.

Something that particularly pinged me was a phone call that came up multiple times, might be related to a PR woman. Lies and annoying were the surrounding words. Generally, a woman came up multiple times outside of this in not fun ways.

Temper running short, struggling from internalized negative thoughts, past memories and a fear of losing something but he is adapting to changing circumstance to the best of his ability. His family issues might be taking a more prominent space in his life at this time. During this there's a ray of sunshine in the form of a woman with a dog. He might feel invisible and critical, but the sun is peeking out of the clouds in some ways.

There was something about conservatism and traditions that I am like ?? but overall, home troubles. Finding his centre. Dissapointments. Dishonesty and unfairness surrounding him.

Towards the tail end of the week, he goes into observation mode and/because his judgement is clouded by the overwhelm he has been feeling.

Some other things that came up was criticism of two, negotiation calls that honestly didn't give me good vibes but maybe I am mixing energies.

Now that you guys sat through this heavy reading, time for your healings ♡

Discussions surrounding a house came up in his spread, too, with a bit more confusion involved. A house with a garden. Now if we ever get confirmation that this house has a white kitchen, you'll be hearing from me in every annoying way.

Daydream would be both delighted (to have a Solar again) and horrified (at the treatment of him)

Well everyone would probably be horrified though not entirely surprised. pliable eclipses aren't always treated well and they have met plenty of travelers so finding a eclipse/solar like this was bound to happen.

Pride, Lust, and Glitter would all be cautious, unsure of how h Solar may react to them. Pride would try to be soft and gentle, not wanting to scare h Solar anymore.

There’s no requirement for you to have been living “in role” for a specific amount of time before clinics will agree to recommend hormones nowadays. They will usually ask for some evidence that you’re socially transitioning, but the only thing that requires that you’ve lived as the correct gender for 2 years is applying for a gender recognition certificate.

You’re very unlikely to get the go-ahead for hormones at your first appointment with the clinic anyway, so how much evidence you have isn’t something you need to worry about too much at the moment, and they will tell you at the first appointment if there’s any more progress with social transition that they would like to see before agreeing to recommend hormones, so that you have time between appointments to sort out anything else that needs sorting out.

How is Hudson's energy right now?

His energy is very strongly tied to public perception currently. He might be very emotionally withdrawn within himself but his awareness of how the public percieves him remains high.

Very burdened emotionally, being tied down by threads over threads causing exhaustion. He seems detached from his surroundings, maybe as a way to stop the external influence from further influencing his inside environment. Despite the isolation caused by the..circumstances, he is trying to find ways to stay calm and control the parts that he can, especially his own actions and emotions. Very reflective, mentally active.

All the thinking coupled with the threads, there's an impatience to change the stagnation. Very important, this energy of wanting less drama and a quieter space for himself.

What is upsetting Hudson nowadays?

Seems to be an ongoing situation, rather than just one single issue. With the frustration with stagnation that was showing up earlier comes back here in shape of mental fog and overwhelm, and uncertainty. Even the restraint to keep calm is frustrating him. Things are changing too fast, and the pressure from always being in the spotlight, the burden of expectations and how to appear publically is weighing him down, too.

There's a frustration with his surroundings, personal and professional which is also ongoing, but more tiring than dramatic. The constant need to balance obligations and being pulled into different directions. He isn't able to properly express things that he wants, and the gap that gets left behind between what he wants to say vs what is understood makes him feel like he is losing control of the situation each time.

What is making Hudson happy nowadays?

He feels happy when he gets to change his environment which makes him feel like he's finally not stagnant and similar feelings as above. Physical escape helps with the mental escape. Travelling, in essence. Simple experiences and small moments are making him happy and uplifting him, like just getting ice cream with friends.

There is something in his life currently that is giving him hope, and feeling like a door opening in the darkness. Alongside this, there is also someone with confidence, charisma, warmth and creative energy that is uplifting him and giving him energy through interaction/attention.

Hudson is also avoiding putting himself in any draining situations. He might be working creatively with people he enjoys time with and building something meaningful which is making him happy. Looking towards the future in terms of creativity and possibilities is also giving him hope that things will get better.

In the same vein, seeing the gradual progress and seeing his effort pay off with future possibilities becoming more clear is also giving him some relief and sense of calm.