#remus rambles

And then there are people who say that and then say it's why they watched the show instead... HONEY THE SHOW IS LONGER THAN THE FILM WHAT??? Yeah the film isn't directly queer, like there's no men that kiss eachother but bloody hell guys it's there. It's so unbelievable there.

You cannot tell me that the way Armand looks at Louis isn't as gay as their lives were long.

what if whizzer wants you to make the dinner for once. what if whizzer's afraid of being seen as the woman in the relationship because he isn't perceived as a man, not like you are. what if whizzer only conforms to the expectations that are set on him as the "woman" of the relationship because he doesn't know how else society will accept him because of who he is. what if deep down whizzer is afraid that no one sees him as a man. what if whizzer wants to be handsome instead of pretty. what if whizzer wants to be loved like you do rather than sexualised. what if this post isn't about whizzer at all. what if. crazy thought.

It's just enforcing that "girls have to be pretty" and "relationships are a competition" and that "someone who's bad at self care is disgusting and disgraceful"

All of it

I keep getting TikTok after TikTok about hEDS (Hyper-mobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) and they're all awareness and I'm just...

I'm tired. All of them are relatable, all of them make me sigh and want to cry because it's right.

I was diagnosed with hEDS, I have hEDS.

My joints are falling apart, my legs don't hold my own body up some days. I've called out sick for a week straight before because I was in so much pain.

I regularly collapse, my knees slip, my shoulder jerks out and in of socket, my wrist creaks and cracks, my fingers lock up, my back hurts.

I limit my hours at work to 6 max per shift, I remember exhaustedly telling my employer that I have hEDS and no it's not just being extra bendy, my joints slip and dislocate.

"Can you still grab carts tho?"

That was their concern and I just sighed and told them if I'm not having a flare then sure, I can grab a few.

I'm tired...I joke about how my sister can go to the doctor and get told to watch her cholesterol but other than that she's doing great !! I went and I walked out with a list of 6 various offices to call,,,all but two were physical. Pain Management, Physical Therapy, Rheumatology, and Nerve Conduction Studies.

Fun fact the first Rheumatologist my PCP wanted to send me to rejected me because I have Ehlers-Danlos. That was literally the reason...the new one specializes in patients with EDS so ....yay?

I've come to terms with a lot of things to be honest.

I know that I don't have much longer being able to walk without assistance 24/7, I know that within 10 years max I will use a wheelchair, I know I will start to need my braces on more joints more often. I've been looking at forearm crutches. I know this. I know I'm getting worse.

I can feel my body getting worse.

I'm angry about it. I hate it. It enrages me.

But I've come to terms with it at the same time. It's a weird feeling. Angry but being okay with it. Being content and angry at the same time is strange.

I'm gonna head to sleep now, I told my partner I was going to bed a few hours ago and it's 3 am now, so: I'm sorry Baby, I'm going to bed I promise but Ironically my back was hurting so I couldn't sleep.

Okay imagine introducing Remus to sweatshirts!!

So my dad has this sweatshirt that’s really cozy, but it’s more like a full sleeved sweater with pockets at the sides like a regular sweatshirt.

.....

“Rem! Rem!” (Y/n) barged into the Marauders’ dorm while calling for her boyfriend.

“What happened love? Where’s the fire?” Remus joked from his bed.

The dorm was empty, save Remus. James, Sirius and Peter were attending detention for some prank. Same prank which Remus had planned but didn’t get caught.

“Fire? No Rem.” (Y/n) whined and then excitedly muttered, “I’ve got somethin’ f’you”.

“F’me pup? C’mon then show me.” The lycan mused.

(Y/n) countered, “Not like this, take off your sweater!”

A light pink blush coated Remus’ cheeks and he obliged while saying, “I like where this is heading”.

She was so busy looking at his clad-less torso that she totally zoned out. Quickly snapping out of the daze with heated cheeks her eyes met a smirking Remus.

“Nuh- uh close your eyes Sir.” She sauntered to his bed and quickly tore apart the packaging.

Once ensured that the lad’s eyes were still closed, she carefully helped him wear the sweatshirt.

“Now open your eyes!” She said excitedly while stepping back and adoring her boyfriend who was dotting a Light pastel purple and sage green sweatshirt.

“Well tell me how do you like it!?” She asked while dragging him to the mirror.

He was analysing his look in the mirror when he placed his hands on his waist. Something under his hands caught his attention. On checking out, he found pockets instead of normal sweater material.

Dumbfoundedly he slid his hands inside the pockets on both sides.

“Bun there are pockets in this jumper!!” He barked. “This jumper has pockets in it!!!”

He broke out of this daze when his girlfriend started giggling, “It’s supposed to be like this Rem. It’s muggle clothing. S’called sweatshirts. In the last letter I asked my dad to send one. Do you like it?” She asked wide- eyed with a grin stretching from ear-to-ear.

“Like it? I bloody love it!! It’s so comfortable and it has pockets and it’s so soft.” He rambled while still looking in the mirror, turning side to side. “Wait what’s this back here?” He pointed to a lump at the back of his neck where the sweatshirt seemed to bunch up.

(Y/n) untucked the hood of the sweatshirt and put it over her boyfriend’s head. “This my love, is the hood of the sweatshirt. It’s like a built in, attached cap”.

His grin stretched even more, and an adorable giggle left his lips. He looked a character straight out of a romance novel with his adorable goofy grin, blush that scattered around his freckles and scars, his sandy brown hair sticking out from under the hood of his sweatshirt and his hands tucked in the pockets.

(Y/n) reached up and squished his cheeks while pecking his nose.

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Happy (early) birthday

GASP! RIGHT MY BIRTHDAY IS SOON! THAT MEANS ROMAN'S IS SOON TOO!