and idk how to explain it so im just gonna hope that by some miracle my future possibly but not exclusively romantic partner either finds this post and understands or i stay single forever and die alone in my mid 30's from suicide because i couldnt keep the one person that promise to stay and they left like everybody else in my stupid fucking life because the universe is sick

It would solve all my problems and I'll do the schoolwork I promise 😭😭😭

Rare sighting of me with 2d rather than my insert because im feeling shit about myself right now

the kids aren't coming over anymore, just the adults. i feel kinda stupid for being disappointed. im like trying to hold back tears bc i was kinda hoping to make new friends and like an hour before they're meant to come i get told they aren't anymore. id cleaned my room and planned out every possible conversation, all for nothing. i shouldn't be so sensitive. it'd be weird for me to actually become friends with them anyway. I'm an adult now, so i should only have adult friends, even if i only get along with preteens. even tho i still feel like a little kid and have childish interests and play with toys and dont have a job, im an adult. im so weird. i need to start acting my fucking age.