#remi rambles

Raph: Tough exterior but extremely caring and protective on the inside. Very sensitive and doesn't want anyone to know it. Values family above all but hopes to create meaningful relationships outside the family.

Donnie: Unknown child prodigy with an insane talent for computer science. Excels in school while putting in zero effort but feels very lackluster compared to his brothers, especially when it comes to fighting.

Mikey: Little ray of sunshine with a heart of gold that wants to be taken seriously. Has been sort of type casted as baby brother.

Splinter: Helicopter parent and worried father to quadruplets, maybe a bit too strict and overbearing but he means well. Maybe he's even got a few secrets.

April: Loyal, passionate and motivated with high career ambitions but a bit insecure and very socially anxious.

I can keep adding forever with little details and so on but this is sort of the gist in my brain for everyone when I'm writing.

When I move on to actually writing a story I think about what is this character's motivation/goal and what is holding them back from that.

So in mm the boys' goal is to be normal teenagers and attend high school but the fact that they are mutant turtles is holding them back from that. And then like add Cynthia Utrom, TCRI, and Superfly to the mix...

it makes laughing noises. Specifically children's laughter. It is made up of MULTIPLE doll heads and hands. It's like if an angry mob of children was a spider. And let's not forget about its nature -- If Edwin makes the slightest noise or the slightest utterance or makes a move, it chases him. It chases him relentlessly and is always there to eat him alive.

obviously the spider is terrifying in ways that also don't relate to bullying, but still kind of relate to the society around edwin. one of them being that it's made of dolls. they're fake. they're plastic. they're superficial. people tend to be so superficial to keep up appearances and ostracize anyone that doesn't.

it's also a spider. a doll spider. in a dollhouse. edwin is trapped in its web (the dollhouse). but also, he would be trapped in society's social obstacles and mazes for him if he were alive simply because he is Different from them. his true self is not one that society welcomes, accepts, nor tolerates. and they would hunt them down and hurt him any chance they get.

this also makes for some really poetic metaphors about him and his interactions in hell

i think one that's really sweet is when edwin says "I can't escape it... I can't." and charles replies "Yeah well, I'm here now." LIKE OH MY GODDDDDDD LIKE!! like think abt it. think of the implications and how it relates to the metaphor.

charles is there to FREE him from being quiet. he is free to run and to scream and to escape the web that he's in. that's so. they're everything to me.

as for simon,, i cant really say what it WOULD mean like metaphorically... except for the part where simon asks "Do you think it has to be torture? Being the way we are?" and edwin's like "No. It does not. I'm going to get out of here, you should come with me." like edwin KNOWS its not a sin and he's trying to escape the society that rejects them

other than that though, i cant really think what that interaction would mean...

maybe im just wrong about the metaphor, maybe it's Not societal pressure. maybe it's not anything at all! maybe the curtains were just blue, and a giant spider made of doll heads is just a giant spider made of doll heads. who knows?

either way it is 1am where i am right now so if anyone sees this post and has any ideas, feel free to rb/comment, id love to see your take :D