#redefiningtheparadigm

Some #words finally. @stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #heartbreak #poetry #heartbreakpoetry #poetsofig #poetssociety #writerssociety #poetssociety #writingcommunity #writingcommunityofinstagram #writing #amwriting #poetryoftheday #poemoftheday #wordswag #wordswagapp #phantoms #love #lovepoem #lovepoetry #darkpoetry #bymepoetry #herheartpoetry #untwineme I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigma #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-pwb2al_Lk/?igshid=ewceg81zgg86

Exploring. @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #art #abstractart #poetrycommunity #writingcommunity #artistcommunity #community #liquitex #sennelier #sennelier1887 #cansonpaper #canson #blickartmaterials #blickiowacity #artistsoninstagram #artofig #covid19 #studiotime #quaratinelife #quaratine #artwork #artoftheday I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigma #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-XeIQPl27p/?igshid=1b72ikan9sv1w

I feel broken, taken apart and put back together again but with pieces missing, sitting on the floor as you tinker about my body trying to find the perfect combination and fit for your preference. My Stepford days are gone and all that awaits is the rainbow colored waves of unicorn days. I hide behind words and focus on emotion, say that I’m brave when all I feel is small, tiny to touch and even more fragile to stare too intently through. @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetryonig #poetryofig #poetryofinsta #poetryoninstagram #writing #writer #writingofig #writingofinstagram #poetssociety #writerssociety #poetrysociety #mentalhealth #mentalwellbeing #bymepoetry #untwineme #perfectionism #recovery I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigma #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-J-Z03l9AZ/?igshid=1hw2v3r2x3sei

Words: But no one would believe that. Not a single voice would be raised to say: “I believe.” Original text: Gone with the Wind Was thinking on Harvey Weinstein (who has #COVID19) and the #metoo movement. I am a survivor and yet these words resonate so hard. I know the feeling of not being believed. @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #blackoutpoetry #poetrysociety #writingsociety #creative #creating #art #wordart #wordporn #sharpie #molotowmarkers #molotow #molotowpaint #thought #rapeculture #quote #rapesurvivor #micropoetry #mocropoem #metoomovement #whyididntreport I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigma #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-FIGEaFG1_/?igshid=9j6xpez3mttd

This was created while listening to “Follow the Sun” by @carolinepennell - a beautiful, inspirational, intelligent song about the choice to move through darkness. The bottom left got a bit messed up when I was creating depth so the paint looks funky. Sorry to Caroline, because I feel this is an homage to this song. @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #art #abstractart #artcommunity #cansonpaper #cansonpaper_northamerica #liquitex #liquitexpaint #sennelier #sennelier1887 #masterstouchpaint #masterstouch #molotowmarkers #molotow #molotowpaint #followthesun #carolinepennell #vibrantcolors #hope #recovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalhealthawareness I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigma #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-E67yHF3wV/?igshid=1vddmt25arm5d

I sat on the floor. Head bent and bowed. waiting for absolution, the final thought that would lead me to the end of my story. A simple utensil used daily, handled meticulously, and all I could think was “my vein is right there...” The pan-flash fear was enough - enough to bring focus on breathing, on escaping and leaving behind a moment’s thought, a life’s end, something I could never take back. The knife fell, I turned and walked calmly to the bathroom. I turned on the light. I called my husband. And my new existence began. With so much free time to think, there are good and bad items that come up. One thing outpatient taught me was to see the logic and reason in things while telling yourself it’s okay to feel. Something can happen for a reason (maybe not some God-given advice) but because shit happens. We can be upset, hurt, in grief and pain, but we can also hold on to the data, the intellect, the information. It doesn’t have to be one or the other. This is the moment that lead me to #outpatient // #outpatientrecovery. @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #poetrysociety #poetrycommunity #writerssociety #poetssociety #writing #amwriting #suicideawarness #mentalhealthawareness #poetryofig #poetryofinstagram #poetryofinsta #mentalillnessisreal #bymepoetrywell #herheartstreach #reality #mentalillnesswarrior #mentalhealthwarrior #womanwriter #womenwhowritepoetry I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigmaofmentalhealth #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-DY1ipltxP/?igshid=1jve5jnmcza14

A #repost this morning because I am tired and I am going through some extremely difficult stuff at the moment. My on-the-paper writing is about it. I’m just not ready to share. Rather, let us remember we are connected. We all inhabit this existence. 📸: @glennenenen @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #chicago #iowacityiowa #poetrysociety #poetrycommunity #writerssociety #poetssociety #poetrycommunity #poetryofig #writing #amwriting #poetryoninstagram #poetryofinsta #existence #love #connection #alonetogether #writer #author #artist I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigmaofmentalhealth #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Chicago, Illinois) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-CfVtVlHcQ/?igshid=1ip59o9vck7im

I wish to confess something. In fact, I know the truth to all of us. Original text: Gone With the Wind @stephanieawmartin #stephanieawmartin #poetess #redefiningtheparadigm #writepublishing #poetrycommunity #writerssociety #poetssociety #writingcommunity #writersofig #poetsofig #poetryofig #poetry #blackoutpoetry #artist #art #poetryandart #artandpoetry #molotowmarkers #molotow #sennelier #sennelier1887 #blickart #blickiowacity #blickartmaterials I stand in #solidarity with my brothers and sisters with #mentalillness. #endthestigmaofmentalhealth #letstalkaboutmentalhealth (at Coralville, Iowa) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-Avx_yleTV/?igshid=r4m6s4gnvo62