#rc code blue

Why are you jealous I kissed my cute intern Esteban when I've NEVER given you the impression in-game that I want you?? Quickly, because I'm irritated and the new facial expression that I unlocked witnessing firsthand his audacity made the black crack off my skin.

Since we're pulling feelings out of our ass, I'll bring up how constipated I got trying to push tf down how much I hated your ass since you vetoed Jules's residency application at Seacrest because you thought they wouldn't be able to 'handle it', put them on leave because they showed up to work 30 minutes late and then you further admonished them because their phone died on the way, and you keep meddling in their mental/emotional sanctity like a helicopter parent because it just so happened that their mom got admitted to your hospital and you contributed to her recovery. They're a GROWN ASS ADULT?????

I genuinely got so mad I had to stop playing the book for a couple of hours to calm myself and touch grass. You're not about to piss me off on my cellular device. Love Island does a lot of that already rn(Sincere, KC and Zach will feel it. These men are the hell welcome commitee 💀). Don't push it

Confession:

Shino-Odori (Legend of the Willow)

I love it when women are allowed to be weird little freaks. She is glamorous and unsettling and I adore her

2. Liod (Path of the Valkyrie)

Full sprite, because LOOK at her! I want more diverse bodies for LI's please. (Side note: why is it only the female non-white LI's that have prosthetic limbs?)

3. Tate (On Thin Ice)

My beautiful boy. You are the only thing that made OTI almost bearable ❤

4) Bert (Arcanum)

I wasn't active in the fandom when this came out so maybe he wasn't actually under appreciated but I've only seen Liam love since I joined. Bert is one of my favourite LI's in both looks and personality, despite the [REDACTED]

5) D'Mario (The Heart of Trespia)

Doesn't get as much screentime as most of the LI's but that makes sense with the plot and his scenes are lovely and important. I love that the betrothal was suggested as a way to subtly strip power from Ellaire but instead he became her strongest ally and helped her learn how to be a good monarch, even when you're not romancing him.

6) Marcel & Jamie (Theodora)

They are both so gorgeous and I love their personalities. Yeah it's probably too soon for Jamie after her breakup, but she deserves to be treated better and in the good ending she can have a whole life of that with Theo 😭 (I want a Marcel for myself please)

7) Kay Stone (Psi)

Kay is my favourite LI in Psi. I love how he's such a great partner to Lou in the way he always supports her but leaves her to do the things she's capable of without getting in her way. And he adopts the baby 😭 (Dani is great and definitely more underrated but unfortunately she's so sidelined that her route doesn't really appeal to me)

8) Kamal (Kali: Flame of Samsara)

Look. I know. I KNOW. But I have a severe weakness for pretty brown eyes and the Rai family are blessed with incredible genes (Amrita babe I'm so sorry about your husbands terrible eyesight and also everything else about him. Don'tget me wrong, Radha is beautiful but Amrita is STUNNING)

9) Edmund (Shakespeares Code)

By far the superior Ed. He had no history with Ro, but right from the start he showed her so much understanding and compassion. I think he might be the only person in the story who has always accepted her for what and who she is

10) Kenedi & Nahome (Code Blue)

That solidified my love for Nurse Trinh.

I have an English middle name and I've had people ask me why I don't go by it. The LITERAL definition of my first name means “Love has made me wealthy”. I’m not predisposed to making my identity/background more convenient for you niggas 🤷🏾‍♀️. You’re gonna learn to pronounce my name TODAY

(Warning: spoilers)

This is so sad.

After finding her mother collapsed on the floor, Jules’ initial reaction is to take fault for it. She’s immediately the problem. She takes responsibility for her adult mother’s actions, emotional well being, and safety. She’s the parent. But with none of the rights and power.

An adult authority figure acts without anger or fear, so she’s nice. Basic human decency, particularly towards a child, is something she’s not used to, doesn’t expect. Angry and scared might be the default state of her home life. She probably doesn’t even recognize those feelings in herself anymore. It’s just how she’s always felt.

“Someone even brought me a warm blanket.” She’s not used to people thinking of her needs. She’s neglected, forgotten. She’s never truly been taken care of. Her needs never came first.

That “nice” feeling she felt with Dr. Duvall made such an impact on her that it inspired her to become a doctor. She became to others what she needed for herself as a child, but never got.

Poor Jules… “A burden.” The feeling narcissists nail into you for existing.

Ahhh… this feels familiar

Hah! Hahahaha… enough sleep each night… practices that connect me to myself… 😂 What is this? Oh, how many times have I filled out these surveys…

Idk if it’s just me… I feel like this is just the reality of being an adult these days. Or is it bc I grew up with toxic grandparents, parents, and my husband grew up with toxic grandparents, parents, and undiagnosed autism and we now have to not pass that cycle of abuse down to our own children?

Ah generational trauma. So. Much. Fun.

But seriously. I feel like millennials are now dealing with breaking all this generational trauma on top of the adult stuff. Raising kids, paying for an impossible cost of living, idiotic world leaders, the state of the world, etc., while constantly getting blamed and discredited for all the above.

But I honestly love Yim for writing this. It’s cathartic. Jules feels like a peer. I love that she’s an incredible, capable doctor saving lives in the ER. Meanwhile, she’s broken herself, trying to heal and figure herself out, find her own worth. It’s so real.