#ramsay hunt

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TW - pregnancy, death, gaslighting, possible rape, oral sex, violence, murder, ramsay bolton.

Chapter Eight: A Hunt

Married life with Ramsay was a pendulum, swinging back and forth from abusive to nurturing. He would still leave you for days at a time, right as you thought he had outgrown that treatment. He was still a mystery to you but it simply drew you in even more, curious to study and obey him. It had already been a few months of being Lady Bolton and you were learning the ways of your new life. You had servants who would do anything you said. You hadn't spoke to Reek since your wedding day, although you've seen him meekly scurrying around behind your husband quite frequently. You had missed your menstrual cycle and had checked with Maester Wolken who let you know that he was nearly certain you were in the early stages of pregnancy. You hadn't informed Ramsay quite yet.

Today, your body woke up before your mind. You were still half asleep when you heard heavy breathing and Ramsay spit, followed by wet noises. You blinked your eyes open to see him on top of you, and suddenly you felt pressure between your legs. You were lying on your back and you looked down to see Ramsay's cock nudging at your entrance, his eyes already staring into yours. You gently mewled as Ramsay's saliva-coated erection slid into you. His face was unshaven, a small beard growing on his strong jawline. He was clearly freshly awake, his eyes still had sleep lingering on them. He slowly allowed his cock to slide in and out of you, your mind still floating between reality and sleep. "Good morning." Ramsay whispered as he leaned forward to kiss your lips. You smiled into his kiss as he slid his hands down to your hips, slightly raising them so he could fit snuggly inside you.

"Good morning, my love." You groaned, shifting up on your elbows. You weren't showing the pregnancy yet, your body still thin. You watched your lower abdomen rise when Ramsay's cock was fully inside you, and fall again when he pulled out. He rest his hand on your stomach as he felt the movement you were just noticing, his erection pressing the inside of you. He pressed down on your stomach which prompted you to react without thinking. "Be careful!" You shrieked, shoving his hand off of your abdomen. Ramsay stared at you, offended at your sudden movement.

Ramsay's eyebrows raised and his head tilted as he waited for an explanation for your outburst. You knew it was time to tell him. "Sorry, its just...you wouldn't want to hurt your child." You rested your hand on your stomach and looked up at him, waiting for a reaction. His jaw slacked for a moment, his lips parted as he exhaled a small chuckle before grinning. "You're pregnant?" He asked, his cock still inside you. You nodded. "Maester Wolken confirmed it. I am not far along, but he said I am definitely pregnant." Ramsay leaned down to give you a passionate, love filled kiss.

"This calls for a celebration." He whispered into your mouth. "After I am finished with you this morning, I have a hunt I must go on, but we will go on it together. Nothing makes me happier than going on a hunt." He smiled as he continued to slowly fuck you, each gentle stroke inside you coaxing out a small whimper from your lips. He made love to you slowly until you both orgasmed from the gentle friction. This was the first time Ramsay had not been violent during sex with you and you didn't want to admit it, but you enjoyed the vicious sex more. Ramsay could tell, as your orgasm wasn't as strong as usual. He let out a hum as he realized, and snickered as he pulled his cock out of you. "My wife is such a naughty girl." He shook his head as he pulled his clothes on.

Ramsay walked towards your clothing stash and brought you a leather and hide dress. "Get dressed, we have a long day ahead of us, my love!" Ramsay barked as he tied his own leather vest on and secured his belts and the brown satchel that held his arrows. He brought a spare bow which you assumed was going to be yours. Once Ramsay was decorated in all of his hunting gear, he led you down to the stables where he helped you mount one of the largest and strongest horses. He had a pack of his obedient dogs behind him, eager to run. You were familiar with all the horses since you spent so much free time brushing them, so you gently greeted the horse with some nose pats. Ramsay mounted behind you, and directed the horse to take you both south, directly into the woods you had once attempted to flee into. The dogs followed with their excited snarling.

The further south you rode, the more greenery appeared. You still needed leather to stay warm, but the snow had melted and the trees were lush with leaves. It had been so long since you saw nature that was alive, it almost made you tear up. The ground was soaked from the melted snow, moss crawling up every surface. Ramsay tied up your horse and helped you dismount, your feet sinking into the wet earth with a subtle squish. The dogs were panting at Ramsay's feet, begging their master to put them to work. You took in deep breaths as you felt the earth breathing with you in the form of vines, bugs, and birds. Ramsay smiled as he watched you look around. "Sometimes I too forget there is a world that isn't covered in snow." He smiled, putting his fingers on your chin and pulling your face close so he could place a kiss on your cheek.

Ramsay pulled a small piece of fabric from his pocket and let the dogs sniff it. "Find him!" He commanded as the dogs split into different directions, noses to the ground and teeth bared. You realized you weren't hunting game, but a person. "My Lord, who are we trying to find?" You asked, grabbing the spare bow from Ramsay's back. He turned around and grinned at you. "Reek." You felt a pinch of sadness in your gut, knowing that you were about to hunt someone who you knew. "He decided he would try to stab one of my men...one of our men." Ramsay began. "He failed, of course! But, I can't keep my plaything around if he acts this way. He was released into these woods just moments before we arrived, he doesn't yet know we are here."

Ramsay laughed wickedly as he heard dogs sounding off in the distance. "I spoke too soon! Sounds like he might be figuring it out right now." Ramsay grabbed your hand and started to run, pulling you behind him. You weren't sure if running around the woods was the best option for a pregnant woman, but it didn't seem like you had much of a choice. You ran with Ramsay as he began shouting out for Reek. His free hand was cupped around his mouth as he yelled. "Reek! Oh, Reek! Where are you, bastard?" Your lungs filled with fresh air as you ran behind Ramsay, the green trees turning into smears in your vision. You felt free.

"If you make it out of the woods, you win!" Ramsay yelled with one hand still cupped next to his mouth and one gripping your hand tightly. "He won't." He quietly assured you, pulling you to run faster with him. The dogs were gathered near a stream, snarling like a pack of wild direwolves. "There you are!" Ramsay laughed manically, pointing down to Reek. "Good girls! Down girls, down!" He sang to the dogs. Reek was hiding near the stream, soaking and soggy. His hair was wet and matted to his face while his clothes hung off his malnourished body. "Please, M'Lord!" He shouted, the loudest you'd ever heard him speak.

You felt energy surge through you. You wanted to impress Ramsay. You wanted him to be proud of you, you wanted him to praise you. You reached into the pouch on Ramsay's back and pulled out a single arrow. You nocked it on your bow and drew it back, aiming it at Reek's leg. Reek panicked at the sight and tried to scurry away. You let loose, the arrow whizzing through the air before piercing the back of his thigh. Ramsay laughed loudly and turned to you. "Well done!" His eyes sparkled with delight at the sight of you lowering the bow to the ground, your focus staying on Reek. "Don't try to run!" You hollered.

Ramsay's eyes widened with lust as he watched you command the creature. "If you try to get up again, I'll put an arrow straight through your neck!" You exclaimed. Reek was shaking and sobbing, his hand grasping his leg desperately. Ramsay took a step closer to you and draped his arm over your shoulders. "Good girl. Let the hounds take it from here, they deserve a reward for finding him." You nodded, your eyes glued to Reek. The dogs were still surrounding him, patiently waiting for a command. Ramsay grinned as he watched you. Your nostrils were flaring with anger. Reek never did anything to you, but you did have built up anger with nowhere to go, and Reek seemed like a reasonable target.

"Rip him! Rip him!" Ramsay shouted and the dogs instantly pounced forward with their jaws open, taking large bites out of Reek's flesh. His screaming was loud and echoed throughout the otherwise peaceful forest. You didn't look away, not even for a moment. Ramsay's hand reached out to yours as you both stood there, watching the frail creature get devoured by the hounds. Crimson blood was staining the green shrubs and polluting the stream, causing it to run dark. Ramsay snickered as Reek's cries were killed. "A fine shot, love. I wasn't sure you had it in you!" Ramsay smiled, his hand finding your shoulder and gently rubbing it. You still hadn't broken your gaze from Reek's body, your jaw was clenched painfully tight, eyes filling with tears.

Ramsay tugged at your arm when he noticed your locked gaze, your eyes finally breaking away from Reek. Ramsay turned you, pulling you into his chest. You felt your breath shaking as it reflected off his leather onto your face. "There, there." He soothed you. "You did the right thing. It's not your fault he tried to hurt one of our men. He knew he would be punished. I am proud of you." His hand took yours and his thumb rubbed across your knuckles lovingly. He pulled your hand up to his lips and kissed the back, holding it to his cheek. "You did such a wonderful job."

You smiled, happy to make Ramsay proud. You leaned forward to kiss him, his tongue immediately finding yours. He dropped his bow to his side as he wrapped his arms around you, pulling you closer to him. You reached your hand down and felt his pants bulging with an erection. You chuckled. “My Lord, you..." Ramsay rolled his eyes. "Yes, yes. Violence arouses me, you know this, My Lady." He pulled you close again, squeezing your wrist so you dropped your bow as well. He unlaced his pants and pulled his hard cock out, standing up and eager to be touched.

You wrapped your hand around his shaft, leaning forward to make out with him while you touched him. His warm tongue slithered into your mouth, his hands on your shoulder-blades as he kept you close. Your hand worked at him, stroking his cock. You held your hand up and spit into it before bringing it back down, sliding over the head. Ramsay's eyebrows raised slightly at this, a small sigh escaping his lips. You stroked him until his knees were quivering. He pushed you off of him suddenly as he leaned over and picked up his bow. He quickly nocked an arrow from his pouch and drew it back, aiming it straight at your face.

You froze with fear, dropping to your knees. Ramsay kept the arrow drawn at you, inches away from your forehead. Your life was entirely in his hands. You were speechless as you suddenly were flooded with the familiar feeling in your gut. You knew it was a likely a game, but the death staring at you between your eyes in the form of an arrowhead was not something you were expecting. Ramsay pushed his hips forward, his teeth grinding together as he drew the arrow even tighter, his eyes sinking past your soul. You took his cock in your mouth and quickly began sucking him. He groaned, his grip on the arrow becoming slack as he closed his eyes. You focused on his pleasure, his orgasm was seemingly the only thing that would keep you alive at this moment.

Finally, your jaw was beginning to ache and he came hard, filling your mouth and groaning loudly. You swallowed and looked up at him, the drawn arrow now pulled tightly in his hand. You winced as he loosened, the arrow flying through the air next to your head as it buried itself in the dirt behind you. You exhaled sharply, realizing your life was safe for now. Ramsay smiled as he tucked his wet cock back into his trousers. "Well! That was unexpected, wasn't it?" He held his hand out to help you stand. You stood in front of your husband, still unsure of what to say. The only thing that squeaked out was, "What if you killed me?"

Ramsay shook his head as if you just said something shocking. "I wouldn't do that. Why, you're pregnant with my heir! I simply wanted to do something exciting. It was exciting, don't you agree?" You nodded as your eyes filled with tears once again. The all familiar pinch bubbled in your stomach for the second time as your husband reached out and hugged you. Fear. You hadn’t felt fear in a while but as Ramsay's grip tightened on you, the fear was snuffed out to nothing but smoke. You inhaled deeply, smelling his scent which was something you had come to long for. You heard the dogs finishing the last bits of Reek, licking their chops and growling over the last hunks of meat that remained. You allowed your eyes to flutter shut as you slipped into his grasp once again, falling in love with your abuser as you had done over and over, many times before.

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It's been almost 4 months since I was down with facial paralysis and I'm so thankful to say that I'm almost fully recovered. I guess I'm like 85% recovered?

I have almost full control over my mouth and lips, it's just that I still can't whistle proper though. My cheeks are almost back to normal now and I also can wink too (more like a wonky wink). The only part of my face that I still can't really move is my eyebrow but it's still work in progress.

The keyword to recovery for me is to stay positive and not let this hinder any part of your life. I know it's difficult because I started out being really depressed and affected by it. So far I've been keeping myself busy with school and work. My friends don't even notice it anymore and my relationship is still going strong. 

To anyone out there who is down with facial paralysis, my word of advice is to continue loving yourself and continue with life. If you do not move on, the illness wouldn't either.

I will post another update soon when I'm fully recovered (yes). 

Sit in front of a mirror while doing the following exercises. Use your hands and fingers to assist if necessary. Repeat each exercise 5 to 10 times, each exercise is to be done for 10secs.

*You can use a heat pack or something to warm up your face before starting the exercises.

1. Raise eyebrows and wrinkle forehead

Frown and draw eyebrows downward.

Close eyes tightly.

Wink with one eye and then the other, alternate

Open eyes widely.

2. Sniff strongly

Wrinkle nose.

Spread nostrils.

3. Curl upper lip up and raise and protrude upper lip.

Press lips together.

Pucker lips together and attempt to whistle.

Blow air into cheeks, keeping mouth closed.

Shift air from one cheek to the other.

Smile without showing teeth.

Smile showing teeth.

Draw angle of mouth upward so as to deepen furrow from side of nose to side of of mouth.

Harden (wrinkle) the chin by sticking it out.

4. Chew equal amount of gum on both sides 

5. Tilt head back and open mouth as wide as possible and close.

The reason why I created this blog is to share with anyone who is down with Ramsay Hunt Syndrome or anyone who is interested in this very rare disease. Like I said that it's a rare disease, it's not very well known and I hope that by sharing my experience, I'll be able to help someone in need.

I had been having a "on-off" like of cough and sore throat since the middle of December 2013. I assumed that it would be one of those regular coughs, so I just brushed it off thinking it would go away by drinking more water etc. Towards the end of the year, I started to get more sick especially after I went swimming the other night. I woke up in the middle of the night with my left ear blocked and hurting slightly. So I thought that I might be having a ear infection and maybe the holiday feasting had gotten to me as well.

On the 1st of January 2014, my ear infection took a turn for the worse and it started to hurt more. I also had headaches and fevers too. My sore throat affected my eating as my mouth was too dry and I found it painful and difficult to swallow.  Since it was New Years Day, I couldn't find a general practitioner till the next day. So on 2 Jan, my family doctor diagnosed me with ear infection, fever, cough and sore throat - the regular flu. After taking her medications, I still wasn't getting any better and had fevers the whole of that day and next.

On the 4th, I woke up feeling dizzy and could not keep my food down. I also noticed that the left side of my face was getting numb i.e. little signs of facial paralysis. My left tongue's taste buds were getting weak and I noticed that there were several painful small bumps growing around my ear. The hearing on my left ear was affected too, it felt as though the volume was at 50% as compared to my normal right ear. So I went to another general practitioner and he gave me a different set of viral infection medications and told me that my previous doctor did a misdiagnosis. He claimed that the ear infection caused the facial paralysis.

After 2 days, my fever. cough and sore throat went away and I found it easier to eat again. (no more nausea or dry mouth) But my ear infection and facial paralysis persisted. The small bumps around my ear were getting really painful to bear so I went to a ear specialist on the 8th of January.

It was only on the 8th, I found out that I had Ramsay Hunt Syndrome Type 2. The specialist told me that I was lucky because I came to him in time, any later might have caused permanent damages to my health. So he prescribed me with anti-viral medications and steroids (which are the correct medicines to tackle RHS). The specialist told me that I have 70% of full recover in 1 months time and I was to return 2 weeks later for a follow up. So I finally heaved a sigh of relief...

By then, my facial paralysis was affecting me a lot

1. I could not close my eye fully and blink normally which resulted in teary eye.

2. The left side of my mouth was very weak and it drooped which affected my speech and I sounded like I had a lisp. I could not drink and chew without things spilling out from the corners of my mouth.

3. And of course, I can't smile, laugh, frown properly.

Anyways, after 1 weeks of medication, my ear infection was almost gone and my hearing started to come back. The bumps which I found out were shingles, started to dry up and peel off. The left side of my face started to get better as I could wiggle the inner corners of my eyebrow.

After 2 weeks (22nd Jan), I had my follow-up and my hearing was fully recovered. My face didn't recover fully but my lips got stronger and I could talk without a lisp (although I had problems pronouncing certain words) and I could eat and drink without spilling or spitting by accident. The ear specialist told me that the next two weeks would be the "crunch time" that decides if my facial nerves would recover at all. He told me that I could try facial massages etc. I was devastated when I heard that because I am only 20 years old and I don't deem myself to be very good looking with high self-esteem. I started panicking.

Right from the start, the facial paralysis affected me a lot and I avoided going out (I was back home for winter holidays). My friends told me that I looked fine and that I looked better than before, telling me that my facial paralysis is getting better. Hence, after spending so much time feeling like shit and cooped up with my room, I decided to stay on a positive outlook and that I am going to get better. (Since I believe in the Laws of Attraction)

I started to read up online and found out about Bell's Palsy, a condition that is similar but more common as compared to RHS. I found out that people try acupuncture, craniosacral massage, exercises etc to improve the recovery process for facial paralysis. And of course, the downside of researching medical things online would lead to scary articles that scare the shit out of you. I learnt to ignore and not to take them seriously eventually.

I started to learn more about RHS from my cousin in med school, studying to be a physiologist. He told me that it is similar to the chicken pox disease and that the infection of my facial nerves (type 7 I think) caused the paralysis. Since I've fully recovered from my ear infection, my nerve infection should be going down or gone, so he told me that it's safe to start on an exercise routine to stimulate the facial nerves (sending signals out for more nerves to come in and eventually recover from the paralysis). I will put up a separate post for the facial exercises. 

After 1 week of physiotherapy, I started to feel different parts of my face again. I don't really know how to explain the feeling but the closest thing would be sensations and tensions. Every now and then I would feel it throughout the day, especially after I do the facial exercises. Two days ago, I started to see a different in my eye as I am now able to shut the outer corners of my eye. And today, my eye is able to close almost fully (there's like a 1mm gap).

Despite all of the good signs and me being positive, there were moments or one of those days when I just can't help but worry about the uncertainty. I found out from this friend of mine who had Bell's Palsy when he was 3 years old (I think he is 19 this year) and he had electro-shock therapy on his face. He told me that I should consult a neurologist if I want to seek further medical help.

Today is the 10th of February, a month after I found out that I had RHS, I went to see a neurologist. He told me that RHS is a viral infection that directly attacks the nerves (type 7, 8, 9, 10). If I went to him straight instead of the ear specialist, he would have given me a jab, put me on IV drip and I would recover in a week's time. WTF. I know right. But what's done is done so... He made me do a few things such as walking in a straight line, blindfolded, backwards etc. And it turned out that only 2 types of my nerves (type 7 and 8) were affected and I have 80%++ to recover from facial paralysis by April. I am very lucky. 

He told me that I should continue with physiotherapy on my face and to take vitamins (Methycobal and Super Bio Quinone) for my nerves. I am scheduled for a follow-up next Monday as he would use a certain computer equipment to check on the progress of my facial nerves.

I am positive that I am going to recover fully now and can finally sleep in peace now :")

I know that this is something that's difficult to cope with and it definitely affected me a lot. I've never been the type of person who would take health very seriously. I know health is important but I wouldn't make an extra effort to eat or live healthy. Something I read a while back really struck me "Just because you're not sick does not mean that you're healthy".

Looking in the mirror everyday and having to deal with a wonky eye is not cool at all especially when you're already having problems with drawing even eyeliner on both eyes lol.

So yeah, I hope my account has been helpful to anyone out there. If you have facial paralysis from RHS or Bell's Palsy, do not lose hope and go see a neurologist asap (especially for RHS). Don't try to do anything that might accidentally damage or over-stimulate your facial nerves. Seeing a neurologist would let you know the status of your facial nerves and that is extremely important before you want to try something like acupuncture.

I do not claim to be a medical expert on this, merely sharing my experience so do not hold me responsible for anything lol.