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Zanka’s wife would be pissed the baby’s first word wasn’t mama or papa, but Zanka would think it’s low key funny.

(I literally thought about this 2 days ago)

i was supposed to write a fic about this but it never came to be/wasn't completed LOL but anyway! here's the fic this ask is referring to!

yes! i can imagine (also bc i saw somewhere that aibo is apparently a slang for dick in japanese 😭 kashaudiajsdaj imagine my laughter when i found out about that .)

also... imagine zanka tells their baby stories about/revolving around lovely assistaff before bed to make them sleep, so over time, the baby picks the word up and 'aibo' becomes their first word !

wifey would be #pissed but just half or at least, jokingly. would probably find it funny as well because what the fuck LMAO that child is truly their father's child .

supposedly a 1-day visit but it feels like more than one because of how many things that happened 😂

1. zanka RLLY wants to help the titas in the kitchen but they just gave him a pamaypay and told him to fan the charcoals outside (and he did like a good boy 😂 HAHAHAHA)

2. THE TITAS AND THE LOLAS KEEP FEEDING HIM but the boy doesnt have the guts to decline so u have to step in multiple times 😭😭

3. zanka was curious about a grp of kids holding matchboxes and the kids sense his curiosity so one of them went up to him. he asked whats inside so the kid wordlessly took his hand, open the matchbox on his palm AND OUT CAME A LONG LEGGED FAT ASS SPIDER. he wanted to scream 😭😭 but he wanted to look cool but fails so he melted on his monoblock chair

4. he ate a balut while internally crying 💀. he knows he could've said no, knows its ok to say no but he SRSLY wanted to look cool in front of u (u gave him a taho wash away his palate. thankfully he likes the taho)

5. plays chinese garter with u and gets lowkey competitive with the neighborhood kids. too bad for him, u are the local un-kabog-able chinese garter queen

6. "TITO HOYY WAG MO BIGYAN YAN NG RED HORSE!" 😭✋️

7. genuinely thought "bakla" is an endearment (zanka why 😭) cause many of ur friends there call u that. so when he called u that, u are just: 🗿

it was chaotic, yes. but would he come back? for you definitely 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

ANON YANG UTAK MO ANG GALING

dagdag ko na rin, since karaoke is a serious thing when it comes to family gatherings—zanka def would participate and aim for a perfect score. but we all know some videoke machines just dont give 100 at all HAHAHAHAHA

SURELY, he'd be tired as fuck after that day 😭 filipino family reunions are not for the weak. social energy = DRAINED. GONE.

Ts REALLY specific but can I get a one-shot or headcanons on g!n reader who was part of the Hell Gaurd thing with Zanka. But the headcanons or one-shot is about how they both meet again as cleaners 🥺🥺🥺🥺

hi luv! i once wrote something like this but it's leaning more on being rivals with zanka ( here ) so i just decided to make a one-shot (and not too much on the rivalry) lol!

him and his stupidly cute smile

Zanka scares me as a partner for the simple factor that someone overwhelmed by insecurities and an inferiority complex that obstruct them from moving forward as a person will put you through the ringer of never being enough until they themself do the inner work on where this obsession comes from. But-

I present to you Steady by Bella Kay. Youre welcome! (Omg, am I your first anon hate? ITS not really hate, its more like that one acquaintance you do not want to talk to because you always feel down afterward, but close enough 🥹)

great insight, nephew! the song, yes, why, it applies to me as well and i can definitely see zanka relating to it

i agree with what you said—because i myself am like that. i think i’ve stated this multiple times before, but i really love zanka and his character because i see myself in him in personality, mentality, and values. and in terms of (romantic) love, i actually never thought of it as a cute, silly thing because i never had any good examples in my life to portray a comfortable, healthy romantic relationship. and thus, i never saw myself with a partner in the future.

as someone who rarely ever knew love, or how to love, writing zanka became a way for me to understand how that kind of thing works. and, along the way, it is becoming a way to convince myself that someone like me can also be loved—and learn how to love. that maybe i am also deserving of such a thing

if i could never learn how to love zanka, how will i ever accept myself for who i am? how can i work on these shortcomings that i have, improve what needs to be? understanding his character is a way for me to see what’s also inside my heart. that maybe i can soften the hardness of my heart, even amidst the cruelty that surrounds me

in a way, with the fics i write for zanka, i am mending the wounds in my heart, and the way i always talk about how zanka deserves all the love in the world is a way to tell myself that someone like me is also deserving of love

i understand that having zanka as a partner is a scary thought! being extremely self-aware of my inferiority complex led me to believe that i never deserve to love or be loved, because i’ll hurt myself and my other half in the process. i also once believed that maybe if i experience love, i’ll be able to change into someone better. however, as i grew older, i realized that no one will change me but me.

i think zanka would be ready to love once he’s come in terms with his insecurities. but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t deserve to be love in the state he’s in right now! his situation gives us more than enough reasons to love him—but it will be up to him if he accepts that goodness, or reject it and continue to be stuck in the abyss of his fears.

because if he waits until he’s perfect, when will that time come? with love, he can grow as a person, and learn things he had never encountered before

i think the reason why in most of my fics, zanka appears to be gentle, probably because that’s how i want to be—and also because i believe he has that certain softness within that strong facade of him. i believe he can love if he ever allows himself to do so. and it definitely hurts wanting to love and be loved when you feel like you can’t.

and to close this, to love is to understand—not just your partner, but yourself (so always be good to everyone and yourself !!)

TAMA! yung akala ng lahat nonchalant cool smart overachiever boy si zanka pero ang totoo over pa sa oa ang inside thoughts ng batang yan

yung tipong lagi mo makikita sa lib na nag-aaral talaga, unlike dun sa mga natutulog lang. ta’s pag nakikita mo sa hallways, susulyapan mo talaga kasi makikita mo lang talaga siya sa free time kung di mo kaklase. dami pa nag-aasaran pag dumadaan ang nag-iisang zanka nijiku kasi boiiii ang pogi, ang bango, ang linis, grabe lahat na

president pa yan ng isang org, ta’s magkakain-love-an sila ng vp or secre niya #likedat dahil madalas sila mag away pero ship talaga sila ng lahat gets ba ako .