#ragnvindr reader

“I was aware of the predicament you were in Kae.” the youngest Ragnvindr told Kaeya as he stared at them shocked not expecting that answer since he knew no...he thought he had hidden it well but was proved otherwise. Not only that but you seem to have reacted differently from how Diluc did. Kaeya continued going who knows where after he recovered from his initial shock.

 ”Do what you want with that information I couldn't care less about what happens next.” he needed to get himself patched up and some time alone after what had happened with Diluc. 

You on the other hand continued to find your eldest brother to have a chat with him. What he did was horrible. Even if Kaeya’s timing to reveal himself as a spy was off he had no right to even lay a hand on him let alone use his vision to try and kill him. He wasn't the only person who lost their father that day. He was your father too. As you were walking you found Diluc leaning against the tree.

“Luc, why would you harm Kae like that? What would father say when he sees his kids fighting-”

 “He is a traitor that's what he is. Father shouldn't have taken him in. He doesn't deserve to bear the name Ragnvindr to begin with.” Diluc interrupted you as he turned to leave.

“He didn't have a choice now did he! He was nothing but a kid, you wouldn’t know how it would've felt to have to bear such a burden!” you screamed at him which made him stop all movements.

 “I would always hear him cry when he thinks no one is around. Scared of what he is to do-” You were suddenly on the muddy ground with the tip of his weapon against your neck.

“You too do not deserve to bear the name Ragnvindr. You had chosen his side over mine. I wouldn’t be surprised if you had done something just as bad.”

You’re terrified and you want your brothers back even though your brother was there he wasn't the Diluc you knew. No, it was someone with the intention to kill and you are his next target. 

You swiftly dodged the attack sent by him daring not to attack one of your only living family members who deems you an outcast. The flames that he sent were endless you had narrowly dodged. You managed to kick his weapon out of his grasp but you had let your guard down making Diluc grab you by the collar of your shirt. He threw you into a tree making the air leave your lungs. You got back up and jumped to the side as he threw the claymore at the tree where you once were a few seconds ago.

You were getting exhausted and weak from the amount of injuries you endured, everything around you was starting to spin. The only thing that caught your attention was a bright red light heading straight for you.

Here you are lying down in the mud as the rain falls on you. Everything hurts and it feels as if every fiber in your body is set on fire then again you’re eldest brother Diluc had a pyro vision. A set of footsteps could be heard not far from where you lay. 

“Poor little Ragnvindr, all alone in a cruel world with nowhere to go.” said the oh-so-familiar voice. 

A voice that you know too well. The voice of Il Dottore, 2nd of the Fatui Harbinger. You heard of the many things he has done so in the past all being gruesome in many ways it wouldn't be a surprise if he had something to do with your father Master Crepus's death. 

As he came closer you started panicking and with the little strength left you lunged at him to try and injure him anything to get him away from you. You wanted to live to see another day. Just to see your friends, your family. You wanted to get out alive you needed to. 

But what was there to live for when everything you cared for was gone? No home to go back to and no one else to care for you. Your friends just stayed with you because you’re a Ragnvindr now with that stripped away from you they would want nothing to do with you.

All Dottore had to do was to move to the side to evade your worthless attempt of an attack. How pathetic of you to show weakness just like that. Was all that training just for show? 

You fell face-first into the ground. You wanted to cry, scream, anything. You felt as if you were going to explode with all the thoughts swarming in your mind.

“I’m not a Ragnvindr...not anymore,” you muttered making no attempts to get up. You were too exhausted to fight him so why not make it easier and just go to sleep, you’re tired, aren't you? 

Day 3. Today marks the third day of your escape. Your escape from the shackles of the warm abode you once called 'home'. Dawn winery, the house you lived in with your family, your caring father, and your two much older brothers, who both adored you more than anything else. That house is the chamber of your childhood memories, holding the most sacred and secular reminisces of the joyful past with your dear spouses.

Now that place was no longer home, it didn't feel like home anymore, only a lavish prison where all you did was cry in your lonesome bed. There was no loving father there to console you anymore. Oh, how you wished he'd suddenly appear out of thin air and offer solace. Pull you into his chest and hug you tightly while his gentle hand combed through your hair. Hushing you and whispering words of reassurance in your ear, not letting you out of his embrace until you've finally calmed down. Like he always did, like he always used to do.

It wasn't only your father who had disappeared. But your brothers as well. As you wept and wailed in his bed after witnessing his death, Diluc and Kaeya were out in the rain, surrounded by the gloomy forest and a suffocating atmosphere. The menacing glares they exchanged radiated a call for battle, urging them to draw their blades and end this fateful night with a signature occasion of despair and sheer regret.

It was only Diluc who returned back home that night. You hadn't the slightest clue where Kaeya went, however, you knew he was gone, you knew he had left, and you knew that you weren't going to see him for a good, long while.

Then it was Diluc's turn to walk out the door, to seemingly vanish from your home. From your life. You didn't even get the chance to exchange a brief glance with each other, and he had already bid his farewells to Mondstate. Leaving you. Alone.

You had practically lost your whole family that dreading night, a night where you all were supposed to be celebrating Diluc's coming of age together.

Elzer, Adeline, and the staff were much too busy taking care of the work Crepus had left behind and had little to no time to comfort you. Though, they did feel immense pity for you, having your life fall to shambles at such a young age... They couldn't even hope to imagine how you felt. So they tried to shower you with gifts instead, but it did nothing, all the gifts were left untouched at the foot of your bed, long forgotten.

You had spent most of your time in your father's room, sleeping on his bed and sobbing into his pillows, trying to convince yourself that he wasn't dead, that it was all but a long night terror. Alas, no matter how hard you tried to fool yourself, the fact still stood that he was gone.

You wanted to leave your house, it felt suffocating, it reminded you of the old days, when everything was fine. When you all lived happily together. It felt agonizing. But you weren't allowed to, Adeline had made it painfully clear. She was scared you might get hurt all on your own, and there was no one to accompany you. You tried to stifle your desire to leave by walking around the city of Mondstate, but it only made the ache in your heart worsen, with the way everyone glanced at you with sorrow flashing in their gaze, murmuring and Whispering words of pity amongst themselves. What made you shutter, however, was Kaeya's obvious and desperate attempts to avoid you. You really had lost everything.

That was the day you decided to put an end to your drowning. The day you decided to run away.

Now you sat down on the moist grass, your back against a sturdy tree as you examined the forest beyond the cliff. Capturing virtual images of every detail you eyed. The pigeon huddled with its children on a branch. How one of the branches on a tree was twisted unusually, resembling a heart. A group of three knights with oil lamps clutched in their probably cold hands, using the illuminating light as a guide to look for something someone.

You leaned your head back against the tree and smiled to yourself, relishing in the soft breeze brushing against your face. Those three tranquil days you spent venturing around the layouts of your home region, running around freely, and sleeping under the watchful gaze of the moon, were the best three days you've ever experienced in your life.

You couldn't feel the invisible hands squeezing your throat anymore. You felt like you could breathe again. You finally felt free.

"Excuse me?" A bright light shined from behind you, inching closer, in sync with the loud footsteps. You knew who it was, and you didn't mind. It was time for you to return anyway, you'll get another chance like this soon, you were certain.

"Yes?" You murmured, peering up at the tall Knight who now stood beside you, raising his lamp high, hence to get a clear look at your features.

"Are you (Y/n) Ragnvindr, by any chance?" He asked. After a few moments of wordless staring, you spoke, tearing your eyes away from the Knight's curious stare to look across the luscious green field one last time.

"Yes."

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It was quiet. Eerily quiet. You're not sure what you had expected from the residence of the knights of Favonius, but you hadn't thought it would be so void of sound, especially these troublesome days where monsters were at every corner of the land.

You let out a soft exhale as you waited for something to happen. The same tall knight that found you earlier was now sitting before you, glancing at you from time to time.

"Um... when do I get to leave?" You muttered, wrapping the blanket tighter around you.

"A carriage is coming to escort you back home, soon." He replied, sending you a curt nod. You hesitantly nodded back, peering over at the office's window. 

You both snapped your head in the direction of the door when you heard the sound of the main doors slam open, followed by frantic footsteps approaching master Jean's office, the one you currently sat in. The knight stood up with his hand clutching the heft of his sword.

The door slammed open, revealing a panic-looked Kaeya, panting heavily with lines of sweat tainting his face. Once he locked eyes with you, he leaped forward and wrapped his arms around you, securing you in a captivating hug. Your eyes dilated as he squeezed you tight.

"Oh my god. You're ok. You're ok. Thank Barbatos you're ok." He whispered, cradling your head with one of his hands. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

Your arms slowly raised to reciprocate the gesture, your eyes now brimming with tears.

"I'm sorry I worried you." Your voice wavered.

Klee brags a lot about her big brother Albedo, naturally you started looking up to him too! I mean, what kid wouldn't be starry-eyed over all the cool alchemy things he does? He draws really, really well too!

This is what you ramble to Diluc and Kaeya in the tavern when they asked you how your day with Klee and Albedo went. With Diluc over the bar and Kaeya sipping his wine, keeping a close eye over the high stool you're sitting on that wobbled with your enthusiasm.

They nod along in amusement, they're glad you're having fun and they're a little guilty for being busy.

Until you mutter, "Klee's big brother is so cool. . ." with a light blush and a far away look in your eyes and then they're freezing up.

It would've been fine if you had another brother figure in your life, but that look on your face? No no no, you're still their little sibling, you're practically a baby! (That's an exaggeration but it's a firm answer for them).