#rae rambles

Anyways I like whenever his head is used to play videos.

some of it is mental health but its mostly just getting me to stop procastinating

20 notes; I'll try to eat better

50 notes; I'll write another chapter of my fanfic (that I don't think I've ever actually posted about here lmao)

100 notes; I'll clean my room

200 notes; I'll try to post my art more often

500 notes; I'll tell my therapist about how my mental health is getting worse

600 notes; I'll start actually correcting my friends about my gender

her lips are right by your ear, whispering, “such a good girl, always being so good for mommy. i can hear how wet my tiny girl’s pussy is. good job, baby. you’re making mommy so excited with your sweet little noises. so cute… i love playing with my sweet girl’s body.”

she ducks her head down and sucks at your nipple gently, a pleased groan against your breast as you arch your back and push your chest into her mouth. your stiffening nipple makes you feel all the more sensitive, and mommy keeps rubbing her flat tongue against your bud

your fingers move rapidly and your hips buck upwards in erratic twitches. your fingers slip against your clit with how wet you’re getting, causing you to press more harshly against yourself and letting your mommy hear how much noisier your sticky little pussy is becoming

your vampire lover so desperate to taste you - in any way - on their knees, looking up at you with big, pleading eyes and fangs dug into their own bottom lip. “please,” they beg as you spread your legs, and fall silent only when you finally drag them to your core by their hair

your vampire lover, who spent so long without a human companion that they find themselves clinging to you and your warmth whenever possible, visibly needy and displeased by any amount of clothing between you. eternity is so cold without you. why would you deny them this? could you even bring yourself to consider denying them this?

your vampire lover who finally feels like you guys are in a place where they want to try feeding from you, who didn’t realize how overwhelming it would be to have you like this. they have you in their lap, their teeth in your throat, and they knew that they would be most sensitive as they feed but they didn’t know by how much. you get to grind down on their lap while they lose themselves in you, whining when they cum as they finally pull their teeth away.

Or, A Compilation of Resources for If You, Personally, Enjoy Giving Your Historical Smut Unnecessary Numbers of Footnotes

[the books I personally found most useful are marked with * - this does not mean I'm asserting they are the Best because I am an AMATEUR okay]

Sodomy in Medieval Europe

[*]Boswell, Christianity, Social Tolerance, and Homosexuality: Gay People in Western Europe from the Beginning of the Christian Era to the Fourteenth Century [this was the Original work on medieval gays in many ways -- lots of the works below are responding to, updating and evaluating this in the light of further research, so it is very useful to have read but isn't the most up-to-date assessment.]

Brundage, Law, Sex, and Medieval Society

*Cadden, Nothing Natural is Shameful: Sodomy and Science in Late Medieval Europe

Greenberg, Wrestling with God and Men: Homosexuality and the Jewish Tradition [this turned out to be primarily a personal philosophical exploration of reconciling Judaism with queer sexuality, but does have some excellent medieval sources of queer Hebrew poetry for any Jamuel scholars out there.]

Goodich, The Unmentionable Vice: Homosexuality in the Later Medieval Period

*Karras, Doing Unto Others: Sexuality in Medieval Europe

Klosowska (ed), Queer Love in the Middle Ages

*Kuefler (ed), The Boswell Thesis: Essays on Christianity, Social Tolerance, and Homosexuality

*Malcolm, Forbidden Desire in Early Modern Europe

Mills, Seeing Sodomy in the Middle Ages

Rogers & Roman (eds), Medieval Futurity: Essays for the Future of a Queer Medieval Studies

Samuelson, Courtly & Queer: Deconstruction, Desire and Medieval French Lit

Schultz, Courtly Love, the Love of Courtliness, and the History of Sexuality

*Zeikowitz, Homoeroticism and Chivalry: Discourse of Male Same-sex Desire in the 14th Century

Chivalry and Knightly Culture

Capellanus (transl. Parry), The Art of Courtly Love [primary source]

*Charny (transl. Kaeuper & Kennedy), The Book of Chivalry of Geoffroi de Charny: Text, Context, and Translation [primary source: descriptions of knighting ceremony, courtly love, knightly training, etc.]

Crouch, The Chivalric Turn

Gest, Chivalry

Harper-Bill & Ruth Harvey (eds), Ideals and Practices of Medieval Knighthood (Papers from the Strawberry Hill Conferences) (Vols 1 & 4)

*Karras, From Boys to Men: Formations of Masculinity in Late Medieval Europe

Kaeuper, Chivalry and Violence in Medieval Europe

Keen (ed), Heraldry, Pageantry & Social Display

Keen, Nobles, Knights, and Men-at-Arms in the Middle Ages

*Prestwich, Knight: The Medieval Warrior's (Unofficial) Manual [popular-style book, but has GREAT advice about HOW to actually joust for when you want to make Hans/Henry sound like they know what they're doing]

Other Aspects of Medieval Life and Religion

d'Avray, Medieval Marriage

Salih, 'Unpleasures of the Flesh: Medieval Marriage, Masochism, and the History of Heterosexuality' (Studies in the Age of Chaucer, vol.33, 2011)

Simon, The Sex of Men in Premodern Europe