#qco

Talking to my therapist about how I used to feel really guilty about the fact that I lived and she didn’t. She asked me how I got through that. I had to admit that oh I didn’t and that it will hit me at random times.

Last week I was irritated at my therapist (for doing her job) and gave her an attitude while telling her I don’t even have any trauma… I literally have ptsd

Someone tell my therapist that I don’t actually need to talk to my doctor about meds because I haven’t actually quit my job to make art and get railed

Can someone explain how my therapist let me go three weeks without therapy and now she’s trying to fit me in for when she’s going to have to miss one of our future sessions? Did I worry her that much today? I didn’t even tell her the whole truth

Plz nobody tell my therapist that she agreed to give me three weeks off from my therapy and that I am now drinking more than I’ve drank in two years and stopped taking my meds and am in a lovely episode because please

Therapy was….interesting…today. I go in and immediately like hey I have not been doing okay for the last few days. Told her I stopped taking my meds and only started again because I had to see her today and wanted to pretend I made progress. Then I found out it was a re screening day. Then I said something that made her realize I have been having (hypo)manic symptoms much longer than she knew about. I told her about questionable decisions I made in high school. Then she asked if there were any ramifications to my actions and was surprised when I said no. So that was a little awkward. Then we did a PTSD screening. And she actually said PTSD. I have been enjoying being able to tell people that I was ✨diagnosed traumatized✨ because it is less scary and she only actually said PTSD one other time and I laughed when she said it so yeah….I pretended it wasn’t true. I insisted I was cured no less than 30 times today. Apparently I’m not?? But we have conflicting vacations and work schedules so she’s letting me have three weeks off so idk I think I probably am cured.

My favorite part of therapy today was me actually being honest about a thing and then my therapist being like “well I had a plan for today but now I think it might be harmful”