#pseudoharmful

holding onto their hand as i make a small cut , squeezing firmly when i feel them tense up . helping them through a few more tiny cuts , nothing deep , just enough to draw blood for me to lick away afterwards . i would lay them down , allowing them to close their eyes and rest as i lick at the blood on their thighs , sucking on the cuts . all they would have to focus on would be the feeling of my tongue , and the slight burn from the wounds as i made contact .

- he / him . bodily adult ( 19 - 20 ) . blog is intended for a mature audience

- i’m genderless , but i’m male and my gender expression is masculine . i’m bisexual and a 100% dom - top

- this blog includes paraphilia ( anti - contact ) , obsessive love ( ldmt ) , and conabuse / pseudoharm

- when i post para nsft stuff it will be tagged , so you can avoid it if you just want my yan stuff , and vice versa

- if you wanna follow but need anything else tagged please contact me . i try to make this a comfortable place for all of my followers

- i’ve had both platonic and romantic darlings . i’m capable of ( and do ) experience romantic attraction for multiple people . me experiencing romantic attraction doesn’t mean it will be yandere by default , though . i’m not a traditional yandere , i know , but i’m not just an attention seeker either ; my posts and feelings are real

- i’m aromantic - spectrum and not really looking for more partners , but you’re welcome to pursue if you’re comfy with building a connection first . you’re also welcome to pursue me as a friend

- i’m also not looking for sexting , picture exchanges , or erotic roleplay . however , you’re welcome to send nasty asks if you’d like , i love them

- seriously feel free to say basically whatever in asks . be parasocial , share fantasies , tell me how i make you feel . i’ll be parasocial and weird back . or just ask simple questions if you want to know me as a person . please claim an emoji if you want to , i always show lots of attention to my regulars

- enjoys sadism , cnc , worship , stalking , kidnapping , cutting , threatening , hunting , degrading , humiliating , corrupting , conditioning , marking , branding , torturing , using , abusing , and overall controlling ( with enthusiastic consent )

- there is no dni here ; like , repost , and follow if you so wish . i’m generally anti - harassment and assume good faith . i judge people by their actions or the actions they support and not their thoughts , urges , desires , self - identities etc .

- anons : 🪷 , 🐾 , 🍎 , 🌼 , 🌿 , 🦊 , 🌙 , 🐹 , 🌂 , 🕸️ , 🪽, ✉️ , 🐦 , 🖤 , 🩹 , 💤 , 🌀 , 🥟 , 💉 , 🩻 , 🐇

what would be your favourite way to break someone’s sanity? (preferably mine!) and how would you want someone to break yours?

-🐇

hm , that’s an interesting question . for me , it really depends on the type of person someone is ; i like to take advantage of these weaknesses at crucial times to make it more personal .

though , in general , i love humiliating someone until they can’t think . i also love working my way into the life of someone who hates people like me . i like turning someone who thinks they have any control into a loyal devotee .

Anyway, I guess I can (and do apparently ) understand why people enjoy it in theory.

But in practice, I can’t understand. What is it that a victim would, and more-so what do you enjoy about it,, conabuse,, if I can ask that?

is it something that takes up a large portion of your life, do you have a normal relationship with said victim outside of that, is there aftercare,,

Are these stupid questions? You gave me permission to be curious so I cant help myself.

I’m trying my best to restraint my automatic response of disgust in order to be respectful, please appreciate that, I’m going to anxiously refresh your page now..

- 🌙

these aren’t stupid questions ; they’re good ones , but most of them don’t have a direct answer . there’s no right way to have a conabuse relationship ; the specifics are determined by the participants involved . however , i’m willing to share my personal preferences and experiences with discovering i had an interest in conabuse .

i never really discovered that label until recently , but i’ve always known my sadism isn’t strictly a sexual thing . my sadism has always felt more prominent in my life , something that affected more of my relationships than just the sexual ones . i’ve been this way as long as i can remember ; some of my earliest memories are of my . . intense sadistic obsessions . my sadism is a constant , even when i’m sex - repulsed , and is very important to my identity .

honestly i’m probably not the best person to ask , as i’ve never particularly “ looked “ for anyone with that purpose . i have found people naturally online who i decided i was interested in pursuing , but it’s rare for me ; normally i build a connection with someone first and the urge comes naturally .

i’ll try to help though . i would make a blog themed around conabuse if you haven’t already and post your own thoughts there , even if it’s mostly reblogs . from there , it really depends on the frequency and intensity you’re looking for . if you just want something lighter , a lot of people are willing to toy with their anons . but if you want a full time conabuse relationship , you may have a bit more trouble .

But I can't deny that I find the ideas your posts bring to mind is appealing. To be entirely reliant on someone who has full control over me, to be harmed over and over, I find it... oddly comforting in a way too.

You give me a lot to think about -🌿

i always have the urge to tease the hell out of those who are disgusted by me yet still find some sort of sick pleasure in my content , but this is incredibly genuine , so i will hold back for just a bit. i’ll get you next ask , 🌿 anon . . <3

let me offer another perspective ; taking time to understand these abnormal sides of humanity instead of instantly hating them will give you a stronger sense of morality . a person acting on their first instinct of repulsion will never be as morally correct as a person who is acting on logic , even if they both come to the same conclusion . the first person will often end up being morally inconsistent , as they’ll be morally against the things they’re repulsed by and morally accepting of the things that don’t personally bother them , even if both things are on the same level of harmless or harmful .