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Summary: Backstage, you were just the agencyâs trusted makeup artist... until the calls got urgent, the secrets got heavier, and Steve and Bucky realized you werenât only hiding stress⊠you were hiding a whole identity. When the truth finally comes out, they have to decide whatâs real: your name, your power, or the feelings youâve been trying so hard to protect.
Wordcount: 20k
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female Reader x Steve Rogers
Warnings:Â MDNI, hidden identity, secret relationship, friends to lovers, mutual pining, polyamory, triad, hurt/comfort, angst with a happy ending, confession, protective steve, protective bucky, comfort, emotional intimacy, fingering (f receiving), oral (m receiving), protected p in v, praise and degradation, panic/anxiety symptoms, fear of being used for money/status, family pressure / succession / corporate control, injury mention (minor fall / sprained ankle), workplace stress, invasion of privacy (calls/pressure)
Elixir's Arcade Event: Pair with secret billionaire + model AU
A/N: This is my last entry for the event, and trust me when I say this was the one where the plot was the hardest to find until my brain finally came with an idea. This was beta read by Cassie, a big thank you to you my dear as always.
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Backstage always felt like its own country â stitched together from clipped voices, hanging fabric, and the soft, constant hiss of steamers. The air was warm from the lights and heavy with the scent of hairspray and powder, sweet florals from perfume samples, and the faint bite of coffee that somebody had set down and forgotten. There were mirrors everywhere, each one framed in bulbs that turned skin into something almost cinematic. People moved fast but quietly, like the whole place had learned to breathe around the fact that the camera could start rolling at any second.
Youâd been here long enough that the chaos didnât pull at you anymore.
You stood at your station with a belt of brushes around your waist and your kit open like a surgeonâs tray â clean, orderly, exactly where your hands expected everything to be. Someone from wardrobe hurried past with a garment bag, murmuring a quick âSorry â excuse me,â and you shifted half a step without even looking up, still focused on the palette under your fingers.
âFive minutes,â a production assistant called, somewhere behind you.
You didnât flinch. Five minutes could be an eternity or a heartbeat in your world. Youâd learned how to stretch it.
Bucky was already in your chair, legs stretched out like he owned the place, elbows braced on the armrests. He looked unfairly good even before youâd done anything â bone structure that makeup artists would sell their souls for, lashes that didnât make sense, that stubborn line of his mouth that photographers loved because it always looked like he was about to say something he wasnât supposed to.
He was watching you with that particular, lazy focus he had when he wasnât pretending not to pay attention.
âYouâre doing that face,â he said.
You glanced up, one brow lifting. âWhat face?â
âThe one where youâre about to commit a crime with a blending brush.â
âThatâs not a crime.â
âIt is if you turn me into a dewy woodland creature again.â He tipped his chin as if that was evidence enough. âThe magazine called it âethereal.â Iâm still recovering.â
You huffed a laugh and reached for a sponge. âIt was one editorial. And you liked it.â
Buckyâs mouth quirked. âI liked that you liked it.â
That â soft, almost accidental â landed somewhere warm in your chest. You masked it by leaning closer, tapping concealer beneath his eye with practiced precision. Up close, you could see the faint freckles on his cheekbones that the camera never quite caught unless the lighting was cruel. You could also see the small scar near his brow that he pretended wasnât there, as if ignoring it would make it disappear.
Your fingertips were gentle, but not apologetic. Youâd never treated him like he was breakable. He trusted you for it.
âYouâre early,â you said, because routine mattered. It was a safe line. A normal one.
âIâm not early,â Bucky argued immediately.
âYouâre in my chair. That means youâre early.â
He blinked as if youâd surprised him with logic. âThatâs⊠not how that works.â
âItâs exactly how it works,â you said, and smoothed the edge of the concealer until it melted into his skin. âYouâre early because you like to sit here and be annoying.â
Buckyâs eyes narrowed. âI do not.â
You caught your own reflection in the mirror behind him â your posture calm, your mouth tilted like you already knew the outcome of this exchange. âYou do.â
A beat.
Bucky leaned in just a fraction, voice low enough that it felt like a secret. âAnnoying you is what Iâm best at.â
For a second, you forgot the noise around you. Forgot the bright bulbs, the rush, the assistant counting down time. Your hands stayed steady because they had to, because you couldnât afford tells, but the warmth slid up the back of your neck anyway.
You pressed the sponge once more under his eye, a little firmer than necessary. âGood,â you murmured. âAt least youâre specializing.â
Bucky chuckled, and it was the kind of sound that made people turn their heads. It didnât carry far, but it carried enough.
Across the room, Steve looked up.
He was standing near wardrobe, halfway into a tailored jacket that somebody was adjusting at the shoulders. Even surrounded by hangers and fussing hands, he had this steady gravity to him â as if the whole set organized itself around where he stood. His hair was half-done, pushed back off his forehead, and his expression was the calm, polite one he wore when he knew people were watching.
Bucky looked like he wanted to say something else, something that edged too close to truth, but the room shifted â someone calling for Steve, a stylist tugging at fabric, the photographer stepping onto the set and clapping once to get everyoneâs attention.
âSteve,â the photographer called, âyouâre up first.â
Steve turned, nodded, and then â before he stepped away â his eyes found yours again. He raised two fingers to his temple in a little salute, like he was some kind of dorky soldier acknowledging his spotter.
Bucky made a sound of disgust. âGod, heâs so wholesome itâs offensive.â
You tried not to smile. You failed.
Steve walked toward the set, the jacket settling onto his shoulders like it had been made for him alone. People parted for him instinctively. He moved with the kind of quiet confidence that didnât need to be announced. Under the lights, heâd look like a myth. Off them, he still did, just with softer edges.
You watched him go longer than you meant to.
When you looked back at Bucky, he was already smirking.
âWhat?â you said, flat.
âNothing.â
âBarnes.â
He held up his hands, innocent. âI didnât say anything.â
âYou donât have to,â you muttered, and reached for a clean brush to blend around his jawline, putting a little more distance between yourself and whatever that look was trying to tell you.
Buckyâs voice dropped again, just for you. âYou worry too much.â
Your brush paused.
He wasnât talking about the makeup.
You resumed blending, slower now, careful. âItâs my job.â
Buckyâs gaze stayed on you, steady and unguarded in a way that still startled you sometimes. âYour job is to make us look good.â
âSame thing,â you said automatically, and immediately hated yourself for it.
Buckyâs expression softened, almost imperceptible. He didnât call you on it. He didnât tease. He just said, quietly, âYouâre allowed to be taken care of too, you know.â
You swallowed, eyes dropping to your kit as if you could find an answer between lip liners and setting spray.
Before you could respond, your phone buzzed.
Once. Twice.
A third time, insistent.
You didnât look at it right away. You didnât want to. Even seeing the screen would yank you out of the bubble youâd carved out here â a bubble where you were just you, where your name didnât come with a shadow, where your hands did something useful and real.
The buzzing continued.
Bucky noticed. Of course he did. His gaze flicked down to your pocket, then up to your face. He didnât say anything this time. He just watched, patient, waiting to see what youâd do.
Steveâs voice carried faintly from the set â easy, cooperative, thanking someone for an adjustment. The photographer laughed at something he said. The shutters started, rapid-fire, like a heartbeat.
Your phone buzzed again.
You exhaled slowly through your nose, then pulled it out, angling the screen away on instinct. The name flashing across it made your stomach drop, even though youâd been expecting it.
Adam.
You didnât answer â couldnât, not here. Not in front of them. Not when one slip of tone could crack the careful life youâd built.
You silenced the call with a practiced swipe and slipped the phone back into your pocket like it hadnât mattered.
Except your hands had gone a little too still.
Bucky saw that too. His eyes narrowed, not suspicious yet â just attentive. âEverything okay?â
You forced your fingers to move again, reached for setting spray, clicked the nozzle once to test it, like the tiny ritual could anchor you. âYeah,â you lied, smooth as silk. âJust⊠family stuff.â
Buckyâs gaze stayed on you, and it wasnât the teasing kind anymore. âDo you wantââ
âIâm fine,â you cut in gently, then softened it with a small smile. âPromise.â
Bucky didnât look convinced, but he didnât push. Not now. Not in front of everyone.
Across the room, Steve stepped off the set for a wardrobe change, cheeks faintly flushed from the heat of the lights. His eyes swept the backstage area like he was looking for something to orient himself.
They found you.
You smiled automatically â small, careful, meant to reassure.
Steveâs expression shifted, just a fraction. Like heâd noticed something behind the smile. Like he could feel the crack even if he couldnât see it.
He started to walk toward you. And then a stylist called his name, tugging him back into place, and the moment snapped like a thread.
You turned back to Bucky, lifted the spray, and misted a fine veil over his face. âClose your eyes.â
Bucky did, obedient for once.
For a heartbeat, the world narrowed to the simple things: the soft click of the bottle cap, the clean line of his jaw under your brush, the familiar hum of work. The kind of work that made sense.
The kind of work that didnât ask you to choose between being wanted and being known.
âOkay,â you said, stepping back to assess him critically. âYouâre done.â
Bucky opened his eyes and blinked at you. âHow do I look?â
âLike trouble,â you said, because it was true.
His grin returned, easy, relieved. âPerfect.â
He stood, rolling his shoulders, and for a second he leaned in, close enough that only you would hear.
âIf that family stuff gets worse,â he murmured, voice low and careful, âyou tell us, yeah?â
Us.
Not just him. Not just Steve. Both of them, like you were already a unit and nobody had said it out loud yet. Your throat tightened, and you forced yourself to keep your smile steady. âYeah,â you said, softer than before. âI will.â
Bucky held your gaze a second longer, like he was memorizing the promise, then stepped away toward the set, sliding into his role like it was second nature.
You watched him go, then glanced toward Steve again.
Steve was under the lights now, waiting for his next shot, posture relaxed, expression composed. He looked like the kind of man who never had to worry about masks slipping.
But when he caught your eyes, there was something there â quiet, sincere, almost pleading.
A question he wasnât asking.
Not yet.
Your phone stayed heavy in your pocket, silent now but loaded with everything you were trying not to become.
You squared your shoulders, picked up a brush, and turned back to your kit like it could keep you safe.
Backstage roared on around you â fabric and laughter and camera clicks â while, somewhere under all that noise, the softest crack widened, waiting for the moment it would finally be seen.
The next time it happened, you almost missed it.
Backstage was the usual controlled storm â racks of clothing rolling over cables, assistants weaving through bodies with clipboards pressed to their chests, stylists calling out last-minute changes like prayers. A makeup artist somewhere laughed too loudly; the photographerâs voice carried from the set, upbeat and commanding. Someone sprayed hairspray and the scent drifted across your station in a sweet, chemical cloud.
Your hands moved on autopilot. Powder. Concealer. A small tap of highlighter on the inner corner of Steveâs eye, because the lights on set were harsh today and you knew exactly how to soften them.
Steve sat in your chair, shoulders relaxed, gaze fixed on his own reflection as if he was trying to pretend he wasnât being fussed over. He had a way of being patient that wasnât passive â he made stillness look like something heâd chosen.
âYouâre quiet,â he said, voice low enough that only you would hear over the chaos.
âIâm always quiet,â you lied lightly, leaning in to blend along his cheekbone.
Steveâs mouth twitched. He didnât call you out. He just watched you in the mirror, his eyes tracking the smallest shifts in your expression like heâd been doing it for weeks now â like heâd learned to read the difference between your focused calm and the kind of calm that came from holding something down.
Before you could answer, your phone vibrated against your thigh.
One short buzz.
You kept your face neutral. Didnât reach for it. Most people wouldnât even have noticed, not with the noise and movement around you.
But Steve noticed everything.
His eyes flicked down for a fraction of a second, then returned to your face â careful, not intrusive, like heâd been trained not to stare at wounds.
You ignored the phone. Finished the blending. Reached for setting powder.
The phone buzzed again.
Longer this time.
You felt it like a heartbeat you hadnât asked for.
You set the powder down with a touch too much precision. âHold still,â you murmured, just to give yourself something to say.
âIâm holding still,â Steve replied, obedient, but his gaze sharpened a little. âYou donât have to pretend with me.â
You froze â not enough for anyone else to notice, but enough that you felt it. You forced your hand to move again, sweeping powder across his forehead with the gentlest strokes.
âItâs nothing,â you said.
Steveâs expression didnât change. But his voice softened. âOkay.â
He didnât push. He never pushed. That was part of what made him dangerous to your composure â he gave you room, and the room made it harder to hide.
The buzzing stopped. The moment passed. You breathed again.
And then, ten minutes later, it happened again.
Not a buzz this time. A call. Your phone lit up in your pocket and the vibration was insistent â continuous, urgent in a way personal calls rarely were during shoots. You felt the screen heat against your skin like it was trying to burn a hole through the fabric.
You didnât look at it. Not at first.
You kept your face smooth and reached for a brush, as if youâd planned to do that all along. You tilted your body slightly, using your shoulder to block the line of sight from anyone standing behind you.
You were good at angles. You built your whole life on them.
Steve watched you in the mirror.
His eyes narrowed â not suspicion, not accusation. Concern.
âDo you need to take that?â he asked quietly.
You forced a smile. âNo.â
The phone vibrated again, like it didnât believe you.
Across the room, Bucky was in wardrobe, halfway through shrugging into a coat that probably cost more than your first apartment. He was talking to a stylist, all casual charm, but his gaze lifted at the exact moment your smile faltered. It locked onto you like a hook.
You felt it in the pit of your stomach, that old instinct: donât let them see.
You stepped back from Steve. âIâll be right back,â you said, making it sound like a normal thing â like you were just grabbing another product.
Steveâs head turned slightly as you moved. âHey,â he called, soft and careful, not wanting to draw attention. âYou sure?â
You paused with your hand on your kit, fingers hovering above a compact you didnât need. You met his eyes in the mirror. For a second, you wanted to say yes â wanted to let the truth spill out, not the whole truth, but something real enough to breathe.
Instead you nodded once. âYeah.â
You slipped toward the edge of backstage, weaving between racks and people until you found a narrow corridor that smelled like dust and fabric and the bitter tang of black coffee. A quiet pocket. A place where the light didnât reach as hard.
You pulled your phone out.
The name on the screen made your chest tighten.
Adam.
Not âGrandpa.â Not a nickname. The contact label youâd chosen on purpose â formal enough that if anyone saw it, it could belong to anybody. A habit born from fear.
You let it ring one more time, because you were stubborn, because you were still clinging to the illusion that you could choose when your life demanded you.
Then you answered, voice pitched perfectly neutral. âHello?â
A breath on the other end, followed by his voice â warm, composed, threaded with something you almost never heard from him.
Impatience.
âWhere are you?â he asked.
âAt work,â you said, as if that should be answer enough.
âI know youâre at work. I meanâ are you alone?â
You glanced down the corridor. Nobody. You lowered your voice. âYes. Whatâs wrong?â
A pause. You could hear faint hospital ambience behind him â wheels on tile, a distant announcement, the murmur of another voice.
âMy ankle,â he said, as if heâd only just remembered. âItâs nothing. A foolish misstep. Your grandmother scolded me as if I were twelve.â
Your stomach dropped anyway. It didnât matter that he said ânothing.â It mattered that heâd called you like this, in the middle of a shoot, with urgency in his tone.
âWhat happened?â you asked, too quickly.
âI fell,â he admitted. âDo not worry. I am not breaking apart yet.â Then, softer: âBut it was a reminder.â
Your grip tightened around the phone. âA reminder of what?â
âTime,â he said simply. âAnd risk. We have been careful, you and I. We have been⊠perhaps too careful.â
You swallowed. You already knew where this was going. Youâd felt it circling for weeks, in the way heâd been asking about meetings, in the way heâd started bringing up succession as if it were weather.
âIâm in the middle of something,â you said, trying to keep your voice steady. âCan we talk later?â
âYou can,â he replied. âBut the board cannot. They want to see you. They want assurances. They wantââ
âNot now,â you cut in, sharper than you meant to. You closed your eyes, inhaled slowly. âIâm sorry. Not now.â
There was silence long enough that you could hear your own pulse.
When he spoke again, his voice was gentler. âIâm not calling to frighten you.â
That was, in itself, terrifying.
âI just need you to understand,â he continued, âthat I wonât be able to keep you hidden much longer.â
Hidden.
You pressed your free hand to your forehead as if you could physically hold yourself together. âYou promised,â you whispered.
âI promised to protect you,â he corrected. âNot to build you a cage.â
Your throat tightened.
âI like my job,â you said, and it came out too raw for a work call. âI like being⊠normal.â
âYou were never normal,â he said with a fondness that hurt. âYou were simply unseen.â
Unseen. Incognito. Safe.
Not real.
You swallowed hard. âI canât do this right now.â
âI know,â he said quietly. âBut you will. Soon. I need you in the office tomorrow morning. Ten oâclock. And I will need you to stop declining the boardâs invitations. They are beginning to take it personally.â
You could almost hear the unspoken part: They will start asking questions. The wrong people will start looking.
Tomorrow. Ten oâclock. An office you hadnât stepped into as yourself in months.
You rubbed your thumb over the edge of your phone. âOkay,â you said, voice flat with resignation. âIâll be there.â
âGood,â he replied, and you could hear relief slip into his tone. âAndâ my dearââ
âWhat?â
âBe careful,â he said. âNot of them. Of yourself. You have a habit of carrying things until they become too heavy.â
Your chest ached. You forced a thin laugh you didnât feel. âYouâre one to talk.â
He made a sound that mightâve been amusement. Mightâve been affection. âGo,â he said. âDo your work. We will speak later.â
The call ended.
You stared at the dark screen for a second too long, as if it might offer you another path. Then you slid the phone back into your pocket and leaned your head against the wall.
Just for a moment.
You let the weight settle behind your ribs. Let the fear take shape: the board, the announcement, the name that wasnât supposed to be attached to your face in a room full of people who would smile at you like sharks.
Then you pushed off the wall and walked back toward the light.
You knew what you looked like. You could already feel the difference in your posture â still composed, still efficient, but with something taut pulled tight under your skin. Youâd learned to be polished. You hadnât learned to be unafraid.
As you rounded the rack of clothes and stepped back into the hum of backstage, Steveâs gaze snapped to you immediately, like heâd been waiting for your return.
Buckyâs did too.
Steve didnât speak right away. He just watched you, eyes searching your face with quiet patience, giving you the chance to decide what to offer.
Bucky was less subtle. He leaned slightly forward from where he stood, the line of his shoulders sharpening, his expression alert.
You forced your mouth into the right shape. The familiar one. The one that said everything is fine, keep going, nothing to see here.
âSorry,â you said, light, breezy. âJustâ family.â
Steve didnât nod immediately. His eyes flicked to your pocket, then back to your face.
âEverything okay?â he asked again, softer this time.
You held his gaze and lied as smoothly as you could. âYeah. He just⊠worries.â
Buckyâs eyes narrowed, almost imperceptibly. He crossed his arms, leaning back like he was playing it cool, but youâd worked with him too long to miss the tension in his jaw.
âMust be some kind of family,â he drawled, aiming for teasing and missing by a hair. âYouâve been getting those a lot lately.â
You laughed â too quick, too practiced. âHeâs dramatic.â
Steveâs expression stayed gentle. âDo you want a break?â
âNo,â you said immediately, because you couldnât afford breaks. Breaks gave people time to look at you closely.
You turned back to your kit and picked up a brush you didnât need, just to keep your hands moving. The familiar motions steadied you, like they always did.
But you could feel it now â the shift. The way the calls werenât just background noise anymore. The way they had teeth.
And you could feel Steve and Bucky watching, not like clients, not like coworkers, but like people who cared enough to notice when the air changed.
They didnât know what was coming.
But you had the sinking certainty that they were starting to sense it.
It didnât happen all at once.
Your life didnât split cleanly down the middle with one dramatic announcement, one headline, one explosive argument. It fractured the way ice does â quietly, invisibly â until you looked down and realized the surface youâd been standing on was webbed with cracks.
One morning, a few days after meeting with the board, you woke up to a calendar that no longer belonged to you.
Your phone was already lit when you reached for it, the screen glowing an accusing blue in the dimness of your bedroom. Notifications stacked like a second alarm clock: emails flagged urgent, messages marked high priority, meeting invites that had been accepted on your behalf by an assistant you didnât employ â at least, not in the life you were pretending to live.
Your ârealâ job â your actual day, the one you loved â was supposed to start with a shoot at nine. Steve and Bucky had back-to-back editorial looks, two hair changes, one wardrobe swap that would take a miracle and a prayer. You were meant to be there early, coffee in one hand, brush belt on your hips, ready to catch the chaos before it spilled.
Instead, your phone buzzed again.
A message from a number saved under a name you never used out loud.
Car is downstairs. Weâll take you through the service entrance.
Your thumb hovered over the screen. You didnât answer. You couldnât.
You dragged yourself out of bed, got dressed on autopilot, and forced your face into something composed in the bathroom mirror. You could do composed. Youâd built your entire adult life on it. You just hadnât expected to need it at eight in the morning with a meeting agenda you hadnât even agreed to.
When you arrived at the studio, the familiar backstage smell â warm lights, hairspray, fresh fabric â hit you like a memory. It shouldâve soothed you. It almost did.
Almost.
You stepped into your station with your kit, and your hands began doing what they always did: laying out brushes, wiping palettes, checking products. Normal. Grounding. A ritual that made your body believe you still had control.
Then your phone vibrated. Again.
You didnât even have to look to know it wasnât casual.
You angled the screen away from any wandering eyes and saw an email subject line that made your throat go tight:
You locked the screen and slid the phone under your makeup bag as if you could hide it there the same way youâd hidden yourself.
âHey.â
Steveâs voice, soft and close.
You looked up to find him standing at the edge of your station, still in sweats and a white tee, hair damp like heâd showered at the studio. Heâd brought you a coffee â he always did now, as if it had quietly become part of his routine to look after you in small ways you could pretend werenât meaningful.
He held it out. âThought you might need this.â
Your smile came too fast. Too bright. âYouâre a saint.â
Steveâs eyes flicked over your face, as if he was checking the way your smile sat. âYou okay?â
You reached for the cup, forcing your fingers not to shake. âYeah. Just⊠busy.â
âBusy like normal busy?â he asked, gently, like he was offering you the chance to correct the lie without calling you a liar. âOr busy like⊠something happened?â
Your chest tightened.
There was a moment â half a second â where you almost told him. Not everything. Not the name. But the simplest truth: my grandfather fell, and now the world Iâm hiding is knocking at the door.
Instead, you shrugged, light as air. âNormal busy.â
Steve didnât argue. He just nodded, but the nod was slow, thoughtful. Like he was storing the answer somewhere, filing it away.
From across the room, Buckyâs laughter cut through the noise â bright, sharp, and a little forced, the kind he used when he was playing âfineâ for other people. You glanced up instinctively and caught his eyes.
He was sitting in wardrobeâs chair, a stylist adjusting his collar, but his gaze was locked on you like a compass. He lifted an eyebrow, wordlessly asking: Whatâs going on?
You mouthed nothing back. You didnât know what you could say.
The day went like that â tightrope walking between your hands and your phone.
You did Steveâs base in record time, blended his contour like your life depended on it, fixed the way the lights made his skin look too harsh. You adjusted Buckyâs brow with a careful brush and pretended you didnât notice how his eyes kept flicking to your pocket every time your phone buzzed.
The calls werenât constant, not enough to justify panic.
They were worse.
They were patterned.
A buzz at 09:12. A call at 09:47. A calendar invite at 10:05. A voicemail at 10:06. An email marked âconfidentialâ at 10:07.
Like someone had put your day on a leash and was giving it short, sharp tugs.
You started slipping away in small increments â thirty seconds here, a minute there. Youâd step behind a rack, answer a call in a whisper, then return with your posture straight and your smile intact.
And every time you came back, the air around you felt a fraction different.
Not because anyone could name what had changed â but because Steve and Bucky could feel it.
They knew you. That was the problem.
It was midday when the first domino actually fell.
You were crouched by your kit, searching for a specific lip liner Bucky insisted was âthe only one that doesnât make me look like Iâm dying,â when your phone rang â an actual call, full volume, because youâd forgotten to put it on silent after the last one.
The sound was sharp and out of place in the backstage hum.
You froze.
For a second, the whole room seemed to hear it. Not because it was loud â because it was you. You werenât the person whose phone went off. You werenât the one who got interrupted. You were the calm center people moved around.
Steveâs head turned immediately.
Buckyâs too.
You snatched the phone, thumb hovering over the screen, and caught the name before you could stop yourself.
Not âAdamâ this time.
A different contact. One you never shouldâve been receiving calls from on set.
Chairman â Private Line.
Your blood turned cold.
You didnât answer. You couldnât â there were too many eyes, too much risk. You silenced it, heart pounding, then forced yourself to straighten like nothing had happened.
But the second you looked up, you knew youâd lost something.
Bucky was staring.
Not playful. Not teasing.
Alert.
Steveâs expression had gone very still, a quiet kind of concern sharpening into something closer to⊠calculation.
âWho was that?â Bucky asked.
He tried to make it casual. He failed. His voice was too careful, like he was stepping on glass.
You swallowed. âJustâ someone from my family.â
Buckyâs eyebrows lifted. âYour family has a chairman?â
Your breath caught.
Steveâs gaze flicked to Bucky â donât push â then back to you. Steveâs voice was softer when he spoke, almost a rescue rope. âYou donât have to tell us,â he said. âWeâre just⊠noticing.â
You forced a laugh, thin and brittle. âItâs not that dramatic.â
Buckyâs eyes didnât leave your face. âIt kind of looks dramatic.â
You set the phone down with deliberate calm, picked up the lip liner, and turned it between your fingers like it was suddenly the most interesting thing in the world. Anything to keep your hands busy. Anything to avoid the fact that your chest felt too tight to breathe properly.
âIâve got stuff going on,â you said finally, steadying your voice. âThatâs all.â
Steve nodded slowly. âOkay.â
He didnât believe you. But he accepted what you were willing to give.
For the next hour, you worked like you were trying to outrun your own thoughts. You kept your focus on the faces in front of you because faces were easy â skin tone, symmetry, light. You could fix those. You couldnât fix the way your world was tightening around you.
And your agenda â your real agenda â kept mutating in real time.
At 14:00, you were supposed to be on set for the second shoot. You were supposed to touch up between shots, correct shine, fix flyaways, be the invisible pair of hands that kept everything perfect.
Instead, you got a text: Your grandfather needs you at the office. Now.
You stared at the words until they blurred. Your throat went dry.
There was no graceful way out of this.
You found the producer, lied smoothly about a âfamily emergency,â promised youâd be back before final looks. You grabbed your kit, but not all of it â only the essentials â because taking everything would look like an exit.
You felt Steveâs eyes on you the whole time.
When you turned, he was already moving toward you, a quiet urgency in his stride.
âHey,â he said, stopping just close enough that you could smell his cologne â clean, understated. âWhatâs going on?â
âNothing,â you said automatically.
Steveâs jaw tightened, the smallest sign of frustration youâd ever seen from him. Not anger â worry that didnât know where to go.
âOkay,â he said, voice low, âthen tell me why it feels like youâre disappearing.â
The words hit harder than they should have.
You blinked, and for a second you couldnât pretend. You couldnât do breezy. Your lungs forgot how to work.
âIâm not disappearing,â you managed, but it came out too quiet. Too honest.
Steveâs eyes softened. âIt feels like you are.â
Behind him, Bucky had drifted closer too â not in a confrontational way, but like he was drawn by gravity he didnât control. His posture was casual, arms crossed, but the tension sat high in his shoulders.
âYouâve been leaving,â Bucky said, blunt but not cruel. âA lot. And youâre not⊠yourself.â
You forced a smile that didnât reach your eyes. âIâm fine.â
Buckyâs gaze sharpened. âYou keep saying that like itâs a spell.â
Steve didnât interrupt. He just watched you like you were something precious he didnât want to handle wrong.
You hated how much you wanted to lean into that.
You hated even more that you couldnât.
âI have to go,â you said, and it wasnât an excuse this time. It was a fact. The leash tugged again, and you had no choice but to follow.
Steve stepped back slightly, giving you space, but his voice caught you before you could turn away.
âText me,â he said.
You paused. Looked at him.
He didnât say where are you going. He didnât say why are you leaving. He didnât demand details.
Just Donât vanish. Let me know youâre okay.
Bucky added, quieter than usual, âYeah. Justâ donât ghost us.â
The word landed wrong because it was too close to the truth.
You nodded once, throat tight, and then you turned and walked away before they could see the fear crack your composure.
In the car, the city moved past the tinted windows like a film you couldnât quite follow. Your phone buzzed again â another invite, another reminder, another demand dressed up as a request.
Somewhere in that constant pull, you realized the worst part wasnât the schedule itself.
It was the way it was starting to take you away from the only place youâd felt real.
And the way Steve and Bucky were starting to notice the gaps you left behind.
By the end of the month, the pattern had become impossible to ignore.
It wasnât just the phone calls anymore â though those were bad enough, constant little jolts of urgency that made your smile thinner and your movements sharper. It was the way you started arriving at the studio already braced, like youâd been carrying something heavy long before you stepped through the doors. It was the way you vanished between looks and returned with your eyes too bright, cheeks faintly flushed as if youâd been breathing air that tasted like pressure.
It was the way you kept apologizing.
You never used to apologize. Not like that.
Steve noticed first because Steve noticed everything that mattered.
Bucky noticed second because Bucky noticed everything you tried to hide.
They didnât talk about it the first week. Or the second. They exchanged glances, little wordless check-ins across mirrors and racks of clothing. Steveâs look was worried and patient, the kind that asked permission before stepping closer. Buckyâs was sharp and restless, the kind that circled like a guard dog pretending he didnât care.
And you, stubbornly, kept doing what you always did: you kept working.
You kept fixing details and smoothing edges, as if you could make the whole world behave if you blended hard enough.
On a Friday, the studio had booked a late shoot â one of those glossy, high-concept editorials where the set looked like a dream and the hours dragged into exhaustion. There were fewer people around by evening. The energy changed when the caffeine wore off and the lights made everyoneâs skin look sallow. It grew quieter, almost intimate, the way a place does when youâve been in it long enough that it stops feeling public.
You were still moving fast.
You were packing your kit with the brisk efficiency of someone trying to outrun the moment the room went still enough for feelings.
Steve watched you do it from the edge of the set, towel around his shoulders, hair damp from a quick rinse between shots. Bucky was sitting on a folding chair nearby, hands clasped loosely, his gaze fixed on you as if he was trying to memorize your movements.
Your phone buzzed again â one of those short, vicious vibrations that didnât even pretend to be casual.
You didnât look at it.
You just⊠flinched. The tiniest reaction. Barely there.
Steveâs jaw tightened.
Buckyâs head tilted, eyes narrowing.
You zipped your bag like that ended the conversation.
âIâll be right back,â you said, too quickly, already stepping away.
You didnât make it three steps before Steve spoke.
âHey.â
Not loud. Not a command. Just your name â careful, as if he was reaching for your wrist without actually touching you.
You stopped anyway, because some part of you always stopped for Steve.
You turned, forcing that smile into place again. âWhatâs up?â
Steve didnât answer right away. He glanced toward Bucky â silent communication, a check of agreement. Bucky nodded once, barely perceptible, like he was giving Steve the go-ahead.
That was the first domino you couldnât pretend you hadnât seen: they were coordinated.
Bucky stood up, slow and deliberate, and moved closer. Not crowding you. Just⊠present.
Steveâs voice stayed low. âWe need to talk.â
Your stomach dropped.
You tried to laugh. âIs this an intervention? Because if itâs about the concealer I used on you last week, I stand by it.â
Bucky snorted â almost â but it didnât reach his eyes. âNot about concealer.â
Steveâs gaze held yours, steady. âNot about work, either.â
The edges of the room seemed to sharpen. You became hyper-aware of everything: the hum of the lights, the faint music playing from someoneâs speaker, the distant click of a camera being packed away. The smell of perfume samples and fabric and heat.
You swallowed. âOkay.â
Steve took a slow breath, like he was choosing every word on purpose. âWeâve been noticing⊠things.â
You opened your mouth to deny it. To dismiss it. To make a joke and slide away.
Bucky spoke first, and it was so unexpected it stopped you cold.
âWeâre not mad,â he said.
His voice was rougher than usual, stripped of the teasing. Honest in a way that made your chest tighten.
Steve nodded, backing him up without hesitation. âWeâre not mad,â he echoed. âWeâre just⊠concerned.â
Your heart beat too hard. âAbout what?â
Buckyâs gaze flicked to your pocket where your phone had buzzed. Back to your face. âAbout you.â
That was the problem, wasnât it?
If it had been about makeup, about schedules, about a difficult client, you could have handled it. You could have fixed it, managed it, controlled it.
But they werenât asking about your work.
They were asking about you.
You forced your shoulders to stay relaxed. âIâm fine.â
Bucky exhaled sharply through his nose, the closest he got to frustration. âYou keep saying that.â
Steveâs voice softened even more, like he was trying to give you a safe landing. âAnd maybe you are,â he said. âBut you donât look fine. You look⊠like youâre holding your breath all day.â
You stared at him, throat closing.
Bucky shifted, weight rolling from heel to toe, restless but contained. âYouâve been disappearing,â he said. âYou get those calls, and you go somewhere, and you come back like youâve just⊠stepped out of a different life.â
You flinched, barely, because that was too accurate.
Steveâs eyes sharpened. âWe donât need details,â he said quickly, like heâd seen the way you tensed. âWeâre not asking to pry.â
Bucky cut in, quieter now. âWeâre asking because we care.â
The words hit like a bruise.
You looked between them â Steveâs steady concern, Buckyâs wary protectiveness â and felt something inside you want to give. Want to fall into the honesty they were offering you like a bed.
But honesty had consequences. Honesty had headlines. Honesty had a board of directors and a grandfatherâs voice in your ear telling you it was time.
Honesty had the risk of Steve and Bucky looking at you differently forever.
You swallowed hard. âItâs family stuff,â you said, because it was the only truth you could say without detonating your life.
Buckyâs gaze held yours. âOkay.â
The single word was deceptively gentle. Not permission. Not dismissal. Just acknowledgment.
Steve nodded too. âOkay.â
Then Steve took another breath, slower, and his voice dropped into something almost intimate. âAre you safe?â
The question stole your air.
You blinked. âWhat?â
Steve didnât look away. âAre you safe,â he repeated, carefully. âBecause the way youâve been⊠it looks like somethingâs chasing you.â
Your mouth went dry. You hated that your eyes stung. You hated that your body wanted to answer like a confession.
You managed a tight, brittle laugh. âNo oneâs chasing me.â
Buckyâs gaze sharpened. âFeels like they are.â
He sounded like someone who knew what it was like to be cornered.
Steve took a small step closer â not into your space, just close enough that you could feel his presence. âWeâre not trying to corner you,â he said, as if reading your panic. âWe just⊠donât want to keep guessing.â
Bucky nodded, jaw tight. âWeâve been guessing all month,â he admitted. âAnd it sucks.â
There was a beat of silence where you could hear the studio settling, people leaving, the night stretching out beyond the walls.
Then Steve glanced at Bucky again, a quiet exchange you caught only because you knew them both well now â Steve asking is this okay, Bucky answering yeah.
Bucky spoke, voice lower. âWe talked about this,â he said, and something about that made your stomach twist.
We talked about this.
Theyâd been discussing you behind your back â not in a cruel way, not with gossip, but with worry. With care. With strategy.
Because they didnât want to scare you.
Steve nodded slightly, as if confirming the same thought. âWe did,â he said. âBecause we didnât want to do it wrong.â
You stared, pulse racing. âDo what wrong?â
Buckyâs eyes didnât soften, but his voice did. âCome at you like an accusation.â
Steveâs gaze was gentle but unwavering. âOr make you feel like you owe us answers.â
Bucky shifted again, hands flexing at his sides like he wanted to reach for you and didnât trust himself to. âSo,â he said, blunt but careful, âhereâs what we decided.â
Your breath caught.
Steve lifted his hand slightly, palm open, an instinctive calming gesture. âYou can tell us nothing,â he said. âAnd weâll accept it.â
Bucky nodded once. âBut you canât keep telling us youâre fine when youâre clearly not.â
Steveâs eyes held yours. âWe just need something real,â he said quietly. âEven if itâs small.â
Buckyâs gaze flicked to Steve, then back to you. âLikeâ do you want us to back off?â he asked. âOr do you want us to stay close?â
Stay close.
The words landed like a promise and a threat all at once.
You felt your throat tighten, the urge to say please stay and please donât look at me too closely colliding so hard it made you dizzy.
You looked down at your hands â empty now, because your kit was packed, because your work shield was gone. You had nothing to hide behind.
âIâŠâ Your voice cracked. You cleared your throat quickly. âI donât know.â
Steveâs expression softened, not pity â understanding. âThatâs okay,â he said.
Buckyâs jaw worked, like he was chewing on something bitter. âJust donât shut us out,â he murmured, and it sounded like it cost him to say it.
Silence stretched again.
You could feel the shape of the truth pressing against your ribs â your name, your money, your grandfather, the board, the fact that you werenât just the woman with the brushes.
You couldnât say it. Not yet.
But you also couldnât pretend they werenât right.
So you did the only thing you could manage: you gave them a sliver.
âItâs complicated,â you said quietly. âAnd itâs⊠bigger than I want it to be.â
Steve nodded slowly. âOkay.â
Buckyâs eyes didnât leave your face. âBut youâre safe.â
You hesitated just long enough to be honest. âYes.â
Steve exhaled like heâd been holding his breath. Buckyâs shoulders eased a fraction.
Steveâs voice was gentle. âAnd youâre not in trouble.â
You almost laughed. Almost cried. âNo,â you whispered. âNot trouble.â
Buckyâs mouth twisted, something like relief and frustration tangled together. âGood,â he muttered. âBecause if someone was messing with youââ
âBuck,â Steve warned softly, not scolding, just grounding.
Bucky shut his mouth, but his eyes stayed fierce.
Steve looked back at you. âWeâre not asking you to fix it,â he said. âWeâre just⊠letting you know you donât have to carry it alone.â
That was the part that nearly broke you.
You forced your chin up, trying to keep your composure intact. âI appreciate it,â you managed. âI do.â
Bucky tilted his head, studying you. âIs that all we get?â
It was half-tease, half-test, like he was trying to give you a way out that didnât feel like surrender.
You managed a tiny smile, shaky at the edges. âFor now.â
Steveâs smile was soft, faint. âOkay,â he said again. âFor now.â
Buckyâs gaze lingered a beat longer, then he nodded, as if locking the agreement into place. âFor now.â
Steve stepped back, giving you your space again, but his voice caught you once more before the moment could dissolve.
âJust⊠text,â he said. âWhen you leave like that. So we know youâre okay.â
Bucky added, quieter, almost grudgingly sincere, âYeah. A thumbs-up emoji would do.â
You let out a breath that trembled. âI can do that.â
Steveâs eyes warmed. âGood.â
Buckyâs mouth quirked, the barest hint of his usual mischief returning. âAnd if your mysterious family stuff involves you being kidnapped by some rich vampire cult, Iâm gonna be pissed.â
You laughed â real this time, a short burst that surprised you. It eased something tight in your chest.
Steveâs expression softened further, relief hidden behind a calm façade.
âNo vampire cults,â you promised, as if that was something you could control.
You shook your head, still smiling, and for a moment the room felt almost normal again.
Almost.
But even as they let the subject drop â carefully, respectfully â you could feel it: the shift had happened.
Theyâd named the distance. Theyâd reached for you together and, for the first time, made it clear they werenât going to look away just because you wanted them to.
They werenât trying to corner you.
They were trying to be close enough that, when the truth finally fell, you wouldnât hit the ground alone.
It was supposed to be a normal afternoon.
Not easy â nothing was easy when the call sheet was packed and the lighting crew was behind schedule â but normal in the way youâd learned to love. Controlled chaos. Predictable problems. A zipper that wouldnât cooperate, a model who needed water, a photographer who wanted âmore shineâ and didnât realize that shine meant sweat under these lights.
Normal meant you could fix it.
You were moving between stations with your kit half-open, brush belt snug at your hips, eyes scanning faces and fabric like a checklist only you could read. Steve was on set, framed by a white cyclorama and a fan that made his shirt billow just enough to look effortless. Bucky was next up, pacing near wardrobe with that restless energy he got when he had to wait â hands flexing, jaw working, gaze occasionally snapping to you like he was making sure you were still there.
Youâd promised them youâd text when you stepped away.
Youâd even meant it.
But your phone didnât care about promises.
It started with a vibration at your hip â short, insistent, the kind that wasnât a friend checking in. You ignored it, finishing a quick touch-up on Steveâs collarbone where the light caught too harshly. Another buzz followed immediately, longer.
You felt Steveâs eyes on you from the set.
He couldnât look away for long, not when something was off. Heâd gotten good at watching you through reflections â mirrors, shiny floors, the dark glass of a monitor. Youâd learned to keep your face neutral even when your pulse picked up, but he still saw the tiny shifts: the way your shoulders went tight, the way your smile became a fraction too smooth.
Bucky saw too. He always did. He didnât say anything yet, but you could feel his attention like a hand at the back of your neck.
You told yourself youâd handle it after the shot. After the next shot. After the next one.
Then your phone rang.
Not a buzz. Not a silent little demand. A full, bright ringtone â because youâd forgotten to switch it back to silent after youâd used it for a playback clip earlier. The sound cut through the backstage hum like a blade.
For a split second, everything in you went cold.
Your hand shot to your pocket on instinct, silencing it, but it was too late. Heads turned. A PA glanced up. Someone from wardrobe looked irritated.
Steveâs head turned sharply, a flicker of concern on his face even under the bright, controlled expression he wore for the camera.
Bucky stopped pacing.
You forced a laugh you didnât feel, a quick, apologetic gesture. âSorryâ sorry. My bad.â
The photographer waved it off, already refocusing. âAll good. Steveâ chin down. Perfect. Hold that.â
You swallowed, heart pounding, and stepped back from the set. You needed a corner. A rack to hide behind. Thirty seconds of privacy.
You could feel Steveâs eyes tracking your movement as if he was trying not to make it obvious.
Bucky, on the other hand, didnât even bother pretending. His gaze followed you like a tether.
You slipped behind a tall rack of coats â heavy fabric, designer labels, the faint smell of new wool â and pressed your back to the metal frame, pulling your phone out.
You didnât look at the name at first.
You already knew it wouldnât be a friend. Wouldnât be your grandfather â he usually texted when he knew you were working, keeping the urgency disguised.
This call had teeth.
Your thumb hovered over the screen.
The name staring back at you made your stomach drop anyway.
Elliott â Chairmanâs Office.
The contact wasnât supposed to exist on your phone as you. It was supposed to belong to the version of you that sat at the head of a table, not the one who carried a brush belt and had foundation smudged on her knuckles by noon.
You closed your eyes for a beat, then answered, voice controlled and low. âHello.â
âFinally,â a manâs voice replied immediately â professional, clipped, the kind that was trained to sound calm even when delivering pressure. âIâve been trying to reach you all morning.â
âIâm working,â you said, and even that sounded like a lie in your mouth now.
There was a pause â tiny, polite, sharp. âYes. Weâre aware youâre at the studio. I wonât take long.â
Your throat tightened. âWhat do you need?â
âThe chairman would like confirmation,â he said. âFor Monday.â
Your grip on the phone tightened. âI told him I canât commit yet.â
âWith respect,â the man replied, and there was no respect in it, âthat isnât sufficient. The board wants clarity. Theyâre asking whether youâll attend the meeting in person or appear remotely. Theyâre asking whether youâll be prepared to address â â
âNo,â you cut in, sharper than you intended. You took a breath, forced your tone back into neutrality. âNo. I canât confirm to the board before Monday.â
You didnât hear the end of your own sentence at first. All you heard was the silence that followed.
Because silence, in a room like backstage, had weight.
You realized â too late â that you werenât as hidden as you thought.
The rack of coats wasnât a wall. The fabric didnât block sound the way youâd wanted it to. And youâd angled yourself in a rush, focused on escaping eyes, not on where those eyes might have followed.
A shadow shifted on the other side of the rack.
You froze, every nerve in your body firing at once.
ââMiss?â the voice on the phone continued, oblivious. âIf you could just give us a sense of your preference, we can manage expectations. The partners are asking questions. Press is alreadyââ
âElliott,â you hissed, voice low and tight, âIâm in the middle of a shoot. I will call you back.â
There was another pause, a breath. âUnderstood. But Iâll need something concrete by end of day.â
You swallowed the panic down. âI said Iâll call you back.â
You ended the call before he could respond.
For a heartbeat, you stared at the dark screen as if it could help you undo what youâd just said out loud.
Board.
The word echoed in your skull like a dropped glass.
You felt the prickle of being watched.
Slowly â so slowly â you lifted your gaze.
Bucky was standing on the other side of the rack.
Not close enough to invade you. Not far enough to pretend he hadnât heard. His posture was deceptively casual, hands in his pockets, but his eyes were sharp and fixed on your face like a lock picking at your mask.
Behind him, half a step back, Steve hovered in the corridor of open space â drawn there without meaning to be, the way he always moved toward someone in distress. He wasnât staring at your phone. He was staring at you, expression gentle but too focused to be neutral.
Neither of them spoke.
And that, more than anything, made your stomach twist.
Bucky broke the silence first.
âBoard,â he said, softly.
It wasnât a question yet. It was just the word youâd dropped, offered back to you like evidence.
Your throat went dry. You forced a laugh that sounded wrong even to your own ears. âYeah, uhââ
Steveâs voice cut in, quiet and careful. âYou said⊠the board.â
The way he phrased it â no accusation, no sharp edges â gave you a chance to steer. A chance to explain it away. The kind of chance that made the lie harder.
You opened your mouth.
Nothing came out.
Buckyâs eyes flicked from your face to your phone and back. âWhy does a board need you to confirm anything?â he asked. âYouâreââ He stopped himself, as if he was trying not to say what he was thinking. Youâre our visagist. Youâre backstage. Youâre notâ
You could see the thought running across his face, colliding with all the little inconsistencies heâd been collecting all week.
Steve stepped forward half a step, palms open at his sides, body language gentle. âHey,â he murmured. âYou donât have to explain everything. Butâ are you okay?â
The question landed like a hook behind your ribs.
You swallowed. Your voice came out thin. âIâm fine.â
Buckyâs jaw clenched. âStop saying that.â
The words werenât harsh, but they were loaded. You could hear the worry in them â worry disguised as irritation because that was how Bucky kept his fear from showing.
Steve glanced at Bucky, a silent request: easy. Buckyâs shoulders rose and fell once, like he was forcing himself to dial it down.
Then Steve looked back at you, eyes warm and steady. âTalk to us,â he said softly. âJust⊠a little.â
You looked between them and felt the walls of your careful life narrowing.
There were a hundred lies you could tell. A hundred versions of âconsulting,â âfamily investments,â âan old job I used to have,â âI help with admin sometimes.â
But your body had already betrayed you. The flinch. The urgency. The way your hand had gone tight around the phone like it could hold your world together.
Bucky tilted his head slightly, voice lower now. âIs this why you keep disappearing?â
You inhaled, slow and shaky. âItâsâ complicated.â
Steve nodded like heâd expected that answer. âOkay,â he said. âComplicated is allowed.â
Buckyâs gaze didnât soften, but it steadied. âIs it dangerous complicated?â he asked, blunt.
You blinked. âNo.â
Steveâs eyes stayed on yours. âIs it something youâre ashamed of?â
The question hit differently â gentle, but precise.
You opened your mouth. Closed it. Your throat burned.
âIâm not ashamed,â you whispered, and the truth of it hurt. âIâm⊠scared.â
Buckyâs expression shifted, quick and involuntary. âOf what?â
You let out a breath that trembled. âOf you looking at me differently.â
The words were out before you could stop them. Too honest. Too raw.
Steveâs face softened, immediate understanding flashing in his eyes. Buckyâs jaw tightened like heâd been punched â not because he was angry, but because the implication landed hard.
You flinched. Not because he was wrong. Because he was right.
Steveâs voice was a quiet anchor. âHey,â he said again, closer now. âWhatever this isâ whatever the board isâ it doesnât change who you are.â
You almost laughed at that, bitter and afraid. Because it did change things. It had to. Names and money and power always changed things, even when people swore they wouldnât.
Bucky took a small step closer, then stopped himself, like he didnât want to crowd you. âJust tell us one thing,â he said. âAre you in charge of something?â
Your breath caught.
Your silence was answer enough.
Steveâs eyes widened just a fraction, the pieces sliding into place. Not all of them. Not yet. But enough to shift the ground under the three of you.
âOkay,â Steve said slowly, voice gentle as ever, but now threaded with something new â shock, maybe, or awe. âOkay. Thatâs⊠bigger than we thought.â
Bucky let out a low breath, staring at you like he was seeing you for the first time and trying not to let it show. âYeah,â he murmured. âNo kidding.â
Your heart hammered. Your palms were damp around the phone.
You forced yourself to lift your chin. âI didnât want it to matter,â you said, voice shaking despite your effort. âI didnât want⊠this⊠to get in the way.â
Steveâs gaze softened further. âYou didnât want us to be here because of that.â
You nodded once, throat tight.
Buckyâs eyes held yours, fierce and steady. âWeâre here because of you,â he said, and it sounded like he meant it with his whole chest.
For a second, you couldnât breathe.
Behind you, the studio noise surged again â a stylist calling for Bucky, the photographer asking where his next model was, the set lights humming like a distant storm.
Reality tugged at you.
You stepped back a fraction, clutching your phone like a lifeline. âI have toââ you started.
Steveâs voice was quiet but firm. âWeâre not done.â
Not a threat. A promise.
Bucky nodded, gaze locked on you. âWeâll talk,â he said. âWhen youâre ready. But weâre not pretending we didnât hear that.â
You swallowed, eyes stinging, and managed a small nod.
âOkay,â you whispered.
Steveâs expression was gentle, but unyielding. âOkay.â
Buckyâs mouth twisted â half frustration, half relief. âNow go,â he said, voice softer than his words. âBefore they start yelling your name and I have to fight a stylist.â
A shaky laugh escaped you despite yourself.
And then you turned back toward the set, your kit suddenly heavier at your hip, your secret suddenly louder than any ringtone â because now it wasnât just living inside you anymore.
Now it lived in their eyes too.
The shoot ended the way they always did â abruptly, like someone had snapped their fingers and decided the day was done.
One moment the set was a bright, artificial world of wind machines and white walls, the photographer calling out adjustments, assistants darting in with water and lint rollers. The next, the lights dimmed, the camera was lowered, and the air seemed to release a breath it had been holding for hours.
âBeautiful. Thatâs it,â the photographer said, satisfied, already turning to talk about selects. People began to disperse in that exhausted, efficient shuffle: stylists gathering pins and tape, wardrobe rolling racks back into place, the hair team rushing to clean brushes and close drawers. A PA called out tomorrowâs call time like it was a forecast.
You kept moving because stopping meant thinking.
You packed your kit with muscle memory, wiping down palettes, sliding brushes into their sleeves, making sure each item went back exactly where it belonged. You could control your kit. You couldnât control the way your chest felt too tight for the air.
You caught Steveâs reflection in the dark screen of a monitor. He was still in wardrobeâs last look â shirt half unbuttoned, hair slightly mussed, skin still warm under the afterglow of the lights. His expression was calm, polite as he thanked the crew, but his eyes kept flicking toward you like a compass needle that couldnât settle.
Buckyâs gaze was more direct.
He was standing near the edge of the set, arms crossed, jaw set, the line of his shoulders too tense for exhaustion alone. He wasnât frowning, not exactly â but there was a hard edge to the way he held himself, like heâd been reining something in since that moment behind the coat rack.
Board.
The word still echoed in your head.
You tried to slip away while everyone was busy. You made it as far as the corridor outside the studio before Steveâs voice stopped you.
âHey.â
Not loud. Not sharp. Just your name, careful.
You turned, forcing your face into something neutral. âI need toââ
âWe know,â Bucky cut in, stepping out behind Steve. âYou always need to.â
His tone wasnât cruel, but it was too blunt to be a joke.
Steve shot him a look. Not reprimand â grounding. Then Steve looked back at you and softened his voice. âCan we talk? Somewhere that isnât⊠this.â
He gestured vaguely toward the studio behind you, as if even saying backstage out loud might make it listen.
You glanced between them. Your heart hammered with the instinct to run. But they werenât cornering you. They were giving you an out â an option. A choice.
âNow?â you asked, and hated how small your voice sounded.
Steve nodded. âIf you can.â
Buckyâs eyes stayed on your face. âUnless youâre gonna disappear again.â
You flinched. There it was â the hurt, wearing the shape of irritation.
âIâm notââ You swallowed. âIâm not trying to disappear.â
Steveâs expression softened further. âThen donât,â he said simply.
The simplicity of it hit harder than any accusation could have.
You exhaled slowly. Your phone sat heavy in your pocket, silent for once, but you could feel the pending demands like a storm on the horizon.
âOkay,â you said, because there was no version of this where you didnât eventually say it. âWe can talk.â
Buckyâs shoulders eased a fraction, like heâd been holding his breath. Steveâs gaze stayed steady, quiet relief flickering behind his composure.
âWhere?â Steve asked, gentle.
You hesitated.
There were a hundred places you could choose â some quiet diner, a bar with dim light, a corner booth where nobody would recognize them. A hotel lounge. A private room somewhere.
But the truth was, every public place felt like a risk. Public meant eyes. Public meant the possibility of your name being spoken too loudly, of a stranger catching a glimpse, of the wrong person overhearing.
Public meant you wouldnât be able to breathe.
And there was only one place you felt you could say it out loud and not immediately regret it.
âMy place,â you said quietly.
Bucky blinked. âYourâ apartment?â
You nodded, throat tight. âItâs⊠close.â
Steveâs brows lifted slightly, surprised but not suspicious. âOkay,â he said. âIf youâre comfortable.â
Comfortable was a generous word. You werenât comfortable. You were terrified.
But you also knew you couldnât keep trying to hold this inside you until it rotted.
âYeah,â you lied softly. âIâm comfortable.â
The ride was quiet.
Steve offered to drive â because Steve always offered â but you insisted on calling a car, your fingers moving fast over the screen. The driver recognized you immediately. You saw it in the way his posture shifted, the way he greeted you with a âGood evening, miss,â that held a weight Steve and Bucky didnât yet understand.
You slid into the back seat, Steve on one side, Bucky on the other. Their warmth boxed you in â protective, familiar â and it should have been comforting.
Instead, you felt like you were sitting between two truths: the life they knew, and the one youâd been hiding.
Streetlights streaked across the windows. The city blurred. Steveâs knee brushed yours once when the car turned, and his hand hovered, as if he wanted to steady you and didnât want to assume he could.
Bucky kept glancing at you like he was trying to figure out what kind of secret required this much caution.
You didnât speak until the car slowed and the building rose ahead â glass and steel, tall enough to scrape the sky. The lobby was lit like a museum, spotless and quiet. A doorman stepped forward immediately.
âWelcome back,â he said, voice warm.
And then, because youâd never needed to hide it here â because this was the one place you allowed yourself to exist as you â he added your name.
Not your professional name.
Your full name.
The one that belonged on company documents and private lines and board agendas.
Steveâs body went subtly still beside you. Not tense â just⊠attentive. The way he became attentive when something important entered the room.
Buckyâs gaze snapped to you, sharp.
You didnât correct the doorman. You couldnât. Correcting it would be another lie.
You just nodded once and walked forward, the sound of your heels too loud on the marble.
The elevator opened without anyone needing to press a button. The attendant inside greeted you like you were expected, like this was routine.
âPenthouse,â he said, and your stomach dropped even though youâd chosen this.
Bucky let out a low breath, almost soundless. Steveâs eyes flicked toward you, questioning but gentle.
The doors slid closed.
The elevator rose in smooth silence. The numbers climbed. Your heartbeat climbed with them.
When the doors opened, the hallway outside was carpeted and quiet, lit with warm, understated lamps. There was art on the walls â real art, not prints. The kind of detail you stopped noticing when you lived with it, but that screamed its meaning to anyone else.
Buckyâs gaze lingered on it, then on you. He didnât say anything. Not yet.
Your door unlocked with a soft beep. You stepped inside and the penthouse swallowed you whole â open space, floor-to-ceiling windows, the city sprawling below like a necklace of lights. The air smelled clean, faintly like expensive candle wax and something floral you couldnât name. A grand piano sat near the window. A long couch faced a sleek fireplace. Everything was elegant and quiet, built for a life that required privacy and power.
The kind of life youâd sworn you didnât want to be defined by.
Steve stepped inside and stopped.
Bucky stepped inside and stopped harder.
For a few seconds, neither of them spoke.
Their silence wasnât judgment. It was shock. Their brains recalibrating.
Bucky was the first to find his voice, because Bucky always was.
âOkay,â he said slowly, looking around, âso⊠youâre not living in a studio apartment over a bakery.â
Heat crawled up your neck. âNo.â
Steve turned toward you, expression controlled but wounded at the edges. âYouââ He stopped, like he was choosing his words carefully. âYou never saidââ
âI know,â you whispered. âI know.â
Buckyâs gaze cut into you, not cruel, just too direct. âYou lied to us.â
Your throat tightened. âI didnât want to.â
Steveâs voice was soft, but it held weight. âYou did,â he said. âEven if you didnât want to.â
You nodded, because denying it would be pointless.
âI didnât tell you,â you said, voice shaking, âbecause I didnât know how.â
Buckyâs laugh was short, incredulous â not amused. âTry âIâm rich.â Thatâs pretty straightforward.â
You flinched. âItâs not just that.â
Steve stepped closer â not crowding, but grounding. âThen tell us,â he said quietly. âWeâre here.â
The words weâre here made something crack in you.
You walked to the couch because you needed to move somewhere that didnât feel like the middle of the room. Your legs felt too weak to hold you up. You sat, hands clasped so tightly your fingers hurt.
Steve and Bucky hovered for a second â uncertain, like they didnât want to overwhelm you â then Steve sat on your left, Bucky on your right. Not too close, but close enough that you could feel their body heat.
And then, almost in unison, each of them placed a hand behind you.
Steveâs palm rested between your shoulder blades, steady and warm. Buckyâs hand settled lower, at the small of your back, like an anchor.
It was shockingly intimate. Shockingly kind.
You stared at your own hands because you couldnât look at them yet.
âOkay,â you said, voice barely above a whisper. âIâll tell you.â
Silence settled around you, soft and expectant.
You took a breath that trembled. âThe agency⊠is part of a bigger group. Fashion, media, charity foundations, investments. My grandfather founded it.â
Steveâs hand shifted slightly, a gentle rub like encouragement.
Buckyâs fingers pressed once against your back, wordless support that still felt like something fierce.
âAnd IâmâŠâ You swallowed hard. âIâm his heir. The main shareholder. On paper, Iâmââ You almost couldnât say it. âIâm the CEO.â
Bucky went very still. âYouâre what.â
You squeezed your eyes shut. âNot publicly. Not yet. My grandfather is stillâ heâs still holding the front. Heâs been⊠pulling strings to keep my name out of it. To keep me hidden.â
Steveâs voice was soft, but you heard the sting under it. âAll this time?â
You nodded, eyes still closed. âAll this time.â
Buckyâs hand flexed against your back, the only sign of what he was feeling.
You forced yourself to continue. âI started working in beauty because I wanted to. I love it. I loveââ Your voice cracked. âI love being there with you. With the team. I love doing something that feels real.â
Steveâs breath left him slowly. âAnd the calls.â
âThe calls are because he fell,â you said quickly, because you needed them to understand the urgency. âIt was just his ankle. A sprain. But it scared him. It reminded him he canât do this forever. He⊠he told me itâs time.â
Buckyâs voice came sharper now, anger finally surfacing â not directed at you exactly, but at the whole situation. âSo thatâs it? Youâre just gonna⊠step out of this and become some corporate queen overnight?â
You flinched. âI donât want to.â
Steveâs hand tightened briefly, then relaxed. âWhy didnât you tell us?â he asked, and the hurt in his voice made your throat burn.
You opened your eyes finally and stared at the city lights beyond your windows. âBecause I was scared.â
Bucky let out a rough breath. âScared of what?â
You laughed weakly, and it sounded like a broken thing. âScared that it wouldnât be⊠real. That youâd look at me and seeââ You gestured vaguely at the penthouse, the height, the space, the evidence. âAll of this.â
Steveâs voice went quieter, almost hoarse. âAnd you think we would?â
You couldnât look at him. âI donât know. I didnât want to find out.â
Buckyâs anger sharpened, finally finding words. âYou thought weâd what?â he demanded, and there was pain under it. âSell you to the highest bidder? Start kissing up because youâve got money and connections?â
Your eyes snapped to his, startled by the rawness. âNoââ
âBecause thatâs what it sounds like,â Bucky said, jaw tight. âLike you didnât trust us enough to believe we could just⊠like you.â
Steveâs hand moved, rubbing slow circles between your shoulder blades like he was trying to keep the moment from tipping into something you couldnât come back from. But his voice, when he spoke, held its own wound.
âYou think Iâve been flirting with you because of your status?â Steve asked softly.
The tenderness of the question nearly broke you.
You shook your head fast. âNo. God, no. Steveââ
âThen why,â he murmured, eyes searching your face, âdid you keep us out?â
Your composure finally cracked.
You pressed a hand over your mouth, but the words pushed through anyway, trembling and urgent.
âBecause I wanted it to be real,â you whispered, and your voice shattered on the last word. âI wanted to be sure that when you looked at meâ when you smiled at meâ when youââ You swallowed hard, eyes burning. âWhen you cared⊠it was because it was me.â
Buckyâs expression faltered, anger shifting into something else â something like understanding, laced with guilt.
Steveâs eyes softened immediately, heartbreak and empathy tangled together.
You kept going because stopping would mean drowning. âPeople approach me differently when they know,â you said, voice shaking. âThey laugh at jokes that arenât funny. They touch my arm too much. They offer things they wouldnât offer otherwise. They say my name like itâs a key.â You breathed in, sharp. âI didnât want that. I didnât want to wonder if every kind thing was⊠bought.â
Buckyâs jaw worked, like he was chewing through his own emotions. âSo you decided to lie,â he said, quieter now.
You nodded, tears slipping free despite you trying to hold them back. âYes.â
Steveâs hand left your back for the first time, and your chest clenched â until he brought it around to your shoulder, fingers gently curling there, grounding you. âHey,â he murmured.
You looked at him, and the hurt in his eyes made you feel sick.
Steve spoke first â exactly like youâd imagined, except softer. âDo you think,â he asked, voice careful, âthat this changes the feelings we have for you?â
The question punched the air out of your lungs.
You stared at him, stunned. âSteveâŠâ
Bucky let out a breath that sounded like frustration at himself. âThatâs what youâre worried about?â he muttered, but there was no bite left in it. Only pain. âYou really think weâre that shallow.â
You shook your head helplessly. âI donât think youâre shallow. I think⊠people change. They can. Even good people.â
Steveâs gaze held yours, steady. âWeâre not asking you to tell us your bank balance,â he said softly. âOr your last name. Or what your board wants.â
Buckyâs hand pressed more firmly into your back, warm and solid. âWeâre asking you to let us stay,â he said, voice rough.
The words landed so gently they hurt.
You blinked hard. âStay,â you repeated, because you needed to hear it in your own voice to believe it.
Steve nodded. âStay,â he echoed, and his thumb brushed your shoulder in a quiet, reassuring stroke. âIf you want us to.â
Buckyâs gaze was fierce but soft around the edges now. âWeâre disappointed,â he admitted, honest. âBecause you didnât trust us.â
Steve added, quietly, âIt stings.â
You swallowed a sob. âIâm sorry.â
Bucky huffed, not unkind. âYeah. We can tell.â
Steve leaned closer, his forehead almost touching yours, his voice low enough it felt like a secret. âJust⊠donât make the decision for us,â he said. âDonât decide weâll leave before weâve even had the chance to choose.â
Buckyâs hand stayed at your back, steady. âAnd donât disappear again without saying something,â he murmured. âEven if itâs justâ âIâm okay. Iâll explain laterâ.â
You nodded quickly, tears still falling. âI can do that,â you whispered. âI can. I promise.â
Steveâs mouth softened into the faintest smile, sad but real. âThatâs all we need right now.â
Bucky let out a slow breath, shoulders finally easing. âYeah,â he agreed, quieter. âWe donât need the whole story tonight.â
Steveâs hand stayed on your shoulder, warm and sure. âWe just need you to let us be here.â
For the first time in days, the pressure inside your chest shifted â still there, still heavy, but no longer crushing you alone.
You sat between them on the couch in your too-big penthouse, city lights sprawled below like a thousand eyes, and somehow â despite everything â your world felt a fraction less lonely.
You leaned back, letting both of their hands steady you, and whispered the truth youâd been too afraid to believe.
âOkay,â you said. âYou can stay.â
You lifted your head toward Bucky, wiping at the dampness on your cheek with the back of your hand as if you could rub the vulnerability away. Your voice still shook when you spoke, betraying you in a way you couldnât control.
âSoâŠâ you began, and the word snagged on your throat. You swallowed, forcing yourself to meet his eyes. âYour feelings?â
There was hope there, unmistakable. A fragile thing perched on the edge of your confession, waiting to be pushed one way or the other.
Buckyâs mouth twisted. For a second he looked like he didnât know what to do with that hope â like it made him angry simply because it existed at all, because you had ever been forced to doubt it. He grimaced, and his gaze flicked sharply toward Steve, the kind of look that carried a whole argument without a single word.
Steve, for his part, only lifted his brows a fraction, expression caught somewhere between exasperation and fondness, as if Buckyâs dramatics were the most predictable thing in the world.
Bucky huffed, the sound more breath than laugh, and then he looked back at you. The edge in his face softened â not all at once, but enough that you felt your chest loosen by a hair.
âYou didnât seriously think,â he said, voice rough, âthat Iâd become punctual.â
The line was so Bucky that it almost made you cry again â because it was a joke, and it was also an admission, and it was also his way of saying he was still here, still himself, still yours in the sense heâd been circling for months.
A quiet laugh slipped out of you, shaky but real. It sounded strange in the wide, expensive room, like something too human for all the glass and skyline.
Buckyâs gaze held yours. âI wanted to spend time with you,â he added, and there was no joke in that part. Just the truth, laid down like something solid.
âOh,â you breathed, caught off guard by how simple it was.
Buckyâs eyes narrowed in mock disbelief, and he leaned in a fraction. âYeah,â he shot back, like youâd missed something painfully obvious. âOh.â
The word landed with the kind of blunt affection that made your stomach flip. It didnât sound like a tease. It sounded like Bucky refusing to let you make yourself small.
You turned your head toward Steve, still half expecting the floor to give out beneath you. Your expression must have been openly questioning, because Steveâs reaction was immediate: he looked at you like the answer had been sitting in front of you for months and you were only just now daring to read it.
He rolled his eyes â barely, a soft gesture of long-suffering patience â then his gaze warmed.
As if, in his mind, there had never been any question at all.
Steve leaned toward you slowly, deliberately, giving you time to pull away if you wanted, giving you control. His hand came up to your cheek, thumb brushing the tear track with a gentleness that made your lungs forget how to work.
You didnât move away.
You didnât flinch.
You let him.
His mouth brushed yours, soft at first â careful, almost reverent. It wasnât a kiss meant to claim. It was a kiss meant to reassure. A quiet promise pressed into your lips: Iâm here. I mean it.
Your eyes fluttered shut. You tasted him â clean and warm, faintly mint from whatever heâd been chewing earlier to keep his mouth from drying out under studio lights. His other hand settled at the base of your neck, steady, grounding.
When he deepened the kiss, it was still tender. Still slow. Still a choice. His lips moved with yours like he was trying to memorize the shape of this moment, as if heâd been holding himself back for so long that he didnât trust it was real.
You made a small sound you hadnât meant to let out, and Steve eased closer in response, as if that sound had been permission.
The kiss ended gently, not snapped off, not stolen. Steve stayed close, forehead nearly touching yours, his thumb still resting on your cheek.
For one suspended second, you were aware of everything: the weight of Buckyâs hand still at your back, the warmth of Steveâs palm on your face, the city lights outside the window watching like a thousand distant witnesses.
Then Bucky moved.
He shifted closer, and his hand slid from the small of your back to your shoulder â firm, insistent, like he was reminding you that he was real too. Before you could even turn fully, he hooked two fingers under your chin and tugged your face toward him with unmistakable confidence.
âHey,â he murmured, voice low, as if he was talking to only you even though Steve sat right there.
You barely had time to inhale.
Bucky kissed you.
It was different from Steve â less careful, more immediate. Not rough, not aggressive, but charged with all the things he hadnât said: the jealousy, the fear, the frustration, the aching need to know he hadnât been imagining you. His mouth met yours like he was proving a point, like he was refusing to let you doubt him ever again.
His lips were warm, his stubble faint against your skin. One hand stayed at your jaw, the other sliding behind your neck, fingers splaying there with a possessive steadiness that made your pulse jump.
You melted into it before you could think too hard, letting yourself be kissed, letting yourself be held in the way youâd been starving for without admitting it.
When he finally pulled back, he didnât go far. His forehead hovered near yours, his breath warm against your mouth.
His eyes searched your face with an intensity that was almost painful.
âThere,â Bucky muttered, as if that settled everything. As if it should have been obvious.
Steve let out a soft sound â something between a laugh and a sigh â and his hand slid from your cheek to your shoulder, anchoring you again.
You sat between them on the couch, still trembling, lips tingling, cheeks damp, your heart loud in your ears.
And for the first time since the secret had started crushing your ribs, you felt it â clear and undeniable.
They werenât here because of your money. They were here because of you. Both of them.
You remained seated on the expansive leather couch in your penthouse, nestled snugly between Steve and Bucky, their warm bodies pressing close on either side of you. The city lights twinkled through the floor-to-ceiling windows, casting a soft glow over the room, but your focus stayed locked on the heat radiating from the two men who had just kissed you.
âOkay,â you murmured, your eyelids fluttering shut as you tried to steady your racing heart. âOkay.â
Bucky's voice came low and gentle, his fingers shifting from the small of your back to rest lightly on your knee, sending a spark through your skin. âYou okay?â
âI... Yes, I think...â you replied, your eyes still closed, the world narrowing to the sensations overwhelming you. âMaybe itâs just... a little too much.â
You felt Steve lean in before you saw him, his broad chest brushing against your shoulder, his warm breath ghosting over the sensitive skin of your neck. A shiver raced down your spine, raising goosebumps in its wake.
âDo you want us to stop?â he asked, his voice husky with concern and something deeper, more primal.
âNo!â
The word burst from you as your eyes snapped open, and you turned toward him.
His face hovered mere millimeters from yours, blue eyes dark with desire, lips parted slightly. This time, you closed the distance yourself, capturing his mouth in a fierce kiss. Your lips moved against his with urgent need, tongues tangling as his hand cupped your cheek, pulling you deeper into the heat of it. He tasted like mint and promise, his shaved chin grazing your skin in a delicious scrape.
When you finally broke away, breathless and flushed, you turned your head to Bucky. His gaze burned into you, intense and waiting.
You leaned in without hesitation, pressing your lips to his in a kiss that started soft but quickly ignited. Bucky's hand on your knee tightened, sliding up your thigh just enough to make your pulse thunder, while his other arm wrapped around your waist, drawing you closer. His kiss was slower, more teasing, nipping at your lower lip before delving deeper, exploring with a hunger that matched your own.
Pulling back slightly, you searched their faces, your voice emerging almost timidly amid the pounding of your heart.
âDo you want to go to the bedroom?â
Bucky rose from the couch first, his strong hand enveloping yours as he pulled you gently to your feet, his grip firm yet tender. The heat of his palm sent a fresh wave of anticipation through you.
Steve followed suit, standing tall and broad-shouldered, his eyes never leaving yours as you led the way down the hallway, your baskets padding softly over the polished marble floors.
The bedroom awaited at the end, a vast sanctuary that mirrored the opulence of the penthouse â king-sized bed draped in silk sheets, walls lined with abstract art, and a massive window overlooking the glittering skyline. Dim lights flickered on automatically, bathing the space in a warm, inviting glow.
As soon as the door clicked shut behind you, Bucky spun you around and pressed your back flush against his solid chest. His arms wrapped around your waist, holding you steady while his chin rested on your shoulder, forcing your gaze toward Steve.
âWatch him,â Bucky murmured, his voice a low rumble against your ear.
Steve stood at the foot of the bed, his fingers already tugging at the hem of his shirt, peeling it up and over his head in one fluid motion.
You devoured the sight of him â his chiseled abs flexing under golden skin, the V of his hips dipping into his jeans, the bulge already straining against the fabric. He kicked off his shoes next, then unbuckled his belt with deliberate slowness, letting his pants slide down his muscular thighs to pool at his feet.
Bucky's breath was hot on your neck as he leaned in closer, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
âWe've talked about this for months,â he whispered, his words laced with raw hunger.
âSteve wants to pin you down and fuck your mouth while I spread your legs and lick your pussy until you scream. We've imagined burying our cocks inside you, one after the other, filling you up until you're dripping with our cum. Taking turns sucking on your tits, biting your neck, making you beg for more.â
His voice dropped even lower, vibrating through you.
âAnd that's just the start⊠we're gonna make you come so hard you forget your own name.â
Your body responded instantly, a flush creeping up your chest as arousal pooled between your thighs.
Bucky's hands moved with expert precision, starting at the top button of your blouse. He worked them open one by one, agonizingly slow, exposing inch after inch of your skin to the cool air. The fabric parted to reveal your lace bra, the sheer material doing little to hide the hardening peaks of your nipples.
He shrugged the blouse off your shoulders, letting it fall to the floor in a whisper of silk. Then his fingers hooked into the waistband of your pants, sliding them down your hips and over your ass, the denim dragging against your skin until you stepped out of them, leaving you standing there in nothing but your bra and matching lace panties, the fabric already damp with your need.
Steve stepped forward now, clad only in his tight black boxers that outlined the thick length of his cock pressing insistently against the cotton. He took over seamlessly, his large hands replacing Bucky's as he cupped your face and kissed you deeply, his tongue sweeping into your mouth with possessive strokes.
Bucky released you reluctantly, stepping back to strip off his own shirt, revealing the sculpted planes of his torso, the small patch of dark hair on his chest adding to his rugged allure. He unfastened his jeans next, shoving them down along with his underwear, his hard cock springing free â long and thick, veins pulsing along its length as he stroked himself once, eyes locked on you.
Steve broke the kiss, trailing his lips down your jaw to your collarbone, nipping lightly as his hands roamed your sides, thumbs brushing the undersides of your breasts. Bucky watched, his breathing heavy, as he closed the distance again, his naked body pressing against your back once more. The heat of his erection nudged against your ass through the thin lace, promising more to come.
Steve's hands slid down your sides, his fingers tracing the curve of your hips as he pressed his body against your front, sandwiching you firmly between him and Bucky. The heat from both men enveloped you, their hard cocks trapped against your lace-covered ass and belly, throbbing with need.
Bucky's lips found the nape of your neck first, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin while Steve captured your mouth in a deep, demanding kiss, his tongue plunging inside to tangle with yours. You moaned into him, the sound muffled as Bucky's mouth trailed up to your ear, his teeth grazing the lobe.
They switched seamlessly â Steve pulled back, his blue eyes dark with lust, and Bucky turned your head toward him, claiming your lips with a fierce hunger that left you breathless. His stubble scraped your chin as he devoured you, one hand cupping your jaw while Steve took his turn at your neck, his breath hot and ragged against your pulse.
Back and forth they went, their mouths alternating on yours, on your throat, your shoulders â kisses turning sloppy and urgent, tongues licking and teeth biting until your head spun in a haze of sensation. Air grew scarce in your lungs, each inhale shallow and desperate, your body arching instinctively between them, seeking more friction against their straining erections.
Finally, Steve scooped you up effortlessly, his arms banding around your waist as he carried you to the bed, Bucky's hand lingering on your thigh the whole way. They lowered you onto the silk sheets, the cool fabric a stark contrast to the fire in your veins.
Steve settled on your left, Bucky on your right, their bodies framing yours like bookends.
Bucky's fingers hooked into the straps of your bra first, sliding them down your shoulders with deliberate care, unhooking the clasp at your back. The lace fell away, exposing your breasts to their hungry gazes, nipples already pebbled and aching.
Steve leaned in to kiss you softly as Bucky peeled the bra free, then together they tugged your panties down your legs, the damp fabric whispering over your skin until you lay completely bare before them.
Your heart hammered in your chest as they both shifted closer, their naked forms pressing against your sides â Steve's broad chest to your left breast, Bucky's leaner muscles to your right. Each man gathered saliva on his fingertip, the wet sheen glistening in the low light, before trailing their hands down your body.
Bucky's mouth latched onto your right nipple, sucking hard and swirling his tongue around the tight bud, while Steve mirrored him on the left, his lips sealing over the peak with a gentle pull that sent sparks straight to your core.
At the same moment, their index fingers pressed against your slick folds, parting them easily before sliding deep into your pussy. The dual intrusion stretched you just right, their digits thick and insistent as they curled inside, stroking your inner walls in unison.
You gasped, hips bucking up off the bed as pleasure coiled tight in your belly.
Their thumbs joined the rhythm, alternating strokes over your swollen clit â Steve's callused pad circling first, firm and teasing, then Bucky's taking over with lighter, flicking pressure that made your thighs tremble.
They pumped their fingers in and out, scissoring them occasionally to hit that sensitive spot deeper inside, all while their mouths worked your breasts relentlessly, sucking and nibbling until your skin flushed red from their attention.
The room filled with the wet sounds of their fingers thrusting into your soaking heat, your moans growing louder, body writhing between them as the tension built toward an inevitable peak.
The words tumbled from your lips in a breathless rush, your voice cracking with desperation as waves of pleasure crashed over you.
âGuys... I... Oh my god, don't stop!â
Your body tensed between them, muscles coiling tight as the dual thrust of their fingers drove you higher, their thumbs flicking relentlessly over your clit in perfect alternation. Steve's mouth pulled harder on your left nipple, teeth grazing the sensitive tip, while Bucky's tongue lashed at the right, sucking with a wet, insistent rhythm that matched the pump of his digit inside you.
The pressure built unbearably, your pussy clenching around their invading fingers, slick walls fluttering as the orgasm ripped through you like lightning.
You came hard, a sharp cry escaping your throat as your hips jerked upward, grinding against their hands. Juices flooded over their knuckles, soaking the sheets beneath you, and they didn't let up â fingers curling deeper to stroke that spongy spot inside, thumbs pressing firm circles on your throbbing clit to draw out every shuddering pulse.
Your vision blurred, toes curling into the mattress as ecstasy pulsed from your core outward, leaving your limbs trembling and weak. They rode the waves with you, their free hands roaming your sides, holding you steady through the aftershocks until the sensitivity peaked, your oversensitive nerves screaming for mercy.
A plaintive whimper slipped out, high and needy, your body arching away instinctively as the pleasure tipped into exquisite torment.
Only then did they ease back. Steve released your nipple with a soft pop, the cool air hitting the wet, reddened peak and making you shiver. Bucky followed suit, his lips leaving a glistening trail of saliva across your chest.
Slowly, they withdrew their fingers from your spasming pussy, the wet slide pulling a final gasp from you.
You watched through half-lidded eyes as they brought their digits to their mouths, Steve's blue gaze locking onto yours while he sucked his index clean, tongue swirling around it with deliberate hunger. Bucky mirrored him, licking his finger from base to tip, eyes dark and feral as he savored your taste, a low groan rumbling in his throat.
Exhaustion tugged at you, and you let your eyelids flutter shut, chest heaving as you caught your breath amid the lingering haze of bliss. The room smelled of sex â musk and sweat and your arousal hanging thick in the air.
After a moment, you forced the words out, voice husky and spent.
âThere are condoms in the nightstand.â
Fabric rustled beside you, the soft snap of elastic bands as Steve shoved his boxers down and off. Curiosity â and fresh heat â stirred low in your belly, and you cracked your eyes open, gaze immediately drawn to the sight before you.
Steve's cock stood proud and thick, veins bulging along the length, the flushed head already beading with pre-cum. It bobbed slightly as he shifted, easily nine inches of rigid flesh curving upward from a nest of trimmed dark hair.
You bit your lower lip hard, a fresh ache blooming between your thighs at the sheer size of him, imagining how it would feel stretching you open.
He caught your stare, a slow, confident smile spreading across his face, dimples flashing in the dim light.
âLike what you see, doll?â he murmured, voice rough with want.
Without breaking eye contact, he rose to his knees on the bed, the mattress dipping under his weight, his erection jutting forward like an invitation. Emboldened, you pushed yourself up, turning to face him on all fours, knees sinking into the silk as your ass lifted instinctively. Your tongue darted out, flat and eager, hovering just inches from the tip of his cock, ready to taste the salt of him.
Behind you, Bucky moved with purpose.
You heard the crinkle of foil from the nightstand drawer, then the quick tear as he sheathed himself in latex, rolling the condom down his length with practiced ease. His left arm brushed your hip as he positioned himself at your rear, the heat of his body contrasting sharply with yours.
The blunt head of his cock nudged your soaked entrance, slick with your recent release, teasing the folds with shallow dips that parted you but didn't enter. He rocked forward just enough to glide the tip along your slit, bumping your still-sensitive clit on each pass, drawing a needy whine from your throat.
âPatience, sweetheart,â Bucky rasped, his free hand gripping your ass cheek, spreading you wider. âWe're gonna fill you up just right.â
The promise hung heavy, his glans pressing firmer now, circling your hole in torturous circles that made your hips twitch back toward him, begging for more.
Steve shifted closer on his knees, the mattress compressing under his solid frame as he guided his thick cock toward your waiting mouth. The swollen head brushed your extended tongue, warm and velvety against the flat surface, a bead of pre-cum smearing salty across your taste buds.
You lapped at it tentatively, your tongue flicking upward in slow, deliberate strokes along the underside, tracing the prominent vein that pulsed with his heartbeat.
He shivered visibly, a low hiss escaping through clenched teeth, his abs tightening as the sensation shot straight to his core. His hand tangled gently in your hair, not pulling, just holding, fingers threading through the strands to anchor himself.
Behind you, Bucky gripped your hips with both hands and thrust forward with controlled force.
The broad head of his sheathed cock breached your entrance, stretching the slick ring of muscle just enough to sink the tip inside. Your pussy clenched around the intrusion, walls fluttering from your recent climax, and he swore under his breath, a rough fuck that rumbled deep in his chest.
The stretch burned sweetly, your body yielding to him inch by inch as he held still, letting you adjust to the girth filling your soaked heat.
Steve's eyes flicked to Bucky, curiosity and shared hunger darkening his gaze.
âSo, what does she feel like?â he asked, voice gravelly, his cock twitching against your tongue as he awaited the answer.
Bucky exhaled sharply, his fingers digging into your skin as he savored the tight grip of your pussy hugging his tip.
âEven better than I imagined,â he admitted, the words laced with raw awe, his hips rocking minutely to nudge deeper without fully committing yet.
Seizing the momentary distraction, you parted your lips wider and drew the head of Steve's cock into your mouth, sealing around it with a soft suck. Your tongue swirled over the slit, coaxing more pre-cum onto your palate, the musky flavor flooding your senses.
Steve's focus snapped back to you instantly, his breath hitching as he stared down, pupils blown wide with lust.
The sight of your lips stretched around his shaft, cheeks hollowing slightly as you nursed on the tip, hit him like a punch â his cock jerked in your mouth, thickening further against your tongue. You could swear it drove him wild, the way his thighs tensed, muscles coiling as if he fought the urge to thrust deeper right then.
A guttural groan tore from his throat, his free hand fisting the sheets beside your knee, knuckles whitening.
âGod, doll... just like that,â he rasped, voice breaking on the edge of control, his gaze locked on the erotic vision of you taking him in.
Bucky eased forward with agonizing patience, his hips rolling in a measured glide that buried the full length of his sheathed cock deep inside your pulsing core.
Inch by inch, he stretched you wide, the thick shaft dragging along your sensitive walls, filling every crevice until his pelvis pressed flush against your ass. The slow invasion sent sparks of pleasure radiating through your belly, your inner muscles clenching greedily around him, milking the heat of his body through the thin barrier.
He paused there, fully seated, his breath coming in ragged bursts against your shoulder as he savored the velvet grip enveloping him completely.
The sensation overwhelmed you, a deep, throbbing fullness that tore a muffled moan from your throat, the vibration humming straight down Steve's cock still nestled in your mouth. Steve whined sharply, a desperate sound that echoed in the dim room, his head dropping back on his broad shoulders, blond strands falling across his forehead.
His fingers tightened in your hair, not yanking but holding firm, as if anchoring himself against the wave of ecstasy your hum triggered.
The two men exchanged a heated glance over your body, a silent agreement passing between them as they set the pace. They moved in unison, deliberate and unhurried, drawing out each thrust and retreat like they intended to etch the moment into eternity.
Bucky pulled back first, almost withdrawing entirely before sliding home again in that same torturous slowness, his cock gliding through your slick folds with a wet, obscene sound. Steve mirrored him from the front, withdrawing from your lips just enough to let you taste the air before pushing forward, feeding more of his rigid length past your teeth.
The rhythm they imposed was excruciatingly languid, every motion designed to build the fire without letting it blaze, hips rocking in sync to keep you suspended on the edge of madness.
You had expected Bucky to tease relentlessly, to draw out whimpers with playful denial, but instead, he proved achingly gentle in his touch. His hands roamed your sides with feather-light strokes, thumbs circling the dip of your waist as he held you steady, his body molding to yours like a protective shield.
Yet his voice dipped into filthy territory, words spilling from his lips in a husky murmur against your ear.
âFuck, you're so damn tight around me, sweetheartâ squeezing like you never want me to leave this perfect little pussy,â he groaned, the praise laced with raw vulgarity that made your cheeks burn even as it stoked the heat between your thighs.
Each slow thrust punctuated his dirty confessions, his breath hot on your skin as he nuzzled your neck, tender kisses blending with the lewd rhythm.
Steve's approach contrasted sharply, his movements carrying a rougher edge that bordered on urgency. He gripped your jaw with one large hand, tilting your head to take him deeper, his hips snapping forward in short, insistent bucks that tested your limits without mercy.
The brusque shift of his cock in your mouth stretched your lips taut, saliva glistening along his shaft as he claimed more territory. But his words flowed like honeyed worship, soft and reverent amid the intensity.
âThat's it, babyâ God, your mouth feels like heaven, taking me so deep and sweet,â he praised, voice thick with awe, blue eyes locking onto yours whenever he could.
âLook at you, sucking me like you were made for it... so fucking good, doll, don't stop.â His free hand stroked your cheek almost reverently, thumb brushing away a stray tear of effort, the tenderness in his tone clashing deliciously with the firm way he fucked your face.
Trapped between them, your body became a conduit for their shared desire, every slow plunge from Bucky sending ripples up your spine that made you hollow your cheeks around Steve.
The room filled with the symphony of their low grunts and your stifled gasps, the air thick with the scent of sweat and arousal. Bucky's fingers traced lazy patterns on your hip, grounding you as he whispered more obscenities â âGonna fill this up slow, make you feel every inch owning youâ â while Steve's praises escalated, urging you on with breathless adoration.
The deliberate pace frayed your nerves, pleasure coiling tighter with each passing second, your hands clutching at the sheets as you surrendered to the exquisite torment they wove around you.
Steve's control shattered first, his body tensing like a coiled spring as the slow, deliberate rhythm pushed him over the edge. His fingers dug into your scalp, holding you steady as his cock throbbed wildly against your tongue, the first hot spurt of cum flooding your mouth in thick ropes.
You swallowed instinctively around him, the salty tang coating your throat while he groaned low and guttural, hips jerking forward in shallow pumps to empty himself completely.
âFuck, yesâ take it all, just like that,â he rasped, voice breaking on the words, his blue eyes squeezing shut in bliss.
Wave after wave pulsed from him, filling your senses until he finally stilled, chest heaving as he eased back, his softening length slipping free with a wet pop, a thin strand of saliva and seed connecting you for a lingering second before it broke.
With gentle hands, Steve pulled you upright, guiding your body to kneel on the rumpled sheets, your knees sinking more into the mattress.
He positioned you so your back pressed flush against Bucky's solid chest, the shift altering the angle of Bucky's cock buried deep in your pussy. The new tilt drove him even deeper, the head nudging a spot that sent electric jolts through your core, ripping a fresh moan from your lips as your walls fluttered around his girth.
Bucky's arms wrapped around your waist from behind, steadying you, his breath warm against your neck as he adjusted to the change, the fullness now pressing insistently against your front wall.
Steve closed the distance immediately, his naked form slotting against your front, the heat of his skin searing into yours.
He captured your mouth in a fierce kiss, lips crashing together with unrestrained hunger, his tongue delving deep to taste the remnants of himself on you. The kiss muffled your whimpers, his free hand roaming down your belly to find your swollen clit, fingers circling the sensitive nub with feather-soft pressure that built the pressure coiling inside you.
Bucky, sensing the escalation, quickened his pace just a fraction, his hips snapping forward in firmer, more insistent strokes that made his cock drag through your slick channel with audible slaps.
Each thrust from behind rocked you into Steve's touch, the dual assault of gentle rubs and deepening penetration fraying your composure thread by thread.
The combined sensations overwhelmed you, pleasure cresting like a tidal wave as Steve's fingers worked your clit in steady, teasing swirls, Bucky's cock pistoning with growing urgency.
Your body arched between them, muscles locking as orgasm ripped through you, your pussy clamping down hard on Bucky in rhythmic spasms. You cried out into Steve's mouth, the sound swallowed by his kiss, waves of ecstasy pulsing from your core outward, soaking Bucky's shaft and the condom encasing it.
Your thighs trembled, nails scraping at Steve's shoulders as you rode the high, every nerve alight with shattering release.
Bucky lasted only moments longer, the vise-like grip of your climax pulling him under. He buried himself to the hilt with a strangled curse, his body shuddering against your back as he came, cock twitching deep inside you, filling the latex with his load.
âShit, that's itâ milking me dry,â he growled, voice rough with satisfaction, his hands gripping your hips to hold you impaled on him through the aftershocks. Steve broke the kiss to murmur encouragements against your jaw, his fingers slowing to a soothing stroke as you all caught your breath, bodies entangled in a sweaty, sated heap.
For a full minute, you remained locked together like that â kneeling in the aftermath, Steve's forehead resting against yours, Bucky's chin tucked over your shoulder, the three of you breathing in sync amid the quiet hum of the penthouse.
The air hung heavy with the musk of sex, your skin slick and flushed.
Finally, Bucky withdrew with a reluctant groan, his cock sliding free from your tender folds, leaving you achingly empty. He peeled off the condom carefully, tying it off before tossing it into a nearby wastebasket, then returned to the bed, pulling you down with him.
The room felt quieter after â like the city beyond your windows had finally decided to hush for you.
You all collapsed onto the sheets in a tangle of limbs, Steve on one side, Bucky on the other, your head pillowed on Bucky's chest while Steve draped an arm across your waist. Their warmth enveloped you, hearts pounding in unison as the intensity ebbed into languid contentment, fingers tracing idle patterns on your skin in the soft glow of the bedside lamp.
For a while, you let yourself drift in that warmth, letting your breathing find the same slow rhythm as theirs. Buckyâs chest rose and fell beneath your cheek, steady as a metronome. Steveâs hand rested at your hip, heavy and sure, his thumb moving in absent little arcs like he couldnât help himself.
It was safe here. It felt safe.
Which was exactly why the fear had room to creep back in.
You swallowed, throat suddenly tight again, and shifted just enough to look up at them. Buckyâs arm tightened around your shoulders automatically, protective even in sleep-softness. Steveâs head lifted from the pillow, eyes half-lidded, his expression still warm in that way that made you feel like you belonged.
You hesitated, and Steve noticed it instantly.
âWhat is it?â he asked quietly.
Buckyâs fingers stilled against your arm, then resumed, slower. âDonât tell me youâre gonna start checking emails,â he murmured, voice rough with exhaustion.
You huffed a breath that tried to be a laugh. âNo. I justâŠâ
You trailed off, unsure how to step into it without breaking whatever fragile peace youâd built tonight. The bedside lamp cast honeyed light across Steveâs face, caught the pale lines of his lashes. Buckyâs hair was a mess, his jaw shadowed, his mouth soft for once.
They looked too content. Too real.
And you were terrified of what tomorrow would do to it.
You pressed your palm lightly to Steveâs forearm where it lay across you, needing the contact like proof. âIâm still⊠stressed,â you admitted, the words coming out smaller than you wanted. âAbout whatâs coming. The handover. The announcement. The fact that everything is going to change.â
Steveâs arm tightened, just a fraction. âHey,â he said, gentle. âWeâre still here.â
âI know.â Your voice trembled anyway. âBut thatâs the thing. If Iâm stepping into that role, Iââ You swallowed. âI donât know what this is supposed to look like. For us.â
Buckyâs chest vibrated with a low hum that mightâve been a laugh if it hadnât sounded so tired. âThis,â he said, shifting his head slightly so he could look down at you, âlooks pretty good to me.â
You gave him a look that was half exasperation, half pleading. âBucky.â
His mouth twitched. âWhat? Iâm serious.â
Steveâs fingers slid up and down your side, slow and grounding. âTell us what you mean,â he said softly.
You took a breath, then another, trying to make your heart stop sprinting. âI meanâŠâ You stared at the shadowed ceiling for a second like the answer might be written there. âHow do you want me to handle it? Us. With everything thatâs going to happen.â
Neither of them interrupted. They just waited, patient in a way you still didnât feel you deserved.
You pushed forward anyway, because you needed to know.
âHow do we⊠qualify this?â you asked, voice quiet but firm enough not to disappear. âWhat are we to each other? What do we call each other?â
Buckyâs fingers paused again, then resumed their idle patterns â this time slower, almost thoughtful. Steveâs face softened so completely it made something inside you ache.
For a beat, neither of them spoke, and the silence wasnât heavy. It was careful. Like they were both choosing words that wouldnât scare you.
Bucky broke it first, as usual.
âYouâre really asking us to fill out a form right now?â he murmured, but his tone was gentle, not mocking.
Steve exhaled a quiet laugh. âBe nice.â
âI am being nice,â Bucky protested, then he looked down at you and the humor fell away, leaving only sincerity. âOkay,â he said, lower. âOkay. You want labels.â
You nodded once. âI want⊠clarity. Before other people decide it for us.â
Steveâs gaze sharpened at that, understanding exactly what you meant â press, boardrooms, rumors, the way your life would be audited by strangers.
âOkay,â Steve said again, like he was steadying you with the word. âThatâs fair.â
He shifted closer, propping himself on an elbow so he could really see you. His hand slid from your waist to your ribs, thumb pressing lightly there as if he could soothe the tension out of your body.
âWe donât have to make this complicated,â he said softly. âWe can take it one day at a time.â
Your chest tightened. âBut people will ask.â
Steveâs expression didnât harden, but it did sharpen with quiet certainty. âThen we answer on our terms.â
Buckyâs arm tightened around you. âYeah,â he added, voice rough. âAnd if anyone doesnât like our terms, they can choke on it.â
You snorted, despite yourself.
Steve shot Bucky a look. Bucky only shrugged, unapologetic.
You tried to smile, but the anxiety kept pressing. âI donât want you to feel like youâre⊠trapped in this,â you admitted. âOr like you have to hide. Or like itâs suddenly your problem because itâs my life.â
Buckyâs hand slid up your arm and squeezed gently. âWe already got dragged into your life months ago,â he said, and there was a softness under the bluntness. âYou donât get to pretend this is brand new.â
Steve nodded, eyes warm. âYouâre allowed to need us,â he murmured.
The words made your throat burn.
You blinked quickly, refusing to cry again. âI just donât know what to call you,â you whispered. âWhat to call⊠us.â
Bucky tilted his head, thinking. âYou can call me whenever you want,â he said, and the grin he tried to give you was lazy but didnât quite land because he was still too sincere under it.
âBucky,â Steve warned, affectionate.
âWhat?â Bucky muttered. âIt was funny.â
âIt was,â you admitted, and the laugh that escaped you was real this time â small, but real.
Steveâs gaze softened further. He leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead, lingering there as if he was imprinting it. âLook at me,â he said quietly.
You did.
His eyes were calm, steady, honest. No performance. No brightness for cameras. Just Steve.
âWe like you,â he said, as if it was the simplest thing in the world. âWe care about you. And weâre not going to suddenly stop because thereâs a title attached to your name.â
Bucky made a low, agreeing sound. âIf anything,â he added, âit just explains why youâve been acting like you were about to get sentenced to prison.â
You rolled your eyes, but your chest loosened a fraction. âIt feels like that.â
Steveâs thumb stroked your ribs, slow and soothing. âThen weâll make sure it doesnât,â he said.
Bucky shifted, propping himself up a little too, so you were no longer tucked against him without seeing his face. He looked at you with that intense, almost fierce honesty he saved for moments that mattered.
âYou want a label?â he asked. âHereâs one. Youâre ours.â
Your breath caught.
Steveâs expression didnât change in surprise. If anything, he looked like heâd been thinking the same thing and was only choosing gentler phrasing.
Buckyâs jaw tightened as if he was daring you to argue. âAnd weâre yours,â he added, quieter. âIf you want that.â
The vulnerability in that last part made your eyes sting.
Steve leaned closer, his voice soft but firm. âWe donât have to announce anything,â he said. âWe donât have to give the world a definition. But between us?â
He glanced at Bucky, and for once there was no tension in the look â just agreement.
âBetween us,â Steve continued, âweâre together.â
The word settled in your chest like something warm and heavy, like it belonged there.
Together.
You swallowed hard. âTogether,â you repeated.
Bucky huffed as if that was the only acceptable answer. âGood.â
You shifted slightly, curling your fingers into Steveâs sleeve where his arm rested across you. âOkay,â you said, voice shaking again, but this time with relief. âSo⊠if someone asks?â
Steveâs mouth tilted. âThen you can say weâre with you,â he replied.
Buckyâs brows lifted. âOr you can say weâre your boyfriends,â he offered, too casual for how closely he watched your reaction.
Steve made a face. âBoyfriends,â he repeated, like the word was unfamiliar on his tongue.
Bucky smirked. âWhat? Itâs accurate.â
Steve looked down at you, eyes soft. âIs that what you want to call us?â
Your heart stuttered. You stared at them â at Steveâs gentle steadiness, at Buckyâs fierce warmth â and felt something uncoil in you, slowly, like a knot finally loosening.
âYes,â you whispered. âI think⊠yes.â
Buckyâs grin turned genuine, bright in the lamplight. Steveâs expression softened into something almost relieved.
âGood,â Steve murmured, and kissed your temple.
Bucky leaned down and pressed a kiss to your hair, surprisingly gentle. âThen thatâs settled.â
You let out a long breath you didnât realize youâd been holding. The city still glittered beyond the windows, the future still waited with sharp edges and bright lights and people who would ask too many questions.
But for the first time, it didnât feel like you were facing it alone.
Steveâs arm tightened around your waist, pulling you closer. Buckyâs hand resumed its slow, absent tracing along your shoulder.
âTomorrow,â you whispered, âI have to go in. Thereâs a meeting.â
Steve hummed, calm. âOkay.â
Buckyâs voice was immediate. âWeâre coming with you.â
You blinked and lifted your head. âWhat?â
Bucky looked offended. âYou think weâre gonna let you walk into that alone after today?â
Steveâs mouth curved softly. âWe canât sit in the meeting,â he said, practical even now, âbut we can take you there. We can wait. We can be close.â
The warmth in your chest flared again, sharp and overwhelming. âYou donât have to.â
Steveâs gaze held yours. âWe want to.â
Buckyâs hand pressed into your shoulder, grounding. âLet us,â he said simply.
You nodded, a small motion that felt like surrender in the best way. âOkay,â you whispered. âOkay.â
Steve smiled, soft and certain. âThatâs my girl.â
Bucky snorted. âOur.â
Steve shot him a look. Bucky only grinned.
You laughed quietly, the sound dissolving the last of your tightness. You settled back into them, letting their warmth hold you steady, letting your eyes drift closed as their hands kept tracing gentle patterns like a promise.
For the first time in days, sleep didnât feel like something you had to earn.
can we pleaseee get a teaser of that overprotective bf steve later in the story?? pretty please with a cherry on top? đ„čđ„č
đïžâłđč ya know what? because you asked so sweetly && that last bully anon decided to pop up in my little world again, despite being banished from the realm ~ yes.
hereâs a singular snippet (the only sneak peak iâll give!) for my catching fire au. đ„đŠâđ„đ
here we goâŠ
Minutes passed.
Feet crunching in damp moss.Â
Thunder rolling without rainfall.
Your shallow breaths.Â
Magsâs soft humming under her breath, tuneless, calming.
Then Billy spoke again. âYou notice something? No rivers. No streams. No creeks. Not even a fucking puddle.â
Steve grunted, jaw tight. He had noticed. Every step theyâd taken, the ground had been dry. The air wet as a sponge, but the earth cracked, thirsty. Sweat beaded at their temples, their necks, their backsâŠ
All of you were drenched, and it was only thanks to perspiration.
âOnly way weâre gonna find water in a place like this?â Billy continued, tone calm but edged with intent. âHigh ground. Get above the canopy, see where it runs.â
Steve stopped walking.Â
He slowly turned his head, just enough to glare â because he already knew where this was going.
Sure enough, Billy jutted his chin at the nearest towering trunk. âYouâre good at climbing, right?â
There it was.
âNo,â Steve said immediately. âNot happening.â
Billy raised both hands, spear tucked under one arm. âJust a suggestion.â
âNot happening,â Steve repeated, voice steel. His arms tightened around you unconsciously.
âYou want us to find water or not?â Billy asked evenly.
âNot if it means handing her to you.â
Billyâs jaw ticked, but his voice stayed calm. âIâm not looking to score points here, Harrington. Iâm saying youâre the only one light enough, fast enough, to get up there â unlike me â without breaking your neck or the tree.â
âAnd while Iâm up there, whatâ? You hold her?â Steveâs laugh came sharp, humorless and refusing. âFuck that.â
âNot just me down here,â Billy reminded him, barely subduing his irritation as he took a beat. âMagsâll be right here.â
âSo?? She canât carry her if something happens.â
âŠokay fine, Billy didnât argue that.
And his silence said enough.
Steve just gave a gesture of his head, knowing heâd briefly stumped the west coast player. âGot any other brilliant ideas?â
The tension crackled sharply between them â their voices overlapping with Steveâs outright refusal, Billyâs steady reasoning, both men hardening in their stances. The storm above muttered louder, echoing their fight.
Mags stepped closer, her frail hand reaching up to your cheek. Her thumb brushed your clammy skin. You stirred faintly, eyelids fluttering, coughing soft and wet. Hoarse. She lifted one of the glowing petals, set it against your lips. It dissolved slowly. You swallowed, wincing⊠and Steveâs throat bobbed as he fought to keep his composure, his fury with Billy still colliding with the raw devastation of watching you suffer. Feeling you suffer.
Billyâs gaze flicked to you then. He frowned, taking a cautious step forward⊠real concern flickering in his expression. âSheâs clammy.â
âDonât fucking touch her,â Steve warned.
Billy ignored him. âYou know what this means, right?â
Steveâs eyes narrowed.
âRisk of infection,â Billy informed him warily. âAspiration pneumonia. Sets in fast. Twenty-four, forty-eight hours, maybe. High fever. Weakness. Coughing gets worse. Without antibioticsââ
âShut up.â
âItâs a bigger threat than any mutt theyâll throw at us.â Billyâs voice didnât rise. He just kept listing the facts, steady as a metronome. âSheâs alive, yeah. But it doesnât change the fact sheâs an open wound, hanging by a thread.â
Steveâs face went stone-white. His grip on you tightened so hard it almost hurt. He wanted to scream, to tear the words out of Billyâs throat with his bare hands, but instead his voice cracked through clenched teeth. âWhy not just drop a fucking hospital into the arena while theyâre at it, huh? Paramedics, IV drips, the whole deal. Wouldnât that be fun for the cameras?â
Billy said nothing.
The silence stretched.Â
Steveâs voice shook when he filled it again. âYou think I donât already fucking know how bad it is? You think I donâtââ His throat closed. He bit down hard, forcing the tears back, grinding them into rage.
So, Billyâs tone shifted. Quiet, level...Â
âThen you know we need water. Not salt. Not nectar. Water. We find that, we can clean her up. Actually wash the sand out. Keep her ribs upright. Give her a real chance at making it.â
He waited, watching Steveâs eyes flick towards the ground, boring a hole into the mossy flooring at their feet as he held you, his mind elsewhere.
But Billy could tell that he was hearing him, so he dropped his voice another decimal, chancing one more small step forward. âAnd if you donât make it?⊠Then she definitely wonât.â
Steveâs jaw locked. His eyes flicked up, toward the canopy.Â
He felt the weight of the ink on his wrist, the robin tattoo hidden beneath his wetsuit sleeve. He closed his eyes for a second. Then two, then three. Hears her laugh in his head. Hears her voice asking, what the fuck are you waiting for, dingus?
Your breath shuddered against his chest.Â
Holding him. Grounding him. Reminding him.
Answering him, as if Robin Buckleyâs spirit speaks through youâŠ
Get your Edward Cullen ass up that tree, Harrington, or so help me God⊠Iâll haunt you in a lot worse ways, and trust meâyou know Iâve got ways, so get your hunky, spider-monkey junk up that trunkâyes, that rhymed!âŠ
Finally, he opened his eyes. And with one deep breath in, he leaned back â just enough to look down at you, seeing just how pale you are. How clammy you are, half-asleep against him. He leaned in close, whispering against your hair. âDove. Hey. Wake up a second.â
You stirred faintly, lashes lifting⊠gaze blurry but fixed on him as you looked up into his eyes with a tiny, scratchy hum.
ââŠI need you to listen, okay?â His voice was low, soft, breaking around the edges. âIâm gonna climb. Just for a bit. Get above the trees, see if I can spot anything. Water. Iâll be right back down.â His thumb stroked your jaw. âMagsâll be right here. She wonât leave your side. Billyâll be here too. Youâll be safe.â
You rasped faintly, the sound like sandpaper.Â
Then your head tilted the smallest nod, barely murmuring, ââŠhmâkayâŠcome b-backâŠtâmeâŠâ
Steveâs throat closed again. He pressed trembling kisses across your face â your temples, your nose, your cheekbones, every inch. Whispering between each one, âIâll come right back. I swear. I swear.â
Then he lifted his head, meeting Billyâs eyes with pure steel.
warnings: angst, temporary character death, hydra programming, winter soldier conditioning, medical trauma, panic, identity loss, shield containment, emotional hurt/comfort, canon-typical violence, and bucky loving steve so deeply it breaks every last piece of him
summary: on a mission, steveâs heart stops for four minutes, and when he wakes up, bucky is gone. in his place is the winter soldier, dragged back to the surface by a buried hydra failsafe that activates if steve dies. locked in an observation room with the man he loves wearing a strangerâs face, steve has one chance to talk bucky back before shield decides heâs too dangerous to save.
authors note: fun fact, i cried while writing this the entire time! but how can you not?!? this idea broke my heart and expected me to move on like it was just another day in the neighborhood!
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The first time Steveâs heart stopped, it was Buckyâs fault.
That was what Bucky would tell himself later, in the quiet between heartbeats. In those four minutes when the world narrowed to a monitorâs flatline and the taste of dust in his mouth, something old and terrible woke up inside his skull and said:
Theyâd gone in lightâjust the two of them, like the old days, slipping through the back door of a half-buried Hydra cache in the Carpathian foothills while the rest of the team handled evacuation on the village above.
âJust like Azzano,â Steve had said as they moved down the narrow concrete corridor, his shield strapped tight to his arm. âExcept youâre not punching Hitler for free this time. Iâm sure Stark will cut you a check.â
Bucky snorted, rifle held low and ready. âYeah, Iâll just run that through payroll. âHazard pay: emotional trauma, Nazis, and your stupid ass running toward explosions.ââ
Steve flashed him a grin over his shoulder, the faint green emergency lights throwing his features into sharp planes. âYou love my stupid ass.â
âTragic, isnât it?â Bucky muttered, because if he said yes out loud, the words might reshape the world.
Steveâs comm crackled. âRogers, Barnesâheat signatures are clustering in the central chamber,â Natashaâs voice came through, calm as ever. âLooks like they knew we were coming. Try not to make too much of a mess.â
Bucky rolled his eyes. âNo promises, Romanoff.â
They hit the chamber thirty seconds later: a circular room choked with cables and old Hydra tech, a huge reactor humming in the center like a live grenade. There were more men than the heat map had suggestedâhalf a dozen in front of them, half scrambling on catwalks above, and one at a control console whose fingers were moving way too fast.
âCap,â Bucky said.
âI see it.â Steve surged forward, shield up, a blue-and-red blur cutting through muzzle flashes and shouting as if heâd been born to carve a path between bullets. Maybe he had.
Bucky dropped three men in as many shots, then pivoted, the metal arm a seamless counterweight that turned him into something like grace. The last soldier on the catwalk went down, but not before he tossed a small, dark cylinder through the gap in the railing.
Bucky tracked it in the air and his stomach turned to ice.
âSteve!â he shouted, already moving. âCap, grenadeââ
He didnât make it.
Steve saw it a fraction of a second before Bucky did. His eyes went wideâand then he pivoted, faster than any human had a right to move, and leapt.
The grenade hit the metal floor near the base of the reactor. Steve was already there, shield flung down over it, body curling instinctively, a man-shaped barricade between the explosion and Buckyâs stupid, too-fragile heart.
The world went white.
Sound tore out of Buckyâs ears. For a moment, there was nothing: no up, no down, just pressure and heat and the sensation of being punched in the chest by a god.
He hit something hard. Concrete. His vision swam, a kaleidoscope of smoke and sparks and falling debris.
ââcky! Barnes, reportââ
Samâs voice rasped over the comm, half drowned in static.
Bucky coughed, chest burning, lungs trying to remember how to work. He pushed himself up, the metal arm biting into the buckling floor.
âSamââ He wheezed. âIâm fine. Steveââ
The smoke thinned just enough for him to see.
The reactor was half-shredded, spilling wires like guts. The far wall was blackened, concrete spiderwebbed with cracks. The grenade had turned the platform into twisted metal.
And Steve was lying on his back in the middle of it, shield a few feet away, thrown from his hand.
âSteve?â Buckyâs voice cracked.
He stumbled toward him, the world tilting. His ears were filled with the whine of overworked machinery, the chirping error tones of destroyed tech, the sharp, frantic beeping ofâ
Of the heart monitor clipped to Steveâs suit, blinking red on the HUD in Buckyâs visor.
HR: 220
HR: 190
HR: 140
HR: 52
HR: â
The line went flat.
âSteve!â Bucky dropped hard to his knees, fingers slippery on the front of Steveâs uniform. BloodâSteveâs, he realized distantlyâslicked his hand. âCâmon, punk, breathe, you with me, open your eyesââ
Steve didnât move.
His face was turned slightly toward Bucky, lashes leaving soft shadows on his cheeks. There was ash on his jaw. A smear of soot across his mouth. He looked almost peaceful, in the way that corpses did, whole and horribly still.
The monitor in Buckyâs visor wailed, a high, continuous shriek.
âBarnes!â Sam was shouting in his ear. âWhatâs your status? Iâm readingâJesus, Capâs vitals justââ
Emotion drained out of his limbs like water pouring off steel. His breathing slowed. The frantic shriek of the monitor became data; nothing more.
On a far edge of consciousness, Bucky heard himself make a noise, raw and guttural.
Then that voice, the one heâd tried so hard to bury under years of hard-won therapy and Wakandan sun, spoke againânot in his own rough Brooklyn drawl, but in clipped, precise Russian.
Asset WS-1 online. Echo Protocol engaged.
Objective: recover Subject Rogers and return to primary facility.
Secondary objective: neutralize interference.
Hands grabbed his shoulders, trying to push him back from Steve. âSir, we need roomââ
The Asset moved before the medic finished speaking.
He snapped the manâs wrist, eased him aside, and rose with Steveâs weight in his arms as if he weighed nothing. The shield lay dented a few feet away; the Asset snagged its strap with his metal hand, sliding it onto his back in one smooth motion.
âHeyâhey, Sergeant Barnes, you canât justââ
The second medic reached for Steve. The Asset pivoted, the rifle already up.
âInterference,â he said calmly, voice colder than the air. âStand down.â
The medic froze, eyes wide.
âBucky.â That was Natasha, slightly breathless, blood on her forehead, pistol aimed not at him but the floor in front of him. âYou donât want to do this. Stand down, we canââ
âBarnes is offline,â the Asset replied. He looked past her, eyes calculating exits, structural integrity, enemy positions. âYou will not impede the mission.â
Natasha swore in Russian under her breath. âSam, I need you in here. Now.â
âOn my way,â came Samâs voice.
The Asset adjusted his grip on Steve. Subjectâs vitals: absent. Body cooling. No immediate threat. Mission clock ticking.
Extract. Escape. Return to base.
He turned toward the nearest intact corridorâ
âand took three darts to the neck.
For a moment, nothing happened. His body absorbed tranquilizer cocktails that would have downed an elephant and kept walking, boots slicing through debris, Steveâs limp arm trailing.
Then someone behind him shouted, âDouble the dose!â and a voice he couldnât place said, âHeâs in Echo; heâs not going down easy.â
The fourth dart slid in just under the edge of his metal collar.
The world shimmered.
The asset took two more steps, each harder than the last. His fingers spasmed around Steveâs suit. His knees buckled.
He hit the ground with Steve still in his arms.
The last thing he registered before the sedatives dragged him under was the faint slap of gloved hands against Steveâs chest and a medicâs voice, furious and terrified:
âCâmon, Captain, stay with meâone, two, threeâcharge to 300, clearââ
Then, nothing.
Steve woke up to the sound of someone crying.
It took him a second to realize it wasnât out loud.
The beeping came first: the steady rise and fall of a heart monitor, high and impatient. Then the smell of antiseptic and plastic tubing, the drag of an oxygen cannula under his nose.
Med bay, his brain supplied, sluggish and surprised. Helicarrier? No⊠too quiet. Somewhere else. Back at HQ?
The crying wasnât in the room. It was inside his own chest, raw and keening, like his body remembered something his head hadnât caught up to yet.
He pried his eyes open.
The ceiling was plain white, a tile missing in one corner. There was a fluorescent light humming faintly overhead. To his right, an IV drip; to his left, a curtain half-drawn, shadows moving behind it.
His chest hurt.
Like heâd gone ten rounds with the Hulk and lost. Like someone had squeezed his heart in their fist.
He tried to speak.
What came out was a croak. âBuckââ
The curtain yanked back. Samâs face appeared, dark eyes wide and hard, mouth pressed in a line that had too much relief in it to be entirely annoyed.
âJesus,â Sam exhaled. âYou really donât know how to take a break, do you, man?â
Steve blinked. âSam?â His tongue felt too big. âWhatâwhat happened?â
The memory came in pieces: the reactor room, the grenade, the split-second choice. Buckyâs shout. Heat. Thenânothing.
His heart clenched, panic flaring. âBuckyââ
âHeâs alive,â Sam said quickly, like heâd been expecting the question. âBarnes is alive. HeâsâŠâ He hesitated.
The crying in Steveâs chest got louder.
âSam.â Steve forced his fingers to curl on the sheet, found them wrapped in tape and bruises from IVs, maybe defib paddles. âTell me.â
Samâs jaw flexed. âYour heart stopped, Cap. For four minutes. You were technically dead long enough to trigger some kind of⊠buried program in Barnesâ head. Echo Protocol, theyâre calling it.â
Steveâs blood ran cold. âEchoâŠ?â
ââIf Steve Rogers dies, the Winter Soldier retrieves the body,ââ Sam quoted, voice flat. âHydra failsafe. Apparently they really wanted their hands on a sample of that supersoldier serum. Didnât count on us having a full medical team on standby.â
Steve swallowed around the bile at the back of his throat. âHow bad?â
Sam scrubbed a hand over his face. For the first time, Steve saw the bruises blooming under his eye, the rip in his sleeve. âLevel-ten-Winter-Soldier bad. He picked you up and tried to walk out of a collapsing reactor with you like you were a duffel bag. Took enough tranqs to kill a small herd to drag him down. Medicine revived you.â He met Steveâs eyes. âBarnes didnât come back with you.â
The crying inside Steveâs chest sharpened into a cold, hard point of fear.
âWhere is he?â Steve pushed himself upright. His ribs screamed. Wires pulled at his skin. Sam made a protesting noise.
âHey, slow your roll. You flatlined, remember? You canât justââ
âSam.â Steve swung his legs over the side of the bed, the room spinning for a second. He gripped the rail and rode it out. âWhere. Is. He.â
Sam exhaled, giving up. âObservation room E. Theyâve got him sedated, restrained, and surrounded. Whatever this Echo thing is, it locked him in full Soldier mode. Theyâre⊠theyâre scared, Steve.â
âGood,â Steve said hoarsely. âThey should be. Heâs dangerous when heâs scared.â
âThatâs not what Iââ Sam broke off, shook his head. âFury wants to talk to you first.â
âOf course he does.â Steve slid off the bed. His knees threatened to give, but the serum kicked in, shoring him up, stitching broken things back together with obscene speed. âIâm fine.â
âYou are not fine.â
âIâm breathing,â Steve said. âThatâs more than I was a little while ago. Letâs go.â
Sam stared at him for a beat, then huffed a humorless laugh. âYou two are gonna be the death of me.â
He helped Steve into a shirt, ignoring the wince Steve couldnât entirely bite back when the fabric dragged over his bruised chest, then out into the corridor. The HQ wing was quieter than usual. Too quiet. Agents moved in pairs, heads bent, voices low. A couple of them looked up, startled, when they saw Steve walking, like they hadnât expected to see him again.
He mustâve looked a sight: pale, hospital band still around his wrist, hair a mess.
They reached a glass-walled conference room. Fury stood inside, hands braced on the table, Natasha leaning back in a chair with a bandage over her eyebrow. Maria Hill was there too, posture stiff. They all looked up when Steve entered.
âNo rest for the resurrected,â Fury said dryly. His one good eye scanned Steve head to toe, assessing. âYou stay dead in there for a full four minutes, Rogers?â
âApparently,â Steve said. âI donât recommend it.â
âNoted.â Fury straightened. âSit down before you fall down.â
Steve sat, mostly because his legs were starting to tremble. Sam took the chair beside him, a solid presence at his shoulder.
âBrief me,â Steve said. âEcho Protocol.â
Hill pulled up a holographic display. The screen filled with old Hydra schematics, curling Russian letters, and a small block of English text highlighted in red.
âRecovered from a Hydra archive in Siberia years ago,â she said. âWe thought it was theoretical. Some scientistâs pet project. âEcho Protocol: asset WS-1 to recover Subject: ROGERS, S., deceased, from field and return to primary facility for biological extraction.â Failed attempt to hedge their bets in case you died somewhere they couldnât scrape you off the pavement.â
âBiological extraction,â Steve repeated, stomach turning.
âSerum,â Natasha said quietly. âBlood. Bone marrow. Organ tissue. Whatever they could use.â
âYou werenât just a symbol to them,â Fury added. âYou were a resource. An investment. They wanted to make sure they got their ROI if you went boom.â
Steve swallowed. âAnd they buried the command in Bucky.â
âIn the Winter Soldier,â Fury corrected. âSpecifically. Which is what weâve got sitting in a box downstairs. The minute your vitals flatlined, some old dormant subroutine woke up and decided it was 1972 again and Hydra was still writing his orders.â
âHe tried to take me,â Steve said softly.
Natashaâs mouth twisted. âYeah. Nearly broke Doctor Harringtonâs arm in three places doing it.â She glanced at him. âYou know heâd do the same thing if the positions were reversed.â
âI know,â Steve said. âThatâs the problem.â
Hill tapped the display. âWe have him contained. But heâs not responding to any of the deprogramming triggers weâve used before. Whatever Echo is, itâs⊠sticky. It overrides other conditionals. As far as the Soldier is concerned, the mission is incomplete. His entire world is now âget Steve Rogersâ body back to Hydra.ââ
âAnd since Hydraâs in pieces and there is no âprimary facilityâ anymore,â Natasha added, âhis brain is stuck with an impossible task.â
âWhich makes him unpredictable,â Hill said. âVolatile. Dangerous.â
Steve heard what she wasnât saying.
âAnd expendable,â he finished for her.
Silence.
Furyâs jaw tightened. âBarnes is one of the most dangerous assets on the planet when heâs like this,â he said. âWeâve given him room because you insisted he was worth the risk, and so far, youâve been right. But Echo is a whole different animal. If we canât get him out of itâŠâ He spread his hands.
âYouâre gonna put him down,â Steve said, cold.
âWeâre going to keep this facility, and the people in it, safe.â Fury met his gaze steadily. âIf termination is the only way to do that, then yeah. Weâll do it.â
Steveâs fingers clenched on the edge of the table.
âHe didnât choose this,â he said. âHydra did. You know that.â
âI do,â Fury said quietly. âBut the people he could kill while heâs stuck as the Soldier? They didnât choose it either.â
Steve drew in a breath that scraped against bruised ribs. It hurt. Good. He deserved it.
âWhatâs my part?â he asked.
Natasha shared a look with Fury. âHe asked for you.â
Steveâs heart stuttered. âBucky did?â
âNot Bucky.â Natashaâs eyes were unreadable. âThe Soldier. First thing he did when he woke up in the observation box was check your status on the monitor. When he saw you were alive, he⊠recalculated.â She exhaled. âEcho mightâve triggered on your death, but it updated the mission with you breathing. âRecover Subject: Rogers, compromised, from enemy control.â Which, in his mind, is us.â
âLucky us,â Sam muttered.
âHeâs calmer now,â Natasha went on. âCold. Controlled. Sitting in restraints and watching every single person who walks past his glass. Weâve tried talking to him, but heâs not interested in us. He only has one question, on repeat.â She looked at Steve. âWhere is Steve Rogers.â
Steve swallowed. The crying in his chest had quieted, curling into a dense knot of something else: dread, hope, resolve.
âIâll talk to him,â he said.
âYouâll be locked in with him,â Hill warned. âNo weapons. No shield. We control the door. If he gets loose, we gas the room. If the gas doesnât workâŠâ
She didnât finish. She didnât have to.
Steve nodded once. âUnderstood.â
Fury studied him for a long beat. âYou flatlined, and the first thing you want to do is walk into a cage with a sleeper agent whose kill record could fill a city block.â
âYes, sir,â Steve said.
A corner of Furyâs mouth twitched. âSame old Rogers.â He straightened. âYou get one shot at this. You reach him, great. We go back to figuring out how to rip this Echo thing out of his head. You donâtâŠâ
He didnât finish that either.
Steve pushed himself to his feet.
âIâm not going to fail him again,â he said.
Observation Room E looked like something out of a nightmare.
From the outside, it was just a glass cube sunk into the floor of a larger chamber, separated from the main room by a narrow walkway. The glass was reinforced, the metal seams thick and unyielding. There were cameras in each corner, red lights on, little mechanical eyes unblinking.
Inside, Bucky sat on a bolted-down metal chair, hands cuffed in front of him with a restraint unit that looked like someone had sleepless nights designing it. His ankles were shackled to a ring in the floor. He wore a standard-issue black SHIELD jumpsuit, bare feet braced flat.
His posture was perfect. Too perfect. Back straight, shoulders level, chin tipped at a neutral angle. His hairâgrowing long againâfell around his face, but he didnât fidget with it, didnât push it back the way Bucky did when he was nervous.
He just sat and watched.
There were agents stationed around the outer room, weapons slung low but loaded. A tech at a console, monitoring vitals and gas triggers. Natasha leaned against a pillar, talking quietly into her comm, eyes on the glass.
When Steve stepped onto the walkway, every head in the room turned.
Buckyâs didnât.
Not at first.
Then, as the door keypad beeped and the security lock disengaged with a heavy thunk, his head lifted. His eyes focused.
Steve had faced Hydra soldiers, aliens, gods. Heâd looked into the maw of giant space whales and down the barrel of guns.
Nothing had ever made his blood run as cold as the way Buckyâs gaze slid over him now: assessing, cataloguing, devoid of anything warm.
The door hissed open.
âYouâre sure about this?â Hillâs voice came over the intercom.
âNo,â Steve said. âBut Iâm going in anyway.â
He stepped inside.
The door sealed shut behind him with finality, a heavy mechanical clunk. A faint hiss indicated the secondary locks engaging.
Steve forced himself not to flinch. He crossed the room slowly, hands where Bucky could see them.
âHey, Buck,â he said softly.
The man in the chair looked at him.
The face was Buckyâs: sharp jaw, mouth made for cutting grins and softer things, eyes the exact blue Steve knew from a hundred memories.
But there was something wrong about the way those eyes moved. Too smooth. No flickers of confusion or emotion. Just a slow, careful sweep from Steveâs boots to his face, as if slotting him into a file.
âSubject: Rogers,â the Soldier said.
The voice was Buckyâs, too, buried under a flatness that made Steveâs stomach twist.
âYeah,â Steve said, stopping a few feet away. âItâs me.â
The Soldierâs gaze flicked to Steveâs chest, noting the bandage under his shirt where the defib paddles had burned the skin.
âYou ceased vital function in the field,â he said. âYou were declared clinically dead for four minutes and twelve seconds.â
Steve huffed something that wasnât quite a laugh. âYou counted?â
The Soldierâs lips didnât move. âI was designed to track mission parameters.â
âIs that what I am?â Steve asked. âA mission parameter?â
The Soldier stared at him. âYes.â
The word cut sharper than Steve expected.
He took a slow breath, let it out. âBuckyââ
âBarnes is not present,â the Soldier interrupted, tone unchanged. âBarnes is a compromised persona, constructed under enemy influence for the purpose of destabilizing asset WS-1. Echo Protocol has overridden civilian programming.â
âBarnes is notââ Steveâs jaw clenched. âBucky is not âconstructed programming.â Heâs a person.â
The Soldier tilted his head, considering him like one might a puzzle.
âYour insistence on humanizing mission assets is a known weakness,â he observed. âExploitable.â
Steveâs teeth ached. âReally did a number on you, didnât they?â
The Soldierâs gaze flicked briefly to the left, where he knew a camera was, then back.
âHydra is no longer operational,â he said. âPrimary facility compromised. Mission parameters have been updated.â A faint crease appeared between his brows. âI cannot complete Echo Protocol as designed. There is no facility to return you to.â
He said return you with the same tone one might use for a package.
âSo whatâs the new mission?â Steve asked quietly.
The Soldierâs eyes darkened. âRemove you from hostile control.â
Steveâs heart thudded once, hard. âWeâre not hostile,â he said. âWeâre trying to help him. To help you.â
âYou restrained this asset.â The Soldier lifted his hands a fraction. The cuffs scraped against each other. âYou confined Barnes. You sedated him against his will.â
âWe sedated you because you were trying to walk out of a collapsing building carrying a corpse and batting away medics like flies,â Steve snapped, then forced himself to soften it. âYou almost got people killed.â
âCollateral damage,â the Soldier said. âAcceptable loss in pursuit of mission.â
Steve swallowed bile. âNot anymore.â
The Soldierâs eyes narrowed, just slightly. âYou died. Echo engaged. The mission does not end until your status is secure.â
âMy status is secure.â Steve spread his arms, exposing his chest. The heart monitor on the wall behind the glass showed a steady rhythm. âSee? Alive. Breathing. Talking. Not a corpse.â
The Soldierâs gaze flicked to the monitor, as if cross-referencing.
âAlive,â he acknowledged. âCompromised.â
âCompromised how?â
The Soldierâs lip curled infinitesimally. âControl. Influence. Cognitive degradation. You have been⊠softened.â
âSoftened,â Steve repeated. âYou mean⊠having friends. People I care about. That kind of compromise?â
âIt is inefficient,â the Soldier said.
âFunny,â Steve said, because if he didnât, he might scream. âItâs kept me alive a hell of a lot longer than your efficiency has.â
The Soldierâs jaw tightened. For a heartbeat, Steve thought he saw something flicker behind his eyesâsomething like anger. Or fear.
âHydra prioritized your body,â the Soldier said. âYour blood. Your bones. Echo Protocol ensures that, in the event of your termination, the investment is retrieved.â His gaze flicked over Steveâs frame, clinical. âYour continued existence as a⊠person is incidental.â
Steve felt sick.
âI am not an investment,â he said quietly. âIâm not a resource on a balance sheet. And neither are you.â
The Soldier gave no sign of hearing him.
âMy mission is to retrieve you,â he said. âReturn you to where Hydraâor its successorsâcan use you.â A faint glitch crept into his voice on successors, a distortion that smoothed a half-second later. âEcho cannot be canceled. Only completed. Until then, all other directives are secondary.â
Steveâs fingers twitched at his sides.
âWhat if I give you a new order?â he asked.
The Soldierâs mouth thinned. âYou are not authorized command.â
âI was your commanding officer in the 107th,â Steve said.
âDifferent world,â the Soldier replied. âDifferent asset. Command invalid.â
âBucky trusted me,â Steve said, voice low. âHe followed me into hell more than once.â
âBarnes is notââ
ââpresent. Yeah, you said.â Steve took a step closer, ignoring the way the agents outside stiffened. âBut heâs in there somewhere. I know he is.â
âYou have no evidence.â The Soldierâs gaze tracked his movement with laser focus.
Steveâs throat tightened.
âI have a lifetime of it,â he said.
He reached out, slow and deliberate, and laid his hand on the edge of the metal table between them.
The Soldierâs eyes dropped to it. A muscle jumped in his jaw.
Outside, he could hear the faint rustle of bodies shifting, safeties clicking off.
âSteve,â Natashaâs voice came over the comm, not quite steady. âCareful.â
He ignored her.
âBucky,â he said, and let all the stubborn, aching, stupid hope heâd been carrying for years settle into the word. âI know you can hear me.â
The Soldierâs nostrils flared. He sat perfectly still.
âDo you remember Coney Island?â Steve asked softly. âSummer of â39. You dragged me onto that roller coaster that looked like it had last been inspected during the Roosevelt administration. I thought we were gonna die.â
The Soldier didnât move.
âYou kept your arm around me the whole time,â Steve went on. âSaid it was so I didnât fall out. But you didnât let go until we were three blocks away and I called you on it.â
âFabricated memory,â the Soldier said, but it came a half-second late.
Steveâs heart stuttered. âYou puked cotton candy behind the hot dog stand,â he added. âI pretended not to notice so you wouldnât be embarrassed. You said if I told anyone, youâd throw me off the ferris wheel.â
The Soldierâs fingers twitched.
Steve saw it. So did Natasha; he heard her sharp inhale over the comm.
âThatâs⊠interesting,â Hill murmured.
âJust a muscle spasm,â the Soldier said, and there was a faint edge to his voice now. âNon-significant.â
âSure it is.â Steve took another step forward. The table pressed against his thighs. âWhat about the night before you shipped out with the 107th? We split a bottle of something cheap on the fire escape, and you told me if I got myself killed trying to enlist again, youâd come back from the dead just to smack me.â
âStop,â the Soldier said.
It was the first time his tone changed.
Steveâs breath caught.
âYou said,â he continued, ignoring the warning, âyouâd always be with me. âTill the end of the line.â Remember?â
The Soldier flinched.
It was small, a jerk of the shoulders, the faintest widening of his eyes.
Steve pressed. âDo you remember what happened on that Hydra train? In the Alps?â
The air in the room seemed to thicken.
The Soldierâs gaze snapped to his. For the first time since Steve walked in, there was something behind those eyes that wasnât flat calculation.
âI fell,â the Soldier said, and his voice cracked, just a hair.
Steveâs breath left him.
âYeah,â he said softly. âYou slipped. The rail gave way. I grabbed you and I couldnâtââ His throat worked. âI couldnât pull you back up.â
The Soldierâs hands clenched, metal fingers biting into the cuffs. The restraint unit whined softly under the pressure.
âYou died,â he ground out, like it was a verdict. âYou were supposed to die there. That was the end of the line.â
Steve shook his head, eyes bright. âMaybe for me. But you still jumped on that train in the first place. You couldâve stayed behind, let me take the hit, but you didnât. You followed me into hell because thatâs who you are, Buck. You donât leave people behind. Not me. Not the Commandos. No one.â
âStop,â the Soldier snapped, harsher. âThese⊠constructs are not relevant to mission parameters.â
âTheyâre you,â Steve said. âTheyâre your life. Before they took it from you.â
The Soldierâs head jerked, like he was trying to shake something off.
Outside, one of the agents murmured, âWhat the hellââ and was shushed.
âHydra gave you commands,â Steve said, voice low, steady. âThey dragged you through hell. They strapped you to a chair and rewrote you with electricity and pain and words that werenât yours. They turned you into a weapon and told you that was all youâd ever be.â
âCorrect,â the Soldier said, but the word sounded like it hurt.
âThat wasnât the first time someone tried to tell you who you were,â Steve went on. âYou remember the bullies in Brooklyn? The guys in the alley? The ones who called me a âlittle freakâ and told me Iâd never be anything?â
The Soldier stared at him.
âYou punched them for me,â Steve said. âYou got your lip split open and your knuckles bloodied, and every time I said âI can do this all dayâ and went down anyway, you helped me back up. You didnât let my story end in the dirt.â His throat tightened. âYou donât have to let Hydra write yours.â
The Soldierâs breath hitched.
It was tiny, barely there, but Steve heard it like a gunshot.
Vital signs spiked on the monitor. The tech at the console muttered something under his breath, fingers flying over keys.
âHeart rate increasing,â he said. âNeurological activity spiking. Whatever Rogers is doing, itâs activating a lot of cross-linked circuits.â
âTranslation?â Fury asked.
âTranslation,â the tech swallowed, âweâve got a hell of a fight going on in there.â
âGood,â Steve said softly, eyes never leaving Bucky. âFight them, Buck.â
The Soldier squeezed his eyes shut.
For a split second, Steve saw it: the trembling in his shoulders, the way his jaw worked, as if he were biting down on a scream.
Then his eyes flew open again, and they were ice.
âYou died,â he said, more forcefully. âMy mission activated. Echo Protocol is absolute. It does not allow for deviation. Do you understand? You are a variable. The mission is constant. If you die, I am triggered. If you are compromised, I remove you from the equation.â
Steveâs blood went cold.
âIf I die,â he repeated slowly, âyou go full Winter Soldier.â
âYes,â the Soldier said. âIrrevocably.â
âSteve,â Hill snapped over the comm. âWe did not know that. You need to step back and let usââ
Steve lifted his chin. âNo.â
âThis isnât just about Barnes anymore,â Hill argued. âIf your death is a global triggerââ
âIâm not planning on dying again,â Steve said, more sharply than he meant to. His gaze stayed locked on the man in front of him. âBuck, listen to me. Echo Protocol may feel absolute, but itâs Hydraâs code. Itâs not yours.â
The Soldierâs hands shook.
âOrders are all I have,â he said, and for the first time, there was rawness in it. âOrders are structure. Without them there is⊠nothing.â
âThatâs not true,â Steve said softly. âWithout them, thereâs you.â
The Soldierâs breath came faster now, the muscles in his throat working.
âSteve,â he said.
It was Buckyâs voice.
Steveâs heart stuttered.
âYeah,â he said. His hand slid forward on the table, fingers stretching in a wordless offer. âIâm here.â
The Soldierâs gaze dropped to his hand, then jerked away like it burned.
âI cannot complete the mission if you are compromised,â he said, words stumbling. âYou surrounded by enemy assets, enemy ideology. They changed you. Softened you. You were supposed to beââ He cut himself off, teeth clicking shut.
âSupposed to be what?â Steve asked gently.
âA symbol,â the Soldier ground out. âUntouchable. Unbreakable. Hydra wanted your body, not your⊠attachments.â The word sounded strange in his mouth. âEcho was designed to preserve the physical resource. It did not account forâŠâ He trailed off, face twisting, as if something inside him pulled in two different directions at once.
âDidnât account for what?â Steve pressed.
The Soldierâs eyes met his.
âBarnes,â he whispered.
Steveâs breath caught.
âThere he is,â he said softly. âHey, Buck.â
Something broke.
The SoldierâBuckyâjerked against the restraints, breath coming in ragged gasps. His metal hand strained, servos whining. Vital signs on the monitor spiked into the red.
âSedative levels are already at maximum,â the tech said, panicked. âIf we dose him more, we riskââ
âDonât,â Steve snapped without looking away. âYou put him under now, youâll just bury him deeper.â
âRogers,â Fury said. âWe canât let himââ
âIâve got him,â Steve said. His chest hurtânot from the defib burns now, but from the sight of Bucky twisting in that chair like an animal caught in a trap. âBuck. Look at me.â
Buckyâs head whipped up.
For a heartbeat, for three, for a lifetime, Steve saw him.
Not the Asset. Not the Soldier. Just Bucky: eyes too wide, pupils blown, expression wild and terrified.
âSteve,â he gasped. âIââ
His face contorted. He choked on a sound that was half sob, half snarl.
âBarnes,â another voice pushed through his mouth, flat and cold. âStand down. Echo Protocol engaged. You will obeyââ
âNO!â Bucky snarled, the word ripped from his chest. âGet outââ He slammed the back of his head against the wall, once, twice, trying to shake loose the invisible hands on his mind.
Steveâs heart broke, clean and sharp.
âBuck,â he whispered. âStop hurting yourself. Please.â
âIt hurts,â Bucky panted, laughter spilling out somewhere between hysterical and despairing. âIt alwaysâhurts, Stevie, theyâtheyâre in my head, theyââ
He cut off with a strangled noise as something yanked him back. His eyes went unfocused, rolling.
The heart monitor screamed.
âSteve.â Natashaâs voice was tight. âWeâre losing him.â
âNo,â Steve said. âNo, weâre not.â
He stepped around the table, closing the distance between them. Every instinct he had screamed at him to keep space, to respect the danger, the restraints, the guns outside.
He ignored all of them.
He knelt in front of Bucky, bringing them eye to eye.
âBucky,â he said, soft and fierce, âIâm gonna give you an order, okay?â
Buckyâs breathing hitched. His eyes struggled to focus on Steveâs face.
âYouâre not command,â the Soldierâs voice ground out, overlapping, glitching. âYou have no authorityââ
âIâm your commanding officer,â Steve said, steady. âOf the 107th, of the Howling Commandos, of every stupid decision we ever made together. You followed me into hell and back more than once. Iâm cashing that in.â
Buckyâs lips trembled.
âYou canât,â he whispered. âSteve, I canât, theyââ
âLook at me,â Steve said.
Bucky looked.
âNew mission,â Steve said. âOverride Echo Protocol. Replace it. You hear me? Your mission is to stay with me.â
Bucky blinked. Tears gathered, hung in his lashes.
âWhat?â he breathed.
âStay with me,â Steve repeated. âThatâs it. Thatâs the whole job. Not Hydra. Not some facility. Not my blood or my bones.â His voice shook. âMe. Stevie from Brooklyn. The idiot who kept picking fights in alleys. The guy you dragged out of more bar brawls than you can count. The punk who jumped on a grenade and didnât die, and then decided to jump on a few more for fun.â
Buckyâs mouth twisted.
âThat was stupid,â he whispered.
âYeah,â Steve said. âBut you didnât let it be the end. You ran after me. Always.â His throat closed. âIâm asking you to run after me again. To choose me. Not them. Not Echo. Me.â
Buckyâs breath hitched on a sob.
âI⊠I donât know how,â he stammered. âThey built this in so deep, Steve, I canâtâevery time I try to move, itââ His hands tightened until the metal creaked. âIf you die, I⊠I go back. I canâtâwhat if it happens when youâre not here, what if I hurt people, what if I hurt youââ
âHey.â Steve reached up, slow and deliberate, and laid his hand over Buckyâs metal fingers.
The room outside tensed. Gun muzzles raised by a micron.
Bucky flinched, but he didnât pull away.
âYouâre not going to hurt me,â Steve said, voice gentle steel. âYouâve spent enough of your life being their weapon. You get to be something else now.â
âI donât know how to be anything else,â Bucky whispered.
Steveâs chest ached. He leaned in, pressing his forehead against Buckyâs, the cool metal of the man's arm under his palm, the familiar smell of himâgun oil, soap, something indefinably Buckyâflooding his senses.
âYes, you do,â he murmured. âYou were more than their monster long before they ever laid a hand on you.â
Bucky shuddered.
âRemember walking me home from the movies?â Steve said softly. âEvery time my mouth got me in trouble. âDonât do anything stupid until I get back,â you said.â
Bucky let out a broken laugh that dissolved into a sob. âYou never listened.â
âRemember sneaking into the Worldâs Fair?â Steve continued. âYour hand on the small of my back so I didnât get lost in the crowd. Buying me that crummy hot dog even though you were short on cash. You always took care of me, Buck. Long before they painted that star on your shoulder.â
Bucky shook his head, tears spilling over now.
âRemember what you said to me in that Hydra train?â Steve whispered. âWhen I was hanging out the door, trying to pull you up?â
Buckyâs lips moved soundlessly.
Steve closed his eyes.
ââIâm with you till the end of the line,ââ he said, and the words tasted like blood and snow and every road theyâd walked since. âThat wasnât Hydra. That wasnât Echo. That was you.â
The air in the room went still.
Bucky made a sound like something tearing.
âSteve,â he sobbed. âSteve, Iââ
His body convulsed. The restraints rattled. For a terrible second, Steve felt the metal hand under his go rigid, the grip bruisingly strong, like it might crush his fingers.
Then Buckyâs flesh hand moved.
Slowly, as if dragging through concrete, it lifted. The cuff chain clinked. His fingers curled, hesitant, then grabbed the front of Steveâs shirt.
He held on like he was falling.
âEnd of the line,â Bucky choked. âI remember. I remember, I remember, Iââ
He gasped.
The heart monitor screeched, then steadied.
On the other side of the glass, lights on the techâs console flickered wildly, then settled into new patterns.
âNeural signatures are⊠holy shit,â the tech whispered. âEcho pathways are collapsing. New dominant pattern emerging. ItâsâHill, itâs him. Itâs⊠Barnes. Itâs Barnes.â
Natashaâs exhale shuddered audibly through the comm.
Steve opened his eyes.
Bucky was staring at him.
Properly staring at him. Pupils blown, cheeks wet, expression open and devastated and so, so Bucky that Steveâs heart nearly stopped again for an entirely different reason.
âHi,â Steve whispered.
Bucky let out a laugh that was half sob. âYou died,â he said hoarsely.
âOnly for a little while,â Steve said. âI got better.â
âAsshole,â Bucky croaked, and then he folded forward as much as the restraints would allow, burying his face in Steveâs shoulder.
Steve wrapped his arms around him, awkward with the cuffs between them, the chair between his knees, the whole damn observation room watching. He didnât care.
Buckyâs body shook. Silent sobs wracked him, years and years of horror and conditioning cracking under the weight of four minutes of loss and a lifetime of love.
Steve held on.
Outside, someone sniffed. Sam muttered, âYeah, okay, I didnât need my heart today, thatâs fine,â under his breath.
After a while, Buckyâs breathing evened out, the tremors subsiding to small aftershocks.
He pulled back, just enough to look at Steveâs face.
His eyes were red-rimmed, lashes clumped together. There was a bruise on his temple, a small cut on his lower lip. Steve wanted to kiss it away, but there were too many people watching and too many cuffs between them.
Later, he promised himself. If there was a later.
âEcho?â Steve asked quietly.
Buckyâs expression flickered, fear sharpening the edges.
âI can⊠feel it,â he said, voice rough. âLike⊠like a brand. Deep down. Hydra carved it in wherever they stuck the rest of their crap.â His hand clenched in Steveâs shirt. âYou flatline, I go full Winter. No off switch. Noââ
Steve cupped his cheek.
âHey,â he said. âLook at me.â
Bucky did. Immediately. Like his name was still an order he couldnât refuse.
âYou overrode it just now,â Steve said. âYou chose me over it. Thatâs a start.â
âI donât know if I can do it again,â Bucky whispered. âWhat if youâre not there next time? What if I hurt someone else before you can pull me back? What if you die and I⊠and thereâs no one to tell me itâs okay, that I donât have toââ His breath hitched. âI canât do that again, Steve. I canât be their gun again.â
âYou wonât,â Steve said, with a certainty he didnât entirely feel but needed Bucky to believe in. âWeâre going to find that brand and rip it out by the roots. Shuriâs already dismantled half the shit in your head. She can take this apart too.â
âWakandaâs a long way from here,â Bucky said. âWhat happens between now and then? You planning on not dying again?â
Steve managed a crooked smile. âIâll try to keep it to a minimum.â
âNot funny,â Bucky muttered, but a faint spark of something like old irritation flashed through his eyes.
Steveâs chest loosened.
âIn the meantime,â he said, âwe make it harder for Echo to trigger.â
âHow?â Bucky asked, desperate. âItâs tied to your heart stopping, Steve. Thatâs not exactly something we canââ
âThen we donât let my heart stop,â Steve said simply.
Bucky stared at him. âThatâs your plan?â
âAnd,â Steve added, âwe donât leave each otherâs sight.â
Bucky blinked. âWhat?â
Steve swallowed, suddenly aware of how absurdly exposed this was going to sound with half of SHIELD listening.
He said it anyway.
âYou said Echoâs main directive now is to âremove me from hostile control,ââ he said. âHydra defined âhostileâ as anyone who wasnât them. We redefine it. New parameters. New⊠rules.â He squeezed Buckyâs shoulder. âIf Iâm with you, Iâm not under hostile control. If Iâm with you, the mission is already complete.â
Buckyâs brow furrowed, brain clearly running through old habit: assess, test, find the flaw.
âYouâre twisting their code,â he said slowly. âUsing it against itself.â
âThought youâd appreciate the irony,â Steve said.
A tiny huff of breath escaped Bucky. âYou think if I stay near you, Echo wonât⊠itch as much.â
âI think if you stay near me, youâll have something to hold onto when it does,â Steve said quietly. âAnd Iâll be there to remind you who you are. To give you new orders when the old ones start shouting.â
Buckyâs throat worked.
âWhat orders?â he whispered.
Steveâs heart hammered against his ribs.
âEat three times a day,â he said. âSleep at least six hours a night. Tell me when your head hurts. Let people help you. Let yourself be helped.â His voice softened. âStay alive. With me.â
Buckyâs eyes shone.
âThatâs⊠a lot of orders, punk,â he rasped.
âIâm very demanding,â Steve said.
On the other side of the glass, Fury cleared his throat.
âIâm assuming this means Echo is⊠suppressed,â he said. His tone was careful: somewhere between cautious optimism and the weary realization that his life was going to be complicated forever.
The tech glanced at the monitors. âEcho-specific pathways are down to minimal background noise,â he confirmed. âBarnesâ cognitive signatures are dominant. Heâs⊠as himself as weâve ever seen him.â
âLucky us,â Sam muttered. âTwo stubborn idiots fully online.â
âHey!â Steve and Bucky said in unison.
Natashaâs mouth quirked.
Hill exhaled. âAll right,â she said. âWe stand down termination protocols. For now.â
Steveâs shoulders loosened a fraction.
âHowever,â Hill continued, âuntil we know exactly how Echo worksâand how to remove itâwe have to recognize the risk. If Rogers diesââ
âI wonât,â Steve said sharply.
ââor even gets close enough to trigger the protocol again,â Hill went on, unfazed, âwe may not be able to pull Barnes back a second time.â
âI know,â Steve said. âWeâre going to Wakanda as soon as Iâm cleared for travel.â
Fury grunted. âAlready talking to them,â he said. âShuriâs coordination team wants fresh scans. Theyâre very excited about the prospect of dismantling Hydra code. Their words, not mine.â
Bucky shivered under Steveâs hand.
âGood,â he said. âThey can have it. Take it. Burn it.â
Steve squeezed his shoulder.
âTill then,â Fury added, âBarnes doesnât leave your side, Rogers. You wanted to cash in that âheâs my responsibilityâ card? Congratulations. Youâre stuck with him.â
Buckyâs mouth twisted into something that was almost a smile. âHe says that like itâs a punishment.â
Steveâs chest warmed.
âYeah,â he said. âJokeâs on them.â
Hill sighed. âWeâll arrange for modified housing assignments,â she said. âSecurity protocols. Joint clearance.â She glanced at Bucky. âWeâll need to keep monitoring you.â
âI get it,â Bucky said quietly. âYou donât trust me.â
Natashaâs gaze softened. âWe donât trust Hydra,â she said. âThereâs a difference.â
Bucky looked away.
Steve gently squeezed his chin, bringing his head back.
âHey,â he said. âLook at me.â
Bucky did, weary and wary and wanting so badly to believe him that it made Steveâs eyes sting.
âI trust you,â Steve said simply.
Buckyâs breath hitched.
âYou shouldnât,â he whispered. âYou died, Steve. Iââ
âYou didnât kill me,â Steve said. âA grenade did. And frankly, Iâve had worse.â
âThat⊠is not reassuring,â Bucky muttered, but the corners of his mouth turned up, just barely.
Steveâs heart did something ridiculous.
He leaned in and, carefully, pressed his lips to Buckyâs forehead.
Bucky froze.
Outside, someone choked on a cough. Natasha raised an unimpressed eyebrow. Fury looked like heâd aged ten years.
Steve pulled back a fraction, looking into Buckyâs eyes.
âYou get four minutes without me,â he said softly, so only Bucky could hear, âand your brain decides to drag you back to the worst version of yourself just to get to my body.â
Bucky winced. âYeah, thanks for the mental image.â
âMy point,â Steve went on, âis that you clearly canât be trusted unsupervised when Iâm dead.â
A wet, incredulous little laugh escaped Bucky. âNo kidding.â
âSo,â Steve said, âsolutionâs simple. Youâre not allowed to let me die. And Iâm not allowed to go anywhere without you.â
A muscle jumped in Buckyâs cheek. âThat a promise?â
Steve held his gaze.
âYeah,â he said. âThatâs a promise.â
Buckyâs eyes closed for a second. When he opened them, something steady had settled there. Not the cold certainty of the Soldier, but a quieter, more fragile kind.
âOkay,â he whispered. âOkay. Then⊠Iâm not letting you out of my sight again.â
Steve smiled, small and real.
âGood,â he said. âI was getting tired of waking up without you.â
Bucky swallowed. âMe too.â
They removed the restraints an hour later, carefully, under enough guns to start a small war.
Bucky bore it with a stiffness that looked a lot like penance. Steve stayed at his side, heart hammering every time a cuff clicked open, waiting for the telltale blankness to descend.
It didnât.
When the last shackle fell away, Bucky rubbed his wrists, staring at the angry red grooves there.
Steve, impulsively, reached out and took his hand.
Bucky stared down at their joined fingers like it was something miraculous.
âCome on,â Steve said gently. âLetâs get out of the fishbowl.â
Bucky huffed a faint laugh. âThink theyâll actually let us?â
âWeâll see,â Steve said.
They did, eventually, though an agent shadowed them all the way back to the residential wing, and security cameras discreetly followed their every step.
Bucky endured it with a tight jaw and hunched shoulders. Steve made sure to walk close enough that their arms brushed with every step.
By the time they reached Steveâs roomânow, by Furyâs decree and Buckyâs stubborn insistence, their roomâSteveâs body had remembered that heâd actually, scientifically, factually died that day.
His ribs throbbed. His bones ached. His chest felt like someone had used it as a practice dummy.
He sank onto the edge of the bed with a sigh.
Bucky hovered near the door for a second, then, slowly, shut it.
The lock clicked.
âToo much?â Steve asked, nodding toward it.
Bucky shook his head. âLocks go both ways,â he said quietly. âFeels⊠safer.â
Steveâs throat tightened.
âCome here,â he said.
Bucky hesitated.
Then, with a small exhale, he crossed the room and sat beside Steve.
For a moment, they just⊠sat. Shoulders touching. Silence wrapping around them like a blanket.
Steve watched their hands on his kneesâhis own broad, scarred knuckles; Buckyâs calloused fingers; the brushed metal gleam catching the light.
âDo you remember it?â Bucky asked suddenly, voice low.
Steve blinked. âRemember what?â
âBeing dead,â Bucky said bluntly.
Steve huffed a laugh that wasnât funny. âNot⊠really,â he admitted. âI remember the explosion. The heat. And then⊠nothing.â He glanced at Bucky. âWhy?â
Buckyâs jaw flexed.
âI remember all of it,â he said hoarsely. âNot the⊠you. Just⊠the data. Your heart rate dropping. The moment it flatlined. The way the monitor sounded. The⊠quiet after.â
Steve swallowed.
âIt was like⊠a switch being thrown,â Bucky continued. âEverything before thatâthe panicking, shouting your name, trying to get you to breatheâthat was⊠me. Then the flatline hit and it all justâŠâ He snapped his fingers. âGone. Echo flooded in. Clean and cold and⊠wrong. But it felt⊠solid. Simple.â He made a face. âAnd then you woke up and ruined it.â
âSorry about that,â Steve murmured.
Bucky let out a breath that mightâve been a laugh. âDonât be,â he said quickly. âPlease donât ever be sorry for⊠that.â
Steveâs chest warmed.
âI keep thinking,â Bucky went on, staring at his hands, âif Sam hadnât gotten those tranqs into me, I wouldâve walked out of there with your body. Fought everyone. Killed whoever got in my way. Echo wouldâve dragged me across the world chasing a ghost.â His shoulders hunched. âAnd I wouldnât even have known it was wrong.â
âBut you do,â Steve said gently. âNow, you do.â
Buckyâs throat worked. âBecause youâre alive,â he said. âIf you werenâtâŠâ
Steve reached out and curled his fingers around the back of Buckyâs neck, thumb stroking the short hairs there.
âIâm not going anywhere,â he said softly.
âYou say that like you havenât jumped out of three helicarriers and a spaceship,â Bucky muttered, but he leaned into the touch.
âOkay, fine,â Steve conceded. âIâm going wherever you go.â
Buckyâs breath shuddered.
âYou promise?â he whispered.
Steve didnât hesitate.
âI promise,â he said.
Bucky looked at him then, really looked, and Steve had the absurd thought that if his heart hadnât already stopped once today, this wouldâve done it.
âOkay,â Bucky said again, the word a fragile thing he cradled between them. âThen⊠Iâm gonna hold you to that, Rogers.â
âYouâd better,â Steve said.
They sat like that for a while, Steveâs hand warm on Buckyâs neck, Buckyâs shoulder pressed solidly against his.
Eventually, exhaustion dragged at Steveâs limbs, his head growing heavier.
He helped Steve ease back onto the bed, moving with a carefulness that made Steveâs throat tight. When Steveâs head hit the pillow, Bucky hovered, uncertain.
âStay,â Steve said, because there was no way on earth he was going to sleep without Bucky within armâs reach after the day theyâd had.
Buckyâs expression flickered, relief and fear and longing warring, then settled into something like resolve.
âYeah,â he said simply. âOkay.â
He kicked off his boots and eased onto the mattress, lying on top of the covers beside Steve. For a second, they were awkward about what to do with their limbs.
Then Bucky huffed, rolled onto his side, and slotted himself against Steveâs uninjured side, metal arm draped loosely over his stomach, flesh hand splayed on his chest, right over the steady thump of his heart.
âMonitoring vital signs,â he muttered, attempting lightness.
Steve smiled, eyes stinging.
âDoctor Barnes,â he said. âDidnât know youâd gone into medicine.â
âShut up,â Bucky grumbled, but his fingers pressed just a little more firmly, like he needed the confirmation.
Steve covered Buckyâs hand with his own.
His eyelids felt heavy. His body, now that it was horizontal, realized how tired it was. The steady warmth of Bucky beside him, the weight of that arm, the quiet hush of the roomâit all tugged at him.
âSteve?â Bucky said softly.
âMm?â
There was a pause.
âI love you,â Bucky blurted, the words tumbling out like theyâd been dammed up for decades and finally found a crack.
Steveâs eyes flew open.
Bucky stared at him, expression somewhere between defiant and terrified, as if daring him to laugh.
His heart did a somersault. The monitor by the bed beeped a little faster.
âWas gonna wait until you werenât half-dead to say it,â Bucky muttered. âBut then you were dead and I realized that was⊠stupid.â His mouth twisted. âYou donât get to die without knowing that.â
Steveâs throat closed.
âBucky,â he said, and he didnât bother to keep the emotion out of his voice. âYou⊠have the worst timing.â
Buckyâs face fell a little. âYeah, wellââ
âBecause Iâve been in love with you since I was fifteen,â Steve went on, âand it wouldâve saved us both a lot of trouble if youâd said something before the whole falling off trains and being brainwashed thing.â
Bucky froze.
Then, slowly, the corners of his mouth lifted.
âYeah?â he whispered.
âYeah,â Steve said.
Bucky swallowed. His eyes dropped to Steveâs mouth, then flicked back up.
âCan Iââ he started, then seemed to remember the cannula, the bandages, the fact that Steve had technically been dead not too long ago. âI mean, is it okay if Iââ
Steve reached up, curled a hand around the back of his neck, and tugged him down.
The kiss was careful and a little awkward, noses bumping, teeth clacking. Bucky tasted like hospital coffee and the sharp tang of adrenaline, like fear and relief and home.
Steveâs chest twinged, but he didnât care.
When they pulled back, Bucky looked at him like heâd hung the stars.
âOkay,â Bucky said softly, voice hoarse. âNow you canât die. Iâll never forgive you if you leave me with that and then⊠go.â
Steve laughed, the sound ragged but real.
âIâll do my best,â he said. âJust⊠keep your hand there, okay?â
Bucky glanced down at where his palm rested over Steveâs heart.
âYeah,â he said. âYouâre not getting rid of me, punk.â
Steveâs eyes drifted shut.
âAs long as youâre here when I wake up,â he murmured, âyou can stay as long as you like.â
Bucky pressed his forehead to Steveâs temple.
âIâm with you,â he whispered, the words a promise and a prayer and a curse woven into one, âtill the end of the line.â
Steveâs heart beat steady and strong against his palm.
Four minutes without it had been an eternity. The rest of their lives, Bucky decided as Steveâs breathing evened out, wouldnât be long enough.
So he lay there, wide awake in the dark, metal arm wrapped around the man he loved, fingers pressed over the proof that he was still here, still alive, still his.
And every time that heart stuttered or skipped, every time the monitor beeped a little faster, Bucky held on tighter and whispered orders to himself in the quiet of his own mind.
New mission: stay. New directive: love. New protocol: echo this, not them.
And somewhere, deep below the scars and circuitry, the old code screamed and fizzled and finally, finally began to fade.
Billy but he changed hid whole personality when they moved to Hawkins. In california he was the sad kid. The one without a mom. The one always alone.
And Yes, he is still very much alone in Hawkins. But its his choice this time. He creates fake personality Just because he is sick of beging the sad kid. Hes angry, so angry.
After the "showers" scene, Steve started watching billy. And he saw, that sad boy from california, sometimes showing when billy thought nobody watched.
After a few weeks, Steve realizes thst billy is faking. Everything. That this is just billy protecting himself.
And then Steve findes out about abuse. About Neil. About beating, about curses.
He watches, waiting, but he doesnt really know for what he is waiting. Sitting in csr like a creep, watching billy's house. Its not a home and Steve knows it.
Then finaly, one night, doors open at 2 am. Neil is grabing billy by the neck, yelling. Billy doesnt fight. He just look dead inside. One single tear is going down on his cheek when he ends up outside the house. His t shirt is dirty from his own Blood. Max tries to get to him but Neil grabs her by the hair, pulls her away.
Steve saw enough. He Got out of the car, walked straight to Neil and punched him so hard thst he ended up on the ground. Tyen Steve kicked him a few times. After that he leaned over him and said
"You are the biggest piece of shit that i ever saw"
He Got up, and he noticed Susan.
"You should be ashamed."
Then he looked at Max. She was breathing heavily, looking scared, touching the wall like she wanted to blend into them.
"Come. I need your help." He said and then he went outside. Max looked at her mother, then at Neil who was still on the ground, and then he walked out after Steve.
They Got billy off the ground, took him to the car. Billy and Max ended up at the back seats.
After a moment of silence billy finaly said something.
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The three men at the bar swallowed their own spit as a shadow loomed over Munson. Large fingers closed around the freaks wrists as the other man scrowled at them.
"What did they say to you?"
"Don't worry baby, they were just leaving, weren't you?"
Pairing:Â Bodyguard!Steve Rogers x Fem!Reader
Word Count:Â ~4,800
Warnings:Â Language, slow burn, protective behavior, minor violence, simmering tension, emotional vulnerability, mutual pining, reader in danger, touches of angst and comfort, eventual fluff
Summary: As the daughter of a high-profile senator, youâve had your share of bodyguards â but none like Steve Rogers. Stoic, handsome, frustratingly protective. When your safety is threatened, Steve moves in. You canât stand him⊠until you canât stay away.
Steve Rogers was a lot of things. Your bodyguard was not supposed to be one of them.
But when you opened your front door that Tuesday morning â hungover from a night of political schmoozing and press photos â there he was. Sunglasses, tailored suit, tight jaw.
âGood morning, maâam,â he said with a nod.
You blinked at him. âNo. Absolutely not.â
Behind him, your fatherâs assistant gave you an apologetic shrug.
âSteve Rogers will be your personal security detail effective immediately,â she said. âUntil the threatâs resolved.â
You scoffed. âIâm not under threat.â
Steve tilted his head slightly, like he was listening to something you couldnât hear. âThatâs not what the letter left on your car said.â
You clenched your jaw. âI donât need a babysitter.â
He didnât flinch. âGood. Iâm not here to babysit.â
You hated him already.
â
The first week was torture.
He shadowed your every move. Didnât say much. Sat in corners like a statue carved out of granite.
You tried ditching him once, sneaking out the back of a restaurant. He found you five minutes later â leaning against the wall, arms crossed, utterly unimpressed.
âYou done?â he asked.
You were not.
â
You learned things about him in slivers.
That he didnât drink coffee but always made sure your order was ready before you asked.
That he worked out like a demon every morning and read classic novels when he thought you werenât looking.
That he always stood between you and the door. Without fail.
âYou donât blink,â you told him once.
He cracked half a smile. âI blink when youâre not looking.â
You didnât expect the butterflies.
â
One night, you had a panic attack. Quiet, sudden.
You didnât even know he was still awake until he sat beside you on the couch, close but not too close.
He didnât say anything. Just handed you a glass of water. Kept his hand on your back until your breath slowed.
You looked up at him with damp lashes and whispered, âWhy are you nice to me?â
His voice was low. âBecause someone should be.â
You didnât sleep that night.
â
The threats escalated. Someone followed your car. A brick came through the window of your fatherâs campaign office.
Steve didnât flinch. He started sleeping on your couch.
You pretended not to care.
He pretended you werenât the most dangerous part of this job.
â
Then came the gala.
You wore a deep red dress that made your skin glow.
Steve nearly tripped when you stepped into the room.
You smirked. âEyes up, Captain.â
âDonât tempt me,â he murmured.
That was the first time he touched you on purpose â his hand at the small of your back all night.
Your skin still burned.
â
You were ambushed in the parking garage. He fought off two guys with his bare hands. Got a cut across his ribs.
You drove him home in his own car. Forced him onto the couch.
He winced as you patched him up. âThis is supposed to be my job.â
âWell, you suck at staying unstabbed.â
He laughed, then hissed.
You placed a hand over his. âIâm glad youâre okay.â
His eyes met yours, blue and full of something that made your chest ache.
âYou terrify me,â he said.
You blinked. âWhy?â
âBecause if I lose you, I donât know what Iâd do.â
You kissed him.
He kissed you back like heâd been waiting years.
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You didnât sleep much that night. But neither of you regretted it.