#processing thoughts

Changing Lights, 2024

early mornings in autumn, the city is high voltage beneath beautiful colourful dawn and cloudy skies

Call me

He tells me: “I’m busy for the next year and a half with my album but anyway, Liam is full of s**t.

“He knows as well as I do that he doesn’t want it either. What he does like doing is making me look a c**t.

“He’s being ingenuine (sic) to his beloved Oasis fans who put him where he is today. “Go fing call me then. I’ve said it to him, ‘Call me directly or indirectly. Get your people to call. You don’t even have to speak to me’

“But unless he’s called during this interview, my phone is still silent,” adds Noel, looking at his phone.

“And I’ll tell you why. Because if he calls and I say, ‘Let’s do it’, then he’s got to stand in the same room as me, right? And then it’s on him.

“And he doesn’t want that. He won’t stand in the same room as me because then he’s got to pull it off, and he can’t pull it off. And you can quote me on all of that.”

His good friend Damon Albarn, of Britpop “rivals” Blur, has placed a bet that Oasis will reform following Blur, who play Wembley Stadium next month.

But Noel says with a laugh: “So he’s put money on it. But he’s got enough money to waste.”

Last year Liam and Noel were urged to patch up their relationship as an 80th birthday present to their mum Peggy.

But Noel is having none of it, and says: “I get strangers coming up to me, saying, ‘Be nice to your mum and get back together for her’.

“It’s got nothing to do with my mum. I’m 56, not 17. She has never mentioned anything to me about it.

"She knows not to get involved. I wouldn’t say to my mum, ‘It’s time you and Dad got back together’.”

https://www.thesun.co.uk/tvandshowbiz/22538962/noel-gallagher-liam-oasis-reunion-full-of-it/

Thanks for the heads up!

The stand out quotes to me:

“He knows as well as I do that he doesn’t want it either. What he does like doing is making me look a c**t.

"...my phone is still silent"

“And he doesn’t want that. He won’t stand in the same room as me because then he’s got to pull it off, and he can’t pull it off. And you can quote me on all of that.”

"She knows not to get involved. I wouldn’t say to my mum, ‘It’s time you and Dad got back together’.”

Pull it off = pretend he likes me and can stand to be in the same room as me.

Noel's had it in his head for years and years that Liam doesn't like him. It's even reflected in some of his lyrics 'you put me up like a fly on the wall'. The notion of being ignored, feeling rejected or trying to reach someone who can't be reached is a recurring theme in his solo work. But why does he believe this? It clear as day to the rest of us that Liam adores him.

Noel gives out desperate to reconnect vibes but why won't he call Liam? As big as their egos are, I can't help feeling there is something more to it than mere stubbornness...unless this latest is all about throwing everyone off the scent.

That last quote though...still getting my head around that one...lots to unpick there...

update:

The constant loss of yesterday

And who they used to be

The slow act of letting go

Motherhood is acceptance

That they will need and want less

Each year pulling away

Growing into independence

Motherhood is a small moment

Of being relevant again

But always being the safe space

Always having their back

I heard Copic markers leak on planes, fountain pens explode, and if I bring a whole bottle of ink for my dip pens, it might get confiscated by TSA. (I haven't been on a plane before.) The only ink I'll be able to bring seems like a ballpoint pens, and there are _reasons_ why I switched to brushpens, fountain pens, and dip pens! Ballpoint pens and gel pens just skip too much for me! ;o; Whether it's because of my tiny writing or drawing. Yesterday I had to switch from ballpoint to dip pen just for writing on Post-it Notes! Because I couldn't stand the skipping and unreliable lines anymore. x_x; And the pressure required for ballpoint pens just hurts my hand/wrist/arm now. x_x; But that's enough venting. ^.^;;;;

I've had some practice trying to return to pencils, just a few months ago. And those color pencil flower drawings turned out fine. And by "fine", I mean, it worked with how I think. No psychological blocks about being too afraid to "ruin" good paper or expensive materials, like how I get with watercolor paper or expensive paints. I'd rather get daily drawing practice with cheap materials, than have psychological blocks about "wasting" materials and "ruining" supplies, stopping me from making anything at all.

My only problem is returning to pencil for my linework. Many years ago, I got so fed up with my inked lines losing all the life of my underdrawings, that I started drawing directly with ink instead. And I've been doing that for literal decades now. A little while ago, I tried to return to return to pencil line drawings, and my drawing was so over-worked, that it was ruined even before it was halfway finished. o~o; This must be another psychological block of mine. x_x;;;;;;; Since pencils give me the freedom to re-work lines and my brain has grown accustomed to making each line count, I think my brain no longer knows how to function with a utensil that allows me to re-work lines. I just end up in an endless process of re-doing every line and form, over and over again. x________x;;;;;;;;; It was such a mess last time I used a graphite pencil for linework.

Strangely though, my color pencil sketches don't have that problem, even though I am technically also using pencils for linework. I can only presume that since color pencils are higher than graphite mechanical pencils, on the hierarchy of limited materials that I'm afraid to waste, my brain probably switches back to disallowing over-worked lines.

I've seen multiple posts tonight about Jayvik size difference, and it makes me suspect there's been some discourse lately about JayVik "size difference". It reminded me that I've had some aversion to this trope. But the funny thing is, I'm fine with this trope in JayVik.