#poly diaries

03/13/16 9:19 AM More on the breakup: I’ve heard quite a few people say to me that it’s not that bad because “at least you have another person” (Jessie) Or something a little ruder like “oh gee now you only get to date one person? What a disaster!” So let me clarify this - a breakup is just as bad for polyamorous people as regular mono people. When you lose someone, it still hurts. The only difference is that you have someone else who loves you a lot and is willing to help you through it. I don’t date multiple people in order to combine their personalities and traits into one massive, “perfect” person to date; they’re separate people to me, and having one does not make up for the loss of another. Please respect poly people and their breakups 😰

02/10/16 10:48 PM That GREAT feeling when someone spreads the news about your polyamory around school and people start calling you a SLUT and a CHEATER ! I truly enjoy this school. So much. I'm so upset why do people ... W h y ? ? ?¿?¡¿?!?!¿ TBH :((((

11/29/15 11:21 PM School is stressing me out and all this negativity is just making me feel like one day Jessie and Nathan are gonna realize they're out of my league and they're gonna leave me to be with each other without me weighing them down :c

I just thought of something. You know what one slight setback in a poly relationship is? If you're at different stages with your baes and you go on a group date it's like... You can't make out with one and then lightly kiss the other right? It seems awkward? To just make out in front of one of your baes and not do the same with the other because you haven't gotten there yet with them? What does the third person even do when you're making out with the other one I hate leaving people out but I can't make out with two people at once AHHH someone help how do you make things equal when you're doing this stuff

Poly Diaries #4 11/28/15 4:03 PM I started this post earlier but then something got in my eye and I died Anyway so we had an ice cream (shaved ice, whatever) date today!! It was super cute and we cuddled in the back of Nathan's car and everything was super great and super cute and I got lots of kisses which made me nervous And they made so many puns they're such a great and cute duo I love them ahhhh @jessiezombifyed @everything-is-created-as-nothing (yes Nathan got a tumblr yay)

Poly Diaries #2 11/21/15 1:46 am Did I say I was going to sleep? I lied. Here are my babies. Nathan on the left and Jessie on the rightt. Fuck me up guys y'all are SOBFUCKIBG adorable and gorgeous and amazing goodbye

11/21/15 1:22 AM So everyone is asleep and I am truly desperate to share this with SOMEONE for the LOVE OF GOD so here I am introducing a new series that may or may not be updated regularly (most likely not) regarding my poly relationship :) if anyone needs advice on polyamory you can read this or ask me! Or if you're not interested blacklist the tag "poly diaries" First things first I'm dating two cutie patooties and TBH I'm in love ok???? I'll have a separate post of my babies' faces later. Anyway so... Here we go Their names are Nathan and Jessie. Nathan is a bisexual demigirl with pronouns he/him/his. He's in college and he's a huge nerd. Jessie is a bisexual girl with pronouns she/her/hers. She's in high school and she's a huge nerd too. They're both gorgeous and adorable and selfless and kind and it's great. So Nathan and I met last year May 4th after the chemistry AP exam. It was so great, we started dating on the 15th :3 a lot has happened since then. No need to go too deeply into that, but I'm willing to share if y'all send an ask. But we're six months and counting!! And Jessie and I very technically met this year around August/September but we've seen each other around for over a year. This story is gonna be a mess btw. So I have this friend named Justin, he's great! He met Jessie a few weeks after me i think. So Jessie started liking him but the problem is Justin's super stressed and has issues with relationships and personal things that I shall not give away so he said he couldn't date her (even though I was trying to help them get together). Anyway then I was sad and Nathan got sad cuz he wasn't too okay with me dating other people but he wanted me to be happy and he knew I liked Jessie. And then apparently Jessie had a crush on me since like last year and I was like !!!!!!!!!! And so we're kind of together right now? No labels yet even though Nathan wants us to have a label. Anyway. Today We went on our first poly date to watch Mockingjay (no spoilers I promise) and it was super cute I was sandwiched between the two of them and I was super nervous cuz it was my first time and I was like AHHHH and then I held their hands. And since I kinda just got with Jessie we hadn't even held hands yet (especially cuz we want to not get judged at school for polyamory) so it was super new and I was nervous and then she KISSED MY CHEEK DURING THE MOVIE AND I COULDNT STOP SMILING AND THESE TWO DORKS WERE SQUISHING ME AND CUDDLING ME AND IT WAS SO GREAT I AM SO HAPPY EVEN THOUGH I AM SO DEPRESSED BECAUSE OF SCHOOL. Anyway the main reason I made this post was this: Nathan was pushing me and Jessie to kiss today and it made me all panicky and nervous and Jessie has more guts than me even though she says she's shy. And so right as they were about to leave (Nathan would drive Jessie home and my mom would pick me up) I was like I'll go for a hug and then turn to kiss her cheek. So we went for the hug AND WHEN I TRIED TO KISS HER CHEEK SHE TURNED AND I KISSED THE SIDE OF HER MOUTH AND IT WAS SOFTBAND NICE AND I FREAKED OUT AND I GRABBED MY SHIT AND I RAN AND I WAS LIKE "I LOVE YOU BOTH" AND THEN I JUST RAN AWAY I AM SO AOSOSOSO SUCH A WIMP SAVE ME I AM SO IN LOVE AHH I LOVE NATHAN AND JESSIE SO MUCH THIS IS TOO MUCH FLR ME TO HANDLE I NEED TO SLEEP GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!