taking a step back, but not like, all the way ~
an update about me, my online presence and mental health, for those of you who care about me, or my work, or are just curious about whatâs going on!Â
Iâm going to try to keep this short and simple, so, here we go, time to be vulnerable lmaoÂ
basically, Iâve been using internet, esp Tumblr, as some form of substitute to being a normal, healthy, working person, and thatâs not healthy or productive at all!
without going into too much details, I have chronic illnesses that stops me from having a normal job, or any job, or to do anything full-time, and I already have some mental health issues, and that combo isnât great, so when I write or make AUâs or do things that do well, I take that feeling of accomplishment too far, I give it too much space, and itâs just not working anymore?Â
I come here to have fun, to indulge myself in my hobbies and happy thoughts, and even people like me, people who donât live an A4 life, need that.Â
I shouldnât take that away from myself.Â
First off all, Iâm putting all requests on hold, for now.Â
Iâll get to them, maybe tomorrow, maybe in a month, but I need to just... not make any promises right now?Â
Secondly, no promises in general.Â
That means no big projects, no talking about big fics or auâs or other stuff, at least not until Iâm in a better place, mentally and physically.Â
I need to get a normal relationship with this whole... thing, and I need to take some time to do just that.Â
This is all sounding so stupid, but itâs been tearing me down lately, and I need to work on it.Â
I will, however, still be active here, throw some headcanons and drabbles and rambles and all that jazz out here, just on a more... casual note?Â
tldr; I need to get a more natural relationship with being on here, without putting pressure on myself all requests are on hold for a while, but Iâll keep posting small stuff randomly, and reblogging and all that jazz!Â