#mrydbe?

an update about me, my online presence and mental health, for those of you who care about me, or my work, or are just curious about what’s going on! 

I’m going to try to keep this short and simple, so, here we go, time to be vulnerable lmao 

basically, I’ve been using internet, esp Tumblr, as some form of substitute to being a normal, healthy, working person, and that’s not healthy or productive at all!

without going into too much details, I have chronic illnesses that stops me from having a normal job, or any job, or to do anything full-time, and I already have some mental health issues, and that combo isn’t great, so when I write or make AU’s or do things that do well, I take that feeling of accomplishment too far, I give it too much space, and it’s just not working anymore? 

I come here to have fun, to indulge myself in my hobbies and happy thoughts, and even people like me, people who don’t live an A4 life, need that. 

I shouldn’t take that away from myself. 

So, now what? 

First off all, I’m putting all requests on hold, for now. 

I’ll get to them, maybe tomorrow, maybe in a month, but I need to just... not make any promises right now? 

Secondly, no promises in general. 

That means no big projects, no talking about big fics or au’s or other stuff, at least not until I’m in a better place, mentally and physically. 

I need to get a normal relationship with this whole... thing, and I need to take some time to do just that. 

This is all sounding so stupid, but it’s been tearing me down lately, and I need to work on it. 

I will, however, still be active here, throw some headcanons and drabbles and rambles and all that jazz out here, just on a more... casual note?