#playwitrox

When one makes a conscious decision to become their future version. It’s like a tide.

Moments of clarity appear and disappear. Old and new dance together sometimes even fight each other, then there is a harmony of self.

I constantly fight my old version. I mean constantly. The belief of being less than, the facade of fear, and just defaulting to a life unnoticed.

Maybe it’s a reminder of being humble. Never forgetting where I came from, and learning to adapt to those at the places I’ve been.

We all go through things and the ebb and flow is part of the constant. It’s about being at peace with it.

How can an emotion be the reason for everything?

I feel that enlightenment is when you are able to have no thoughts and to feel everything as one.

I’m thinking...(of stillness) I’m in a moment feeling the pain of the people, but I can also feel the love of the people. How did I get to this point? It’s like all of these moments from my past to my present there were these little “blips” in time that I recall. It’s like connecting the dots. All of these moments have created the version I am today. I’m realizing that everything happens for a reason to build upon who you are. If you didn’t get the lesson, the universe will show it back to you again and again in different visuals or sounds or feelings until You. Get . It. Only until you learn will you grow. If you resist the change that’s okay, you may need more time. Learn, practice, teach yourself to be grateful. It’s how we grow.

There are so many steps because they are endless. To find the right step is to find your purpose, once you find your purpose you find you. When you find you, you share your gift with others, all so you can see yourself and know that you are part of one of the most beautiful things ever created. To see yourself is to see beauty in others, then they’ll see the beauty in you. The constant flow of water...Bruce Lee said, “Be like water my friends,” and that’s exactly what this is. Knowing we are all connected from the water to the most microscopic essence of life we are one. Always have been and always will be.

Currently watching an episode of On Purpose with Jay Shetty with Will Smith:

Something I absorbed...humans are forever interesting to me. I know I am one but I have an experience from time to time where I feel I can look outside myself so to speak.

They’re discussing how humans naturally want revenge when they feel wronged or disrespected. (Very true) which to me is a natural response but, us humans have free will. We can choose to act on it or not.

It’s funny, in some cases, I’ll express my ability to not react in certain situations since it’s just not worth my time or peace, others would perceive me as “crazy”. Now I know what their version of “crazy” means to me.

“Crazy” is not doing something someone else would do, so of course it would seem “crazy” to them. It’s not in their vision currently to behave this way.

There is not right or wrong, however there is a doing of what’s best for the person.

Think about your favorite teacher. Why do you remember them? Did you pass the class? Do you still remember what they taught you today?

Attitude makes everything. It’s like water for the flower to grow, it’s necessary and it makes growing, easier. 

Attitude helps people learn, helps people connect. 

Attitude makes sweeping floors a meditation instead of just an annoying task. 

It’s the moments that are the most difficult where faith is present. It’s the moments where you’re feeling doubt is where faith thrives.

I’ve come to learn that faith is a lens. It’s a moment where your mind is attached to fear, but you choose to see the light. It’s a choice to focus on the end result instead of attaching to the “what if” or “will it” moments.

Watching an episode of Home on Apple TV. If you have the ability to see this, please do so.

I love watching shows that make me think. Make me see how other people think. Stories of people taking a path that they created vs a path that was already made.

This is why I love creativity so much, it’s “beautifully risky”. As someone that used to deny themselves this gift, embracing it now is liberating and magical.

When we step outside of “the norm” we can see there is beauty already all around us. It’s so important to change and embrace change.

This is a freedom we all have and it looks different to all of us. Creating. We can create things from food, to cleaning to whatever it is, creativity lies in it.

Today, do something creative. Whatever it means to you.

What is love?

Is this the question we all ask that we know the answer to, or do we actually have no clue?

I feel it’s in the eye of the beholder. Everyone has a different meaning; learning as they grow and some from reference of their past. I don’t feel love means one thing, it can change, it can grow, it can die or be reawakened. 

For me, love is care, compassion, support and will to spend your time with someone on a similar path. To vibe. To see eye to eye on the bond you share. 

Love can be for someone, or something. 

I have a love for writing, speaking, self expression. It’s a learned love. A growing love. Love is fear. Love is conquering or learning about your desires. Vulnerability. 

It can be so simple yet so difficult. 

Something that I keep hearing in my head is from the album S.E.M.U by Classique516, from the song Ostinato Ft. Jordan Grizzle. 

I keep hearing, “What I need from you isn’t major...” 

How many times have you expressed a feeling like this to someone, something or even yourself? 

I feel the title alone speaks volumes, meaning repetition. Something being played over and over. I feel she speaks of support from a higher power, pleading for care and guidance. Or is it from within, or from someone? Questions I hope to ask her personally...maybe on a follow-up interview. 

When we accept things, they become real.

When we accept things…… they become, real.

When we accept things….. they. Become. Real.

We are slowing coming to the realization that emotions are so deep within us… that we are emotional creatures.

Although important, the things we put in our bodies can sometimes have zero effect towards healing what is within.

So what does that mean?

Looking within has more answers than looking without.

Emotional pain is what we mask with external “things”.

We were human before all of this “stuff”.

Flowers were enough, trading spices was enough…

We have so many “things” now.

Disease is Dis-ease.

Focus on healing thyself from the pain of the past to begin seeing your true self.

It is unpopular.

However, what’s more important?

Doing what everyone else does? Or doing what works best for you?